Part 2: Thought's of a Hanyou

As Inuyasha began to regain consciousness, he looked around to find Shippo glaring at him inches away.

"You're such a baka, Inuyasha," the little kitsune growled at him. "I can't believe you forgot what tomorrow was. And now she most likely is not going to come back for a whole week. Are you happy now?"

Inuyasha was a little surprised by Shippo's attitude towards him. The little kit knew this happened a lot. Kagome would end up going home, but then she would always return.

'I hope she come's back this time,' he silently thought to himself. Now, he really felt like and asshole, Kagome was right.

"Keh, she'll come back for you runt," he said sounding like his old self. Putting on the tough act was all he knew how to do. Being kind and loving only showed weakness in the demon world. So he had to act like he didn't care. But, that was the hard part about having a human heart, because, he did care. "She wouldn't leave just because of me. You're her son now. So you do hold seniority over me. So get over yourself," he added gruffly.

But Shippo still glared at him.

"If you weren't so stupid, you'd actually see that I'm not the only reason she comes back!" he yelled at the hanyou. He knew he couldn't say it out loud, but his mind was screaming at the man in front of him. 'She's in love with you! And all you can do is think about Kikyo ! A woman who is bound to death and tragedy! A woman who doesn't laugh like my Mommy! A woman who can't smile and make you feel better like my Mommy can! And a woman who never wanted you as you are, like Mommy does!'

Inuyasha stared at Shippo, trying to read what the little pain was trying to say, but unfortunately, he wasn't a mind reader. So he just brushed him off.

"I'm going to go back and get her. And then I'm going to give her a piece of my mind," he said almost too softly for his liking.

"Wait!," someone shouted from off in the distance. "Inuyasha, hold on a second!"

Inuyasha looked up to see Miroku and Sango running along the path to the well. He sighed. Knowing already what they were going to say to him. Thinking fast, he decided to run into his forest. Blocking out their shouts as he ran, he found himself feeling very hurt. Kagome's words had really hurt him this time. They had known each other for three years now. And that was the first time he had ever heard her swear and scream at him like that. And the way she had sat him this time was different from all of the other times. This time it was to get away from him.

Jumping into a rather tall tree, he sat down, bringing his knees up to his chest. Making sure there was no one else around, he softly cried into his kimono. This was the only time he would allow his emotions to show, when he was completely alone. The pain he was feeling in his chest was something close to unbearable anguish. He felt lower than he had the last time they had fought.

'I love her, I know I do. But why can't I just bring myself to tell her? Am I really that afraid of being rejected by her? Do I seriously want her to know?,' he thought yet again. These questions had been plaguing him for months. And every time Kikyo came by with new information about Naraku, he felt like things were just getting worse. He had told Kikyo he wasn't going to hell with her under any circumstances now. He had told her he had found his reason to live, and that she would need to accept it.

She hadn't been all too happy. But she still wanted to help him the best she could. Now the only reason she would return was to tell Inuyasha of new information.

'Kagome, I'm so sorry. I completely forgot it was your birthday tomorrow. How am I going to make this up to her now? She's probably still angry with me and might not want to even talk to me.'

That's when he thought of something. 'I could always get her something. I know I've never given her anything, but maybe it might help if I tried a new approach.'

As he sat there a few more moments and thought, a smile came to his face. 'I know,' he thought to himself smiling a real smile. ' I know what I can get her.'

With that, Inuyasha jumped down from the tree he was sitting in and started running.

2 hours later….

Everyone had gotten tired of waiting for Inuyasha to return about an hour ago, so now they were sitting in Kaede's hut, eating lunch. Shippo was still angry at the hanyou, but decided it would just be worthless to talk some sense into him. He hated how sometimes he saw Inuyasha as a second parent, but he couldn't help it. The hanyou just reminded him of a father at some points in time. But right now, he really hated him.

"Child, ye must eat something," Kaede spoke sounding a little worried. " What would ye's mother think if her son was getting sick from not eating?"

Shippo sighed, she had a very good point. So he decided to just pick up his rice and soup and just start eating.

Back at the well…..

Inuyasha looked around the well and sniffed the air. ' Good, they left about an hour ago, now's my chance to leave before they get back.' smirking to himself, Inuyasha jumped into the well. As the blue light encased his body as he fell through time, more thought's came to his mind.

