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Edward's povI watched from the doorway as Alice hugged Bella, I heard the words they exchanged and it was then that I knew something was vitally wrong.
Then realization hit me
She chose Jacob
In so many ways I knew Jacob was better for her and a small part of me hopped that she would choose him. But that didn't spare me the heartache.
As she approached I fought the pain that I knew she would detect in my eyes. My face clouded over with the blank mask that hid the emotions I didn't want Bella to see. But inside pain raged, ripping at my insides and almost pulling me to my knees.
She came closer and walked up the front steps slowly.
"Edward, I'm so sorry." Her voice cracked on the last word and I could tell she was fighting tears. "I just love him more." She turned her head toward the forest, not wanting to look at me.
Alice walked around us toward the door, and paused there to give both of us sympathetic looks, before heading up the stairs.
I didn't reply. I focused on not letting the pain escape. Finally I managed "this isn't goodbye is it? We can still be friends, right?"
After a moment she turned her head and I tried to absorb as much as I could. Her brown eyes, pail skin, her lips, and hair, remembering, as I looked at her the blush that looked so beautiful. I couldn't imagine not being able to see her again. I remembered when I had left and how hard that was.
"No, this isn't goodbye. We could try to be friends, or at least still be in contact. I don't want to hurt you or Jacob any more than I already have." I could see that it was a relief to her that I had asked that question. But their was another question raiging to be answered, was their a chance she would change her mind? I couldn't ask that. I couldn't cause her more pain.
"Don't worry about hurting me, whatever makes you happy I'm okay with." It was true. She could have whatever part of me she wanted; she couldn't hurt me more than leaving me. "You can always change your mind, it's never too late." I didn't want to make her question her decision but I had to let her know that it was never too late for her to pick me. Part of me was with her for picking Jacob, he could give her so much more and he didn't have to worry about crushing her and wouldn't have to turn her into a vampire so that she would be protected from me. That still didn't stop the pain that coursed through me.
"I know, if it's okay with Jacob I won't leave you for good, I just don't want to hurt him any more, I don't want to hurt ether of you any more." She was struggling with tears and I couldn't stop myself from reaching forward and hugging her, tucking her head under my chin and kissing her hair.
I don't know how long we stood there like that, maybe a minute or two, but finally she pushed away and as she walked down the steps she took my heart with her. I followed her to her truck and opened the driver's side door for her and before I closed it I said "you will always have my heart and my love, you know where to find me."
I closed the door softly and walked at a human pace to the front porch and turned to take one last glimpse of her as she slowly backed down the driveway.
Should I really just let her go or should I keep fighting? I asked myself as I sped to my room and let the pain escape.