I am now sitting in my room waiting to be yelled at by my uncle. I hate to admit it, but when my uncle yelled at me to go to my room, I was scared. That fear drove a fight in me. I yelled some things I'm not sure if I meant or not. He sent me to my room, I still can't believe it. He's treating me like i'm some dumb child. I am so angry with him, with my ante...Friends, the damn stupid world. I don't know why i'm so angry, but I do know I am.
I see my door come open and my uncle walks right on in. What he never heard of knocking. I feel invaded. My angry rises again.
"What, can't knock" I snap as I get a foot in my room. He doesn't answer me. He walks straight over to me an takes a seat on my bed. I move a few inches away. It's just an impulse. I am not fully aware of whats wrong.
"Wallace, I don't have to knock, it's my house" He say's calmly. I can tell he's still mad at me. I could give to fuck's.
"You gave this damn room to me, making it mine, You don't have a right to just walk on in" I raise my voice.
"Don't you get loud an annoyed with me" he say's as if I was a moron. My heart is boiling.
"I ante stupid" I yell in rage.
"Kid who said you were" He asks. his eye's and voice have softened. He moves closer but I move further. I make sure my back is up tight against the wall.
"Wally what's wrong, you know you can trust me" His whole reason for coming up here has now changed. Why is people keep asking me if i'm ok.
"I am fine" I snap. I feel his eye's burn through me. He's trying to read what the problem is, with out the words. But there isn't a problem.
"Wally this act your putting up is not you. your not an angry kid. you have never cursed before. And the first time you decide to, I know the words would not be directed at you ante.
With every word he speaks, I get more and more angry.
"Like you would know, your never around to be be part of my damn life" I yell, my eye's crunched up in anger. I don't know why, but I can't bring my self to look some one, any one in the eye's lately. He stands with out a word, then walks to the door. He don't look back at me but said.
"Fine if you feel I am not doing an good job as your guarding, we'll just bring you back to your parent's,and you can annoy them" He leaves. I stare straight ahead of me in shock. I can't believe he just said that.I lose my anger in shock for one moment, then it slams right back into my chest with a burning feeling. I need to destroy something. I don't know what's wrong with me, I need help, I know that much. I don't want help though. This is so difficult.
I hate him, I fucking hate him. How could he. He know's I need help, I know he know's. He stops trying to figure out what's wrong. H e can't just hold me.I hate him, I fucking hate him so damn much. Why the hell am I fucking crying, I am pissed the fuck off, I know I aint sad. I can't stop the tears from flowing down from my eye's.
What...The...HELL...
I get up and start smashing everything in sight that I don't need. I hate it, I hate everything, I hate it all. Two hours later I stopped an panted as I laid on the floor. My defenses rise until I see it's only my ante.
"What" I snap. She's taken back by my sudden rage. She looked around my room. She don't mention the appearance of my bed room.
"Honey, diner's ready" She says. No attitude back. Just calm in that sweet voice she posses. It makes me angry as she can keep a sweet posture, when I yell at her.
"You act like I give a shit" I push past her and walked down stairs. I feel my uncle glaring at me. He's probably still mad about our stupid little I don't care.I truly want to cry in his arms deep down. I can't bring my self to tell him that. I am so mad. I want to get rid of this ever lasting rage. why won't it go away.
i'm not staying here for diner, there just pissing me off. Maybe i'll go to the cave or something.i'm about to step out the now open door when UI feel a firm grip on my right shoulder. That grip force me to turn. I faint flash back comes to mind but I shake it away.
I feel my uncle's eye's looking at me, they feel angry, but I can't lift my eye's. It's like there weights, there so heavy.
"where the hell do you think your going" He asked. Yup, he's still pissed the hell off, And I Don't give a flying fuck.
"to the damn cave, what's it to you" I snap, and shrug his hand off my shoulder. My heart is now boiling with intense anger.
"No you are not, you are going to eat with me and your ante" He tells me. I see ante Iris looking sad and scared as she stepped off the last step. She headed to the kitchen.
"No, I aint" I snap again. He grabs my hand and forces me to walk towards to kitchen. The flashbacks return. I shake my head to knock them out of my thought process. I rough-fully pulled my hand from my uncles grip. I backa few feet away. I feel my uncle and ante starring at me.
"don't ever touch me" Those angry tear flew from my eye's again. I run at a normal pace out the door, only in case some one was watching. I run a few minuets before I get coverage in the ally behind my street. I change into costume and run to the zeta beam. I need some peace for a while.
Once the zeta arrived me at the cave I felt all eye's land on me. I couldn't take it.
"What" I snap in pure rage again. I am still not able to lift my eye's to anyone else's.
"What's your deal Baywatch" I hear Artemis ask in that stupid attitude of her's. When she starts talking I fell my anger weigh down in anger.
"I don't have no deal you fucking slutty bitch"I want to look her in the eye's, but my eye's just fly past her. the feel so heavy, I just have to allow them to wander.
"Kid Flash" I hear mister thinks he's all that night calling me. When I don't answer him he probably guessed I wasn't gonna. He continued. "Watch your linguistics"
He's telling me what the hell I should do. I don't think so, no one tells me what to do. I look his way, again my eye's look past him not at him.
"don't you fucking try and tell me what I need to do or whatever. she was acting like a bitch, i'll tell her that, fuck you" I tell him. To say everyone was shocked at what I just told Batman, would be a major understatement.
I came here to this cave to get some fucking peace, what the hell. I went straight to my room. I lone forgot my hunger. My hunger has been replaced by undoubted rage.