Chapter 2 : Circus Freak

Hello again! I decided to write another chapter because I am on break from school and have nothing to do due to a huge snow storm that has decided to leave 20 cm of snow. It's actually quite beautiful but very cold so I thought why not!

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I have nothing to wear for tonight. I mean I have a lot of clothing, a lot of which consists of skirts and beautiful blouses but nothing that will make Koga look at me like the woman I am. I need to look good because he's taking me to dinner for our 2 year anniversary of dating. I have no idea where he plans on taking me but I know that it will be an elegant, expensive place that I wouldn't go to on my own. It's not that I don't have the money but I feel as though it's a waste of money, I would be happy just spending the day at home making a home cooked meal enjoying each other's company.

Without anything decent to wear, I go to Sango's place. Sango is my best friend, one of the only people I trust. I met her just after my mom died; her father was in the bed beside my mom's bed in the hospital. We were there for each other since that day; she's like the sister I never had. She has beautiful fair skin, brown eye and hair, and a petite but muscular body. Though she loves to keep her style simple, I can envision the dress I want from her closet because I bought it for her.

"Kagome! Come in, I'll make some tea!" Sango said as she opened the door wide for me.

"Thanks," I gave her a quick hug but proceeded to my target, "I'm borrowing some of your clothing!"

I didn't even have to listen to her response because I know she won't mind, she has a big heart. Sure enough, the dress was in her closet. It's perfect! It's a beautiful dress that is red in colour, has a sweetheart neckline, and reaches just above the knee but isn't too scandalous. I grab the dress and bring it to the living room.

"Ouu, are you wearing that tonight for Koga?"

"Yeah, I know he'll like this one. It's gorgeous."

"You know, you don't have to wear gorgeous things, you're already gorgeous enough. He's lucky to have you."

Sango doesn't care much for Koga, she doesn't outright tell me he's a problem but she's always been good at seeing through appearance and looking at the personality of an individual. It makes me worry that my best friend doesn't approve of him but what else can I do, I mean I love him.

"Thanks Sango but I want to look great, plus the place is going to be so elegant, I don't want to look under dressed."

After enjoying a cup of tea with Sango I decided to make my way to the park my mom took me to when I was a little girl. I love this place. After taking a seat on her bench I decide to allow myself to calm down. This is my thinking place, I've never taken anyone here with me because it's the one place I can be myself and feel completely at home.

Maybe Koga isn't the man for me… I've always been very reserved around him because I always think of the story my mom told me about true love, how instant and beautiful it is. But Koga is good to me, I can't deny that even though these last few months he's been distant because of work…

Enough of this, I need to prepare for dinner and get out of this depressing mood. Grabbing my bags I make my way out of the park, keeping my head low, reflecting on my life. Near the entrance of the park I look to find a cab but instead lock eyes with the eyes from my dream.

I stand there frozen. Wow, those eyes are so mesmerizing. My heart has stopped, I can't speak and I can't move. I've never felt this way before. He begins to move but I can't let him go, I need to meet this man.

"WAIT!" I start to run after him but he looks alarmed and is gone before I can even register what happened.

I look insane! What is wrong with me! That poor stranger is probably so frightened by me but I couldn't help it. My heart aches now that he's gone. How could this stranger strike such a response in me? I'm so confused, should I go looking for him or go home? I look at the time and I know I have to go home if I want to make it to dinner in time. I look back to where he ran just in case he's there again but sadly he isn't and I walk away heartbroken at something I don't understand. I hope I see him again soon.

After spending an hour getting ready, I call a cab to take me to the restaurant Koga chose. He hasn't spoken to me all day except sending me a message to tell me the location to meet. I should be nervous about how he's acting but I'm so preoccupied by the man with the golden eyes that I can't focus on anything.