'I wonder what Kagome is doing right now?… I hope she's not crying. It would be my fault if she is… Man, I really have it bad for her don't I? I never even felt this way towards Kikyo. And I hate the fact that I'm still too scared to tell her. I want s many things right now. But, I have to wait until we defeat that son of a bitch, Naraku. I would rather prefer not to repeat history. And that asshole will make sure to hurt her in order to get to me if he knew how I felt for her. I just know he would.'

As the light faded and his feet touched the ground, Inuyasha looked up into the darkness of the well house. Jumping out, he sniffed the air, and found Kagome's scent, but it was faint.

'I guess she's not here. It smells like she left here and went down the steps into something with a lot of metal, and left…..,' he thought to himself. Sighing, he went up to the front door of the house, and let himself in. Mrs. Higurashi was standing in the kitchen, cleaning dishes.

"Hello," Inuyasha's voice boomed in the silence of the house.

Mrs. Higurashi jumped, dropping the dish she had been wiping dry. As it fell to the floor, Inuyasha dived for it, catching it just before it hit the ground. But the same couldn't be said for his head meeting the cabinet door, hard.

"Oww," he growled trying to get up. "That fuc-"

"Language!" she yelled slapping him in the head with the towel she had been using. Inuyasha jumped up and handed her they plate. Rubbing his sore head, he sat down at the kitchen table and waited for her to finish.

While he waited, more thought's plagued his mind about Kagome. Staring out the window, he started to daydream about her, which made him smile. He had so many plans for them once they had finished their hunt for the jewel shards. He figured that since he was going to stay a half demon now, since he had accepted it, he would wish for him and Kagome to have a real life together.

Then he found himself sighing yet again. ' That's even if she wants you, moron.'

Mrs. Higurashi noticed how far off and distant Inuyasha looked right then and there. Setting her last clean dish down, she walked over to the hanyou that had become a part of their family years ago. She knew no matter how bad he could be, he was still a good person. He just had other things to worry about, and she somehow knew most of those things were about her daughter. But she would never say anything along those lines to either of them. Because in all honesty, they were both too stubborn.

Sitting down at the table across from the hanyou, Mrs. Higurashi handed him a cup of tea. He gladly took it from her and took a small sip before setting it down.

"So, I take it you and Kagome got into another fight?" she asked in her warm gentle voice.

Inuyasha looked down at his cup, gently scratching his claws over the sides of it. The amount of pain in his eyes shocked the woman in front of him. She had never seen him so tormented before. Reaching over the table, she grabbed his hand in hers, making him look up at her instantly.

"Inuyasha," she said sounding worried. "You can trust me. Tell me what happened."

Inuyasha knew allowing this woman to know his feelings was probably not a good idea. But she reminded him so much of his mother when she looked at him like that. He hated it, but maybe talking about it was better than keeping everything inside even longer. Taking a deep breath, he looked at her dead in the eyes.

"Just promise me you won't hit me again," he began, removing his hand from hers. "Some of the things Kagome said to me today where kinda along the lines of things you've never heard her say."

The woman in front of him stiffened slightly at hearing this. But after a moment nodded her head, signaling him to continue.

Inuyasha began with his fight with Kagome that had started it all that day. Mrs. Higurashi appeared to look a little upset about her daughter's choice of words towards the young man in front of her, but she held her tongue. Kagome had never been so angry about anything in her entire life as far as she knew. But maybe today had just been the final straw for her daughter's patience. She felt bad for the hanyou sitting in front of her. And could feel how sad he was just by looking in his eyes.

After a moment he looked away from the woman, trying to hold back his tears. He hated to actually want to cry. But that wouldn't stop his feelings from showing. And he knew that they were exposed in his eyes.

"I'm such an idiot," he began again slowly. "I should have remembered that tomorrow was her birthday. But I was just being an ass to her. I never thought Kagome could get that mad at me. Yeah, I was expecting to be sat, but everything she said to me…," he said lowering his head. " What she said was right. I'm cold, I'm cruel, and I'm just a flat out jerk to her. I'm surprised she didn't snap on me earlier."

