I Am a Snowflake

Winter

I always despised winter.

My view of this season is similar to others. The cold air is harsh and unjust. The flowers of our family garden wilt and die. I can't find the beauty of this season I hate.

My family is guilty of this as well. My father would be gone during winter to mourn for the loss of the woman I killed…

My mother

I was born in the season of winter. Though my life began, my mother's life ended. And it was because of this that my father was distant from me.

While my older sister whose name was the very same season I hated, despised me. Unlike me, Winter knew our mother and loved her. If it wasn't for me my sister would still have the mother she loves.

My existence should not be a reality. Because of this I cannot be a member of our family. But even so, throughout my life I had done everything I could to please my family. I did everything I was told to do. I honed my talent for singing until it was the epitome of perfection. I only spoke when spoken to and I never did anything to embarrass the Schnee family.

Because of my efforts my father became closer to me. He gave me more attention. But it wasn't out of love. I was only a spare. If my sister proved unworthy as an heiress then I would be chosen instead.

But because of my new found worth my father was much stricter with me. Everything I did had to be perfect. I had to be the best at everything.

But I knew that I wanted to be so much more in life then an heiress. I wanted to prove that I wasn't just a rich girl who got everything she ever asked for.

So I decided to start my training as a huntress.

My father objected to my decision. He told me I was too weak for a career as a huntress. It was at that moment when he compared me to the most fragile of all existences.

He called me a snowflake.

When my father calls me snowflake it isn't because he thinks that I'm his beautiful daughter. He says it because he thinks that I'm his weak and fragile daughter who can't do anything on her own.

After that one comparison I began my training despite all my father's protests. I started my education as a huntress.

And because of that one decision I was able to make friends that will last me a life time.

…

Out of all the wonderful friends I met there was one that was the most interesting. He was a boy who was tall, blonde and scraggly as well as a cursed victim of motion sickness.

Jaune Arc

My initial view of the dunce was that he was a complete idiot. But after being friends with him for a whole year (almost two now) my view of him as of right now…

Was that he was a complete idiot.

After all this time he was the same vomit boy I came to know.

But that wasn't a bad thing at all. In fact I came to greatly care for him. He loved me not because of the perks of my last name but because he saw the real me. He didn't love Weiss Schnee. He only loved Weiss. He only loved me.

But I only pushed him away merely assuming that he was the same as every other boy. Because of this oversight I ended up making a terrible mistake that I consider my greatest one of all.

I accepted Neptune, a boy who I had only met a few times over Jaune, the boy who tried to get my attention for so long.

Speaking of the suave blue hair boy, he and I broke up a year after the dance. But we both agreed to it. Because he and I both knew that in my heart Jaune was the person I loved. He even told me that when I talked about him my smile was brighter and far more beautiful than it ever was otherwise.

I believed him. I always felt happier when I somehow incorporated Jaune in our conversations.

So we broke up.

And Neptune and I are happy with our decision.

…

I was walking back to my dorm alone. It was winter break and I had a project I needed to start on. I would have worked with my team but they left for their break. Yang and Ruby took Zwei to visit their father.

Blake went to visit her old partner Adam at his new apartment in Vacuo. Honestly I don't know if they're going out. Either way the two have gotten close.

Which leaves me, the loneliest girl of them all. I would have went back home for the break but I decided against it. Tomorrow is the anniversary of my mother's death.

As well as my birthday;

Another year without anyone celebrating my birthday I suppose.

I didn't mind though. Besides, I need to concentrate on this project that Professor Oobleck assigned us.

As I was prepared to go to my door I suddenly colliede with someone. The person my body made contact with just had to be him didn't it?

Of course I crash into you Vomit Boy.

The boy I somehow fell in love with was in front of me wearing a grey sweater with a white scarf around his neck. He had his normal blue jeans on as well. His blonde hair was as unkempt as it usually is.

Just the way I like it.

"Sorry Weiss I didn't mean to run into you."

I turn my head so he could only see side of my face without the scar. "I suppose I can forgive you."

Why do I do that? I love him yet I can never show my affections.

Jaune smiles. It's the same smile I've grown to love more and more each time I see it.

"Maybe I can make it up to you with a date."

'Yes' I wanted to shout it. But I could only say yes within my mind. I love you Jaune. But I have to keep these feelings of mine caged in my heart.

So I only glare at Jaune signaling that I was declining his offer. He simply laughs though which causes a smile to form upon my own lips. His laughter was always found a way to make me happy. I don't know why but…

It just does.

