When i opened my eyes it was dark, but the soon was rising in the distance. I must have passed out from more than Edwards sweet words, but from the shock of the incidents that happend in the hour before. I looked over at the clock, it said it was half 6. i heard some movement over in the corner of the room. my immediate reaction was to hide under my covers. my mind immedietly thought it was another new born and i didnt know where edward was, so id have to save myself...by hiding under the covers. Just when i thought the noises had subsided, they came back again. an uneasy shifting, how perculiar. who was i to doubt the vampire world and what they do? i giggled in my head at the situation i was in; there was a crazy blood-driven vampire in my room that wants to savage me and here i am hiding under my covers mouthing under my breath the name of the one person i wanted to be here. suddenly the shifting got closer to my bed, but it had a sense of unease in it. i came to a conclusion in my head that the new born was unsure whether i was actually here or not...but id stopped worrying about losing my own life now; what about charlie? he was only down the corridor.
oh crap bella, now look you've done. your going to die, here. oh edward, im sorry, i really am. if you're going to get here at any point, please make sure charlie is okay. a tear rolled down my cheek. suddenly there was a weight on my bed.
"edward please, please. edward. edward i love you." i said so quietly. it was basically inaudible, but enough for what ever was now on my bed to hear. my heart was now thumping so hard in my chest i thought it was going to explode right out of me.i thought seeing as i was going to die, i might as well look at the face of the thing that was going to kill me, as a last act. i slowly pulled back the sheets from over my head, silently. as the edge of the sheets reached my eyes i peeked carefully over the top. for what i saw i breathed a sigh if relief.
"did i scare you" said a soft velvet voice. my heart continued to beat loudly and powerfuly, but not for the same reason as before. i wasnt scared, i was relieved, excited.
"understatement of the century" i replied, trying to sound angry, but failing. "whats with the creeping around? i thought i was about to die!"
"so you're about to die and your last words are edward i love you? thats a waste of a last breath if you ask me" he said. there was sadness in his voice. i knew he would never understand how much he meaned to me; that i would rather have died then see him come to any harm.after all, if anything happend to him, there was nothing left for me to live for.
"i said what needed to be said" i reached up and traced my fingers once again over the scratches down his face. they seemed to have faded. whether another special vampire gift was to be able to heal yourself quickly, i dont know.
"im sorry i scared you, i wanted to suprise you. bella, i love you. i dont know why you would think there was one in your room with you at night...or at any time of day to be honest."
"hmm well, i remember on one occasion there being a new born in here. cant quite remember when though" i was proud of myself for managing to say all of this in the sarcastic tone i meant it to be said in.
"That was my fault. Bella please forgive me for that" he sounded so sincere, like he believed i was mad at him for that. little did he know i could never be mad at him, not even in the slightest.
"Some times when im on my own and i think of me and you, i think whether it would have been for the best for you if i never came back after i left you last fall. Every day something bad seems to be happening to you involving my kind, and i dont know how much longer you can take it...how much longer i can take it. Bella i love you so much, but if anything ever happend to you i could never forgive myself." he didnt look at me at all whilst he said this, he just stared absent mindedly into the darkness shrouding my room. my mind went blank, and that feeling of a hole in my chest returned. before i even noticed, i was on floods of silent tears.
"No, dont do this again" i tugged myself closer to him and rested my head in his chest and attempted to make an iron grip around him.
"Bella, i cant..."
"Dont finish that sentence. i cant go through all that again. just go. let me close my eyes so i cant see my world falling apart, and just go" i pressed my eyes together tightly, trying to keep in my tears. i felt his hands grip around my face, and i was certain he was going to give me a kiss goodbye and then he would simply vanish again, and i would be alone again.
stupid bella, you should have learnt. youre not good enough for him
"bella please open your eyes"
i did as he commanded.
"bella im not leaving you. its impossible for me to leave you. you have a part of me, and you always will. i need you in my life. and even though its selfish of me, i know i would rather fight for your life every single day of eternity then have to spend a minute knowing you werent by my side. you see, your not just my girlfriend. your my soul mate. i love you bella, i always have done and i always will"
how come he is always able to say these long speeches proclaiming his love for me, but i can get through a sentence of one iv prepared before i start bawling my eyes out.
"am i meant to match that?" a tear rolled gently down my cheek and i knew everything was going to be okay.
"i dont expect anything of you" he pulled a piece of hair back from across my face and tucked it behind my ear. "i just want you. clumsy, forgetfull, predictable you." he smiled his crooked smile that reached right up to his eyes.
"i think i can just about manage that" i tried to say whilst yawning at the same time as i settled down on his chest for a couple more hours sleep. i was thankful it was a saturday now, we had the whole day together. i felt his body relax.
"good night my love" he whispered and kissed me on my head.
"nightt" i quietly replied.
barely 10 minutes later a noise stirred us both. i looked up, suddenly wide awake to meet his topaz eyes, glaring down at me. after a minute i broke the silence.
"must be charlie going to the bathroom and he walked into a cabinet" i said, trying to reassure us both. he didnt reply, just continued looking towards my door.
"no" he said, in no tone, no emotion. i settled for that i nestled down again. all of a sudden horrific happend.
"WHAT THE-AH!" charlie let out the largest shout iv ever heard in complaint. i tried to block out simple thoughts in my head that hes screaming at a spider on the wall. but as edward pulled me up into his arms, we both knew what was in my house again.