That's when his own tears refused to stay hidden, and they slowly fell down his cheeks. As they splashed on the table, Inuyasha heard the harsh squeak of a chair moving in front of him. Before he could even look up, he was in someone's arms. His body stiffened instinctively, but slowly relaxed after a moment. Mrs. Higurashi gently soothed the hanyou in her arms by rubbing his back and shhing him. As Inuyasha cried, he felt a weight lift from his shoulders. Crying was normally a sign of weakness to him, but by the fact that he was crying, and feeling a little bit better. He guessed it was okay to do once in a while. Just to let his pain out.

'Keh, I guess this is why Kagome always cries. It helps her stay sane,' Inuyasha thought as more tears fell down his face, making his eyes burn.

After what seemed like forever, his tears finally stopped. As he wiped his eyes which felt like they were raw, he looked at Mrs. Higurashi. Her smile was warm and kind. But he knew he most likely looked like hell.

"Feeling better now?" she asked.

He nodded his head numbly at her. And began to get to get up.

"Can you promise me something?" he asked with a shaky voice. Looking at her, he spoke with a begging tone in his voice that she knew she had to heed. "Please, please don't tell Kagome about this. I'll never hear the end of it from her."

Mrs. Higurashi only smiled at him. She knew he never cried, from what her daughter had told her about him. But she knew this little meeting between them was to stay private. Nodding her head, she walked over to Inuyasha, and grabbed his hand.

"Don't worry dear, you can trust me," she said warmly. " This is our secret, and it will stay that way."

Inuyasha sighed in relief, and smiled. He was so glad he could talk to someone about his problems, and not have to worry about someone finding out about it. Looking at the older Higurashi, he did one of the boldest things he had done in a while. He hugged her.

"Thank you," he whispered.

Pulling back, he noticed how much her scent was like Kagome's. and how much he really did miss her. But after today. He guessed that his miko was in no mood to see him for about a week. Sadly, he folded his ears to his head, and backed up.

"Are you leaving?" she asked.

Inuyasha nodded his head at the older woman. As he went to turn around, someone grabbed his wrist. Turning around, he looked at her. She had a sparkle to her eyes that he could not identify.

"Isn't tomorrow your human night, Inuyasha?" she asked, still holding his wrist.

He chuckled. He knew where this was going.

"Yes, it is," he said lightly. " Why do you ask?"

"Well, I was thinking," she began with another smile on her face. "Why don't you stay for the party? I bet it would make Kagome happy that you were here, and it would also give you two a chance to talk without having other issues on your mind. Kagome has told me about pretty much everything that's going on in the Feudal Era, and I can understand how hard it would be for you two to actually talk about something without someone else using it against you."

Inuyasha thought about what she was proposing. It sounded like it would be a good idea. But then he thought 'What if she sits me in my human form?' He shuddered at the thought, knowing that it would most likely kill him if he was human. But, maybe dying for the sake of saying I'm sorry was worth it. But the other matter was his clothes. Kagome had always told him to stay out of sight simply because of the way he was dressed. Saying that people in her time never dressed like that, unless it was Halloween.

Mrs. Higurashi noticed his nervousness. And asked what would be so bad about going to the party.

Inuyasha pointed at the beads around his neck and then at the clothes he wore. Knowing all too well how Kagome would react to him being there the way he was.

Knowing what he was saying without words, Mrs. Higurashi just smiled shaking her head. As she walked into the living room, she grabbed Inuyasha's baseball cap, and dropped it on his head.

"Come on dear, we're going to make sure you fit in at this party…"

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"Grandpa…"

As Kagome's jaw dropped, her grandfather chuckled. He knew she would like this, she had been talking about getting one for years now.

There, sitting on her desk with a green bow over it, was a band new lap top, sound system, and iPod. Kagome walked over to her desk and touched the items that were there, with awe in her eyes. Looking closer, she found the iPod was a green nano plus (pretty much meaning instead of holding 1,000 songs it can hold 2,000), the laptop was a Dell Inspiron 1501 (a/n: I have one and it's a great lap top. :D ) with extra hardware space, and the sound system was for her nano. Tears collected in her eyes as she looked at her grandfather, who was still smiling at her with a hint of a devilish grin on his face. Kagome ran at him and hugged him very tightly.

"Thank you!" she shrieked in happiness. " Gramps, you're the best! I've always wanted one of these!"

