Void Chapter 2, a twilight fanfic

A/N: Sorry this chapter isn't very big, and also a little repetitive, I wanted to show what they were both feeling. I hope you like it.

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BPOV

When I woke up and felt a pair of cold arms wrapped around me, I thought it had all been a terrible dream, so I snuggled closer and smiled as I waited for my Edward to greet me with his usual velvet voice.

Bella?

But when I heard my name, my world came crashing down on me once more. It hadn't been a dream; I wasn't safe in Edwards's arms. Edward was gone.

Bella... Bella please say something? I know it hurts, I know you must feel like the world has ended, that you'll never find happiness again, but I'm here, please let me help you... I need to help you Bella or I'll be swallowed by the pain. I lost everything too Bella! I know exactly how you feel, please let me in...

His voice was barely a whisper as he finished talking, the pain had been evident in his voice as he spoke and I was afraid to open my eyes for fear that seeing that pain reflected in his eyes would be too much to bare. As I thought of Jasper in so much pain I remembered Alice and the pain once more threatened to drag me down into the abyss, but I fought against it. I wasn't the only one that had lost so much, here Jasper was, holding me together, feeling all my pain, when his must be so much deeper. I couldn't continue hurting him in this way. He had brought me out of the darkness and I had to help him.

Jasper...

My voice came out as barely a whisper as it threatened to break from the impending tears that would inevitably fall. It seems that was all I had been doing lately, I had been selfish and I had hurt my family. They had all lost so much and here I was oblivious to anything but my own pain.

Bella please don't feel that way...

I...

No, listen to me! You are not selfish, no one expects anything from you Bella, you have lost so much, and it's only natural that you think of yourself throughout this.

I'm so sorry Jasper, you must be hurting so much right now, and being with me can't be helping you. I'll be ok if you want to leave...

Bella, I'm not going anywhere... please believe me when I say there is nowhere else I want to be! Being with you helps, you're the only one who knows exactly how I feel... So please don't push me away, let me help you.

Jasper I...

Then the tears finally fell and I couldn't speak anymore. Then I felt Jasper wrap his arms around me tighter and pull closer to him. As I cried I felt his body gently shake as he held me, and I knew that he must have succumbed to his own pain as well. So I wrapped my arms around him tighter to let him know that he wasn't alone and that I would help him just as he was helping me.

JPOV

I watched as she slept curled safely in my arms, I listened to the steady beating of her heart and felt her small breath release against my chest where her head lay. Whenever she showed any sign of distress I would send her waves of what little calm I could muster and she would settle back into a deep sleep. I knew she needed rest so I helped her sleep throughout the night. In the morning I heard her breathing change and I knew that she would be waking up, so I prepared myself to deal with her emotions. What I felt from her shocked me though, the only emotions coming from her were relief, contentment and love, and I felt her tiny arms wrap around me as she pulled herself closer to my body, and when her tiny hand found my bare skin on my side where my t-shirt had ridden up during the night, the heat was almost too much. I had to move, this couldn't be good, she probably thought she had been dreaming and that I was Edward, and for a brief moment I wanted to be, I wanted to be the person to make her feel this way, to make her happy again, but I wasn't.

Bella?

I needed her to know that it was me holding her, letting her continue to believe that Edward was still with her would only hurt her more when she remembered what had happened. When she heard my voice I felt her emotions shift immediately back to the unbearable pain and loss that I had felt from her only yesterday.

Jasper...

When she finally spoke her voice was barely a whisper and I could hear the tears threatening to fall and then I was hit with a new emotion from her... guilt, this just confused me. I didn't understand why she would feel this way. Surely she couldn't blame herself for the battle, when we had spoken before the battle about her fears, the whole family had reassured her that she was a part of our family now and we would protect her, and any guilty feeling she had, had evaporated. But why the guilt now? Then it hit me, being the selfless creature that she is she probably felt bad for allowing herself to be consumed with her own pain when the rest of us must be suffering just as much, if not more. I wouldn't allow this to continue, she had to know that it was ok to think of herself for once, and that I was here for her.

Bella please don't feel that way...

I...

No, listen to me! You are not selfish, no one expects anything from you Bella, you have lost so much, it's only natural that you think of yourself throughout this.

I'm so sorry Jasper, you must be hurting so much right now, and being with me can't be helping you. I'll be ok if you want to leave...

Jasper I...

She didn't manage to finish as the tears finally fell and her small body was wracked by her silent sobs. So I pulled her back to me and wrapped my arms around her, offering what comfort I could to her before her pain dragged me under and I felt my own tearless sobs run through my body. Bella must have felt this too as she wrapped her arms around me and I felt her compassion. She was helping me now, just as I was helping her, and I knew in that moment that as long as we were together we would get through this and I found hope that someday we would both be able to smile once again.

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