Even though he and I aren't lovers I believe I can say this for both of us. Jaune and I are perfectly content with our simple friendship. I'm just happy that I can be with him.

"So why are you still here?" He asked with genuine curiosity. It was an innocent question one which I would answer truthfully.

To an extent that is.

With a sigh I place my hand on my hip. "I decided that I'd rather spend my break alone. I figured I could work on our winter assignment and be done with it early."

I didn't want to tell my knight that I wanted to stay away from my family. So I kept that part out. Besides, he doesn't need to know about my relationship with my family.

"Um, Weiss what is the project exactly?" He asked while staring at me with confusion.

Of course he doesn't know. Even though this dunce has made significant improvements academically and physically he still has the habit of day dreaming during class. Honestly if he would spend as much time studying and paying attention as he does reading his comic books and playing games during his free time he could surpass me and even Pyrrha.

As I was mulling over these thoughts I failed to notice Jaune's terrified expression. I must be glaring at him unintentionally again. I always do that!

Apparently it's my infamous "Ice Queen" glare.

Why does everyone call me that anyways?

So judging by his fearful expression he's probably deduced two of the possible outcomes.

I freeze him for the 13th time. Jaune would have you believe that I froze him some ridiculous number of times. But I assure you that they are only reoccurring nightmares.

Nightmares which started after the first time I froze him in place. It's his fault for walking in on me while I was changing.

However, the other outcome is that I scold him then freeze him.

But I won't since I honestly expected this from him. "Jaune, Professor Oobleck gave us the assignment the day before winter break."

"I remember now!" You liar.

"Really, then do you know what the project is?" I already know what he's going to say. And the moment he says it I'll roll my eyes.

"Of course I do… do you know what the project is?" And my eyes roll. Typical Arc.

"Discuss why the harsh winter caused the downfall of General Bradley's army in the 2nd War of Remnant and discuss ways that Bradley could have prevented this downfall."

Jaune nods his head in approval pretending that he was proud that I remembered. "It's seems you've been paying attention. Well done Weiss."

Give me a break.

"Geez, praise from Vomit Boy I feel so proud."

"It's been a year why can't you guys drop it?!"

I smile; it wasn't because of his displeasure. No, I was smiling because the boy I fell in love with was the same as always. I felt pride for the fact that I was his friend. I was proud that he has improved and yet is still the same boy that captured my heart.

"Even though you don't act like it, you've done well for yourself. I'm proud of you. You've become a student worthy of your position here at Beacon."

I wanted to say more. I wanted to tell you how I feel. I wanted to tell you that I made a mistake of not choosing you. But I knew I couldn't. It wasn't because I was afraid of rejection. Rather, it was because I was afraid you'd accept my feelings. You deserve someone strong and kind, someone who could give you warmth and happiness.

You don't deserve someone like me, a snowflake. I am weak and inconsiderate. I am someone who could bring you neither warmth nor happiness.

I am a fragile snowflake.

"Thank you Snowflake." He said with a kind tone.

Snowflake

So he agrees with my father? I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

I simply smile prepared to say my goodbye. "I guess I'll see you later." I turn my back towards him and place my cold hand on the equally cold handle. As I turn the handle and pull the door open the voice I could never mistake stops me.

"Weiss"

"Yes"

My back was still towards him. I couldn't look at him. I couldn't stare at his ocean eyes that I could get lost in. I just couldn't. Because he was like my father, he viewed my existence as a fragile one with that simple comparison.

"I know you already said no to me. But I was wondering if you could reconsider."

I said nothing. What could I say? Push him even farther away?

"Weiss, just give me a chance. Please…"

I want to. I want to be with you but I know that I can't. So please. Just let me go.

"Tomorrow, just this one date that's all I ask."

Tomorrow? My birthday…

I smile. Despite tomorrow being the anniversary of Mother's death it is also my birthday. I'm supposed to have one wish for my birthday.

My wish

"Weiss" Jaune steps closer to me.

My wish

Another step

My wish

Another step

My wish

And yet another step

My wish

I hear no other footstep as I turned to face Jaune who was only a few inches away from me.

...

...

My wish is to be with you.

"When should we meet?"

I know I said two-shot but I've changed my mind. This will have a third chapter and possibly a fourth. Also, for those of you waiting for my next chapter of XIII (Revamped) rest assured I'm working on it. But I also have another treat for you. To be honest it's just another way to advertise this story but also provide entertainment for you guys. Don't worry my "treat" won't take long for me to forge.

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