Okay this chapter isn't what i was hoping it to be. Even to me it comes off a little stiff and unnatural. With the plan I've planed out for this story I'm going to try and show seven years growth in a year and a half, Renesemee is going to be a far from perfect teen and give a lot of trouble mainly to Jacob. It's just in all the renesemee/Jacob fics I've seen so far everything been delightful and fluffy, maybe i'm just reading the wrong ones but i think one where Renesemee is deliberately teasing and trying to make Jacob Jealous is needed.

I awoke to a dull pain in my stomach. Although i guess the pain wasn't really that server i had never been ill a day in my life and my diamond hard skin is impenetrable. I cannot recall many occasions in my life previous to that date that i had experienced experimentally i pulled myself up out of bed, the silk covers falling away with a soft rustle. At first my brain did not register the small patch of blood on my pajamas. It really didn't seem to belong there and i couldn't think of any scenario in which it could of ended up there. Then it hit me, i was seeing my own blood for the first time.\par I panicked, bleeding was something humans did, not half vampires. I wasn't exactly experienced in panicking either. Not living within a small secure world created for my by an overly protective family. One must appear normal or else not appear at all. I fell into the second category.

'Mom.' Panic flooded my voice. It took half a second for her to reach my door but i knew that during that half a second my father had read my mind and they had silently conversed.

'It's okay.' Her hand rested gently on my shoulders pulling me close to her.

'It's my blood.' I explained thinking that she did not fully grasp the situation. She understood more than i did.

'You're menstruating.'

Everything clicked into place. Mensuration, human reproduction, hormones and growth. I knew these things, i had just never thought they applied to myself. I was not fully human after all and as I'd inherited the fangs i had always thought if i was to have children when grown up it would be in the vampire manner. Adoption.

My mother waited patiently as these things ran through my head, then when i met her eyes again she smiled.

'You are half human after all.'

I was and yet that side of me had never been nurtured as most members of my family only had cloudy distant memories of humanity. They tried to explain the differences between me and them yet this was difficult as none of them really knew what those differences were, only that they existed and sometimes they caught a glimpse of something foreign in my behavior, something quite unvampish.

'Do you understand?'

'I know the theory, the science.'

She nodded at me.

'I guess we should have talked about this, i was just unsure about whether it would be right to or not.'

'Is this going to happen every month.'

My mother bit her lip, a strangely human act that she was still prone to. I knew the expression well it always came to her face when i asked a question she didn't know the answer to. It was made up of guilt worry and and a fear of inadequacy. She wanted to be a normal mother but as i was not a normal child she was left questioning every decision she ever made.

'I think so. I'm guessing that as your going to age, at least for the time being, and vampires don't.'

I cut her off. 'I'm going to age like a Human.

'Yes.'

I pondered this for a moment. My family had always thought it safe to keep me away from the people of Forks so that they couldn't see my accelerated aging. I was nervously accepted by the Quileutines, carefully watched when on the reservation but only talked to by the pack.

'I've never met a human girl.' I almost whispered, I'd never seen a normal human teenager and the thought that i was going to become like one of them filled me with an overwhelming desire to know more and to be around them. As my human side was now undeniable i felt oddly alone, being one of a kind was lonely and confusing.

My mother reading something in my expression gave a half smile that didn't reach her golden eyes.

'It's a confusing period of life for humans as well, it's not all about the biology. It's the transition from child to adult there's lots of new rules to learn.

'I already know all the rules. Fidget, beware what you eat and never mention your a vampire to Charlie.'

She sighed. 'There are other rules you know, social rules, how to act around people,' she looked like she was considering to say the next bit her hesitation wouldn't have been apparent to most people but i knew my mother so well. 'And Boys.'

'Mom i have no interest in boys and i hardly ever see people. Even if i did i know all about human life, I've read loads of books by and about humans.''It's not the same as experiencing it.'

I must have looked a bit blank at that because she sighed again.

'Imagine a book about the hunt and the hunt itself, is it the same? can you describe in exactly the right words to make the reader think and feel as if they were actually experiencing every sight and smell. Your Father taught me that.'

'No, but we're not talking about us. We're talking about humans, their senses are duller than ours surely it's not the same thing.'

'They are Humans, you are not, you will experience human emotions and development through none human eyes. Maybe you should have a talk to Carlisle he's probably given this a lot of consideration over the years.'

I was suddenly struck by another emotion that was foreign to me.

'Does he have to know?' I questioned quietly, the first time I'd ever been less than happy about my families necessary truthfulness with each other

'Sweetie, you smell.

I sighed.

'It may not seem like it now but this is a good thing, it means you may be able to have children some day. I know you can't apreciate just how precious a thing that is just now.'

Every Sunday Esme liked to practice her unnecessary cooking skills by preparing a Breakfast for me. I mean breakfast in the loosest term possible as often she served up three course meals that had taken hours to make. A lot went uneaten as it was to heavy for first thing in the morning but the little taste of human domestication made Esme extremely happy and she'd talked about holding a dinner part for the few people she knew who actually ate was humming gently as she mixed up a hollindaise sauce, it was my second favorite breakfast, the first being Bears like Uncle Em.