Once entering the restaurant, I'm taken to the table where Koga is sitting. He looks good as usual. He's wearing a fitted black suit that shows his muscles nicely. However, once I focus on his face I see that he looks so nervous so I give him a reassuring hug and take my seat. He already ordered everything for dinner so we sit and chat about his day, though I can't tell you what he did because I couldn't focus long enough. I did however notice that Koga wasn't his usual confident self; he was more reserved and stiff.

"Kagome… Kagome… are you okay?" he waved his hand in front of my face to get my attention.

Wow, we're already done supper, have I zoned out that whole time? Okay, snap out of it! I put my full attention on Koga, "Yeah, sorry this is lovely."

"Well Kagome, I took you here for a reason. This is the place my parents got engaged and so I just..." he stood up grabbed my hand and went on one knee, "I wanted to know if you would take me as your husband?"

OH SHIT. OH SHIT. OH SHIT. I have no idea what to say. What is wrong with me? I can feel my face heating up so I know it's probably so red right now. Everyone is staring, what do I say?

I know what I should say, I shouldn't marry this man. Shouldn't you be happy about something like this? The man you love asking you to marry to him? I'm not happy; I'm just confused and scared.

"Koga, this is… lovely… and you're such a kind man but…" I slowly take my hand from his, "I can't do this. I love you but I don't know about forever. I'm so sorry" I get up and panic, "I should go, I'm so sorry."

I put some money on the table, I feel rude for rejecting him so I should pay for myself. I ran out of there so fast and I can't help but cry. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I should have been happy about this. Still running I let my body take me where it wants to be, at the park. Poor Koga, I shouldn't have run away but I was so scared. As I run, people look at me as if I was a circus freak.

I collapse at the bench in the park. I feel so awful but this was all wrong, this relationship wasn't fair to him but I can't see being with him forever. When I finally collect myself, I look around to see that I'm the only one at the park. I wonder how long I've been here but I feel a little better after crying for a little while. Dragging myself off the bench I decide to go home. It's cold and I shouldn't be in a park this late.

Taking in my surroundings one last time, I see something that grabs my attention. I start to walk in that direction without thinking. There he is, that strange man with the beautiful eyes… He looks at me straight in the eyes and it makes me stop in my tracks. This time he approaches me.

"What are you doing out here?" His voice makes me melt; it's one of those voices that make you want to throw your clothing away.

"I, um, I just ran here. I don't know. I should go," I feel so tired like I might fall asleep at any second.

"You ran after me earlier? Maybe you shouldn't do that anymore, people will think your absolutely nuts, wench."

Is he mad? "Um, I'm sorry. It's just… What's your name?"

"Maybe I should take you home you look cold…" He grabbed my wrist and got a cab.

I couldn't stop staring at him the whole way home. I've never seen anyone like him. He looks like a demon but he also looks incredibly human. He's gorgeous. He must feel me staring because he turns his face away and huffs at me. Okay, stop staring Kagome… At this point we arrive at my address. He gets out of the car and opens my side all the while somehow managing to pay the driver.

"Alright, go inside and get some rest, you look awful"

OKAY, OUCH.

"Uh, yeah thanks? Will I see you again?" I say a little too desperately.

"No, I don't really care for this stuff…" he begins to walk away without saying good bye.

"THANKS AGAIN," I sound crazy, I should get inside.

I make my way inside but think about what he said. He doesn't care for this stuff? He doesn't care to have friends? What does he do? Is he a hermit? I'm disappointed, I really wanted to see him again, and the connection I feel with him is unbelievable. Does he feel it too?

He seemed mad when talking to me, like how he called me wench? What's a wench? It sounds rude but his eyes didn't look mad, just sad. And how he didn't stay to chat, I know I look tired but he couldn't just tell me his name? He gives off an angry vibe but I don't buy it, his eyes tell another story. I'm so intrigued.

Exhausted from the day I decide it's time for bed. I plug in my phone, seeing 32 missed calls but just ignore them and go to bed. I have work tomorrow so I should get some rest. Drifting to sleep I make a promise to myself that I will find my stranger again soon.

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