The old man laughed as she continued her rampage of hugs and kisses to his cheeks. Her mother had said to him not to bother looking for the pendant that he had lost so many years ago. No matter what powers it supposedly had, this is what his granddaughter wanted more than anything. So, taking some of the money he had put aside months ago, he went ahead and ordered these things for her. Knowing she would be happy.

"You're welcome, my child," he chuckled as she hugged him yet again. "This is what your mother said you would want. So I went ahead and bought it for you."

Kagome pulled away and smiled at him. This little old man had made her bad day turn into the best day of her life within seconds.

"Oh yes, by the way Kagome," he stated sitting up and having her sit next to him. "Your mother called me about an hour ago to tell me that Inuyasha was here. And is with your mother right now."

Kagome's heart stopped within a matter of seconds. ' Inuyasha's with mom? Why?' Pulling her thought's back to reality, she almost growled at the mention of the hanyou. She was still mad at him for being such a jerk to her earlier that day. All she wanted to do was sit him until he couldn't breathe any longer.

Noticing the look of malice on her face, the older Higurashi put a hand on her shoulder to get her attention.

"Darling, he came here to apologize," he stated looking her in the eyes. " Your mother refused to give me the details, but from what she would tell me, he was very hurt."

'Oh please, that baka doesn't know the meaning of the word hurt,' she thought bitterly to herself. But then again, she did feel a little bit bad about how she had spoken to him. She knew Inuyasha couldn't help but be a jerk. It was just his personality.

The old man just sighed. He knew from what his daughter had told him was that Inuyasha was very sorry, and was now shopping with her in order to be dressed properly for Kagome's birthday party. But he knew better than to say anything along those lines to his granddaughter right now. She would have to talk to Inuyasha and cool things over between themselves from there.

"Well, I'll leave you alone right now so you can set up your new toy," he said winking at her with a smile. " Your mother told me that she'd be back in a few hours, so to tell you just to relax and play with your computer."

Kagome looked at the old man, smiled, and nodded. Whatever Inuyasha was doing with her mother, it sure had her confused. But she figured she might as well check out her computer and see what she could do with it. Putting her thoughts of Inuyasha aside, for now at least; Kagome clicked open the clasp on her computer, and turned it on.

As the screen loaded up, she found herself smiling as the opening screen came up, asking for a password. There was only one name she could think of that no one would even think about typing into her brand new computer, unless it was Sango, Miroku, or even little Shippo.

As she glanced at the keys, she found the caps lock key, hit it, and slowly began to type her password.

I-N-U-Y-A-S-H-A

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About 2 hours later….

Inuyasha dragged himself up the stairs to the shrine. He was so tired from 'shopping' as Mrs. Higurashi had called it. And the clothes he was now wearing made him feel a little awkward. Looking down at himself he was wearing a strange pair of blue pants called jeans, a black, skin tight shirt with no sleeves, and a red, button down shirt which he had left open. He found the material soft and in a strange way, comfortable. The 'shoes' he had been wearing were now in the bag along with the other clothes Mrs. Higurashi had bought him. She had told them that if wearing them hurt, he could always go barefoot, which he gladly did. His clawed toes, which he planned on cutting back now, kept hurting in the shoes.

He was truly amazed by the things he had seen that day. The metal contraption called a car, the many different food items he had smelled, but most of all, how many demons still existed in this world.

Mrs. Higurashi had explained to Inuyasha, that Kagome was still oblivious to these things. And she told him to keep it that way until the time was right to tell her. Most of the demons of this age period were kind and had evolved from the kinds they had known back in the warring states era.

He promised to keep his mouth shut, as long as she did in return.

As he walked up the stairs, Inuyasha dropped his bags in the living room on the couch. His ears twitched, hearing something coming from upstairs.

'Kagome?'

As his curiosity got to him, Inuyasha headed up the stairs and stood in front of Kagome's door. Opening it slightly, what he saw had him in total awe.

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I have a funny feeling everyone is going to hate me soon with my cliff hangers aren't they? Oh well, just be thankful I have a great imagination and that I type REALLY fast.

Well, let me know what you think. This is my first story I've put up. And I'm still new to this. So don't be too harsh.

Oh yeah, and since I forgot to put it up in the first Chapter, I don't own Inuyasha. But I wish I did :.(

Well, Ta Ta for now:P