I watched as she heard listened to us enter, she froze like something had caught the attention of her enhanced senses. She turned her expression shocked she looked towards my mother as if for confirmation. Out of the corner of my eye i saw my mother nod. Luckily my dad had sensed i was uncomfortable with this rather intimate knowledge he had and was ignoring it.

Esme was at my side in seconds despite being the slowest of my family.

'Oh Nessie.' She seemed so happy and even though i couldn't appreciate fully i could remember in my first years her expression when she watched me had been bitter sweet. The memory of a dead child flooding her mind with my every movements. Despite my youth and not having my fathers talents it was clear to see.

The hug was long and i was comforted by the fact that she was truly happy for me without any jealousy, Esme was good, plain and simple and she loved people with passion and honesty. I hadn't noticed Alice's arrival until she spoke, two steps ahead of everybody else as always.

'So i was thinking, as this is good news and we haven't had anything to celebrate since Rosalie and Emmett's fourteenth wedding i think we should have a party.'

I pulled away from Esme glancing the rather disgusted look on my Dads face. Alice smiled at me enthusiastically.\

'A happy first period party ?' I asked wondering if this was a normal event and why if it was i hadn't read about it.

'Alice.' My Mom charmed in 'Most girls find mensuration to be rather embarrassing and prefer to keep it quite.'

'why?' Me and Alice asked simultaneously

My Mother seemed to think for a while

'I don't know.' She admitted in a quite voice. 'Maybe I've forgotten.' She glanced questioning at my Father.

'It's just to do with the of teenage girls, the get embarrassed easily and tend to blow things out of proportion.' He shrugged his knowledge coming from years of having to listen to the minds of teenage girls.

'I can't do it the normal way, not really. ' I had always had regular check ups with Carlisle, i was never embarrassed to discus my sleeping and eating habits to him. Somehow this did feel different though, my brain had been cringing at the open discussion with my family. My reactions were that of a normal teenage girl even if i didn't know what a normal teenage girl was.

'I think i do find it embarrassing though.

'We won't mention it.' Esme promised.

'Just as long as you keep Carlisle up to date with any changes.' My Dad charmed in

I winkled my nose at him but thought 'That's okay.

Alice looked slightly depressed, she hated losing the chance for a party and although Rose and Em had got married the year before their weddings apparently followed an obvious pattern they didn't stray from. One would think if you had the chance to plan dozens of weddings you'd vary them a bit yet for Rose and Em every wedding was a tribute to the first and a renewal of their vowels. I'd overheard my Dad joking that he was going to raise on objection next time just to make things a little more interesting

'A birthday party.' She suddenly said with a smile.

'It's not my Birthday.' I interrupted.

'But it is a significant point in you life, more significant than a birthday really.' Esme said always happy for a chance to spoil me.

'And your basically a teenager now. So we could have a thirteenth birthday party.' My Mom smiled. I was being conspired against and in this case i liked it. It had always seemed a little unfair that i aged three or four years every year yet only got one birthday.

'We can invite Charlie and the Werewolves.' Esme suggested but another idea was forming in my mind, i had a desire to observe Humans Not the Quileutines but humans who didn't know what i was and would act naturally around me. I wanted to know exactly how a teenage girl should act. The human part of me had been confined for far to long and now it was restless, i needed to be half human and i couldn't learn that from my vampire family.

'Can we go to Seattle?

Alice's disappointment at not getting a party was short lived.

'Shopping?'

'Can we go for a few days?' I knew i didn't have to ask, it was the dead of winter and the liklyhood of a sunny day was slim.

'We can stay in a hotel.' Esme agreed.

'Just the girls.' My Mother smiled.

I thought about it, an extended shopping trip in the big city not only would it be fun to spend time with all the females in my family but i could also observe humankind more closely than i was able to here. Just one thing was missing. My confident, the one person i told things too because i wanted and not out of necessarily, my best friend Jacob. I longed to tell him how out of sink i was feeling, though I'd keep the reasons to myself. Our friendship must seem strange to outsiders because of the age difference but we were both half human and had an understanding of each other that ran deeper than that. Our relationship had changed over the years he had gone from a babysitter to a big brother type figure to a close friend. The transitions had always been seamless and i hardly ever questioned why he'd want to spend time with a preteen half vampire. It just seemed that as i acted far older than my body seemed and i was intelligent enough to already be reading degree level literature that we were the same age.

'And Jacob.'

I caught a slight frown crossed my Mothers face but she quickly covered it up.

'that will annoy Rose.' Alice mentioned, although it seemed a statement more than an argument, my father smiled.

'I think Ness should get whatever she wants as it's supposedly her birthday.'

I smiled, although my confusion and loneliness had not gone away it had been pushed to the back of my mind as excitement for the upcoming trip started to build.

Next chapter: A vampire shopping trip