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Chapter 1: Therapeutic Car Rides

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I know it's weird to go to Kanda of all people for help.

He may be gruff and a jerk sometimes but I can trust him. He understood me.

He was my closest friend.

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Couple of months ago

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I find Kanda with a couple of his footy mates, Daysia and Lavi. They were running circles around each other in the soccer field.

I wanted to talk to Kanda.

The cool autumn breeze blew hair into my face. I didn't push it back but instead scratch at my arms desperately and bite my lower lip.

I felt miserable all day long and it was getting harder on acting like everything was fine.

I sighed. I can't talk to him. This was a bad idea.

Except there's no way I could act normal today. I wonder if anyone noticed but thank goodness Allen wasn't in school to see me like this.

Wait... maybe that's why he isn't here. Maybe he didn't want to see me...

I felt myself tear up.

Last night I snuck out of my house to go see Allen because he wanted to talk. I admit it, I was nervous but if he was risking on sneaking out too then it must've been important. It was and I had every reason to be nervous.

He broke up with me. Well technically he said he wanted a 'break' but that's the same thing right? I had a feeling that there was something wrong with him lately. I noticed that Allen was becoming distant over the past few weeks. He just stopped paying attention to what was around him and locked him self up with his thoughts.

He just looked so... lost?

I tried talking to him to see if he could let me in on what was going on with him.

No matter how many times I told him that he could always open up to me about problems or let me know if something was wrong, he would just try to smile reassuringly and tell me he was fine. I hated whenever he did that, it always made me feel like he didn't trust me. Even though I knew he only did that so that I wouldn't worry.

I wonder what he's feeling or thinking about right now.

Forget it. This is taxing, I can't stand it anymore. I want to talk to someone badly now.

But I continued to stand there, watching the boys chase after their ball. I felt a little bit out of place. I shook it off and wiped my tear-dried face. Made myself look presentable.

Once they were done with their little game, they went back to the coolers pouring themselves some water. Mainly on themselves. There were some girls along the fence who blatantly flocked there to ogle at the boys. I rolled my eyes at the sight and made my way towards the field.

Lavi was the first who noticed me before grinning wide and cat calling at me.

"Hey, Lena-baby! Lookin' cute today, wanna hang with me for a bit. Promise not to tell All-oof!"

Behind Lavi, who was rubbing the back of his head stood Kanda, who smacked him and was now glaring at him.

"Che, baka usagi. Stop treating her like she's one of your skanks that you pick up."

"I was not! And I don't pick up skanks! 'Sides Yu, I was only messin' with her and - oww!" Lavi was now rubbing his forehead and he looked appalled. "Did you just karate chop me?"

"Hn." Kanda crossed his arms and pointed his nose in the other direction.

"Lighten up, Yu!"

"I'll light you up."

"Wha-? That sounded kinda wrong..."

"That's not what I meant, baka!"

They would've continued their bickering if they were not interrupted by Daysia's obnoxious laughter. I giggled as I approached the soccer trio. I couldn't help but laugh with Daysia, they were acting silly. Watching them eased my nerves a bit.

Of course neither Kanda or Lavi found it funny and they yelled at Daysia, "Shut up!" Then they began dumping more water over Daysia and started this whole epic water battle between the three.

I decided to stand a good distance away and watch.

They were thoroughly soaked and out of drinkable water before they all turned to look at me.

I smiled softly as I walked up to them saying a quick, "hi."

I turned to Kanda. It was time that I did what I came here to do and say what I wanted to say.

He noticed me and gave me a questioning look.

I opened my mouth and ... "Can you give me a ride home?"

No one questioned my request and Kanda's face remained smooth and impassive even with his dark eyes boring into mine. I knew what he was thinking, I left the little hint that I was upset. After all the only time I ever ask Kanda for rides home was when I didn't want to go home. That I wanted to hide out for a bit, whether it was to talk or not.

He shrugged his shoulders and said, "Sure. Give me a minute."

He turned away and went to go grab his things. Lavi came up to me giving me a quick one-armed hug because he was still wet and he said, "Komui working late tonight?"

Something about his tone made me believe that he knew that something was up. I answered, "Yeah he is." He sent me an all-knowing smile, yeah he knew I was bothered but he wasn't going to pry. He knows that I either will tell him eventually or he'll just find out himself.

Kanda came back with his school things in one hand, he decided to go shirtless with his soaked shirt in his other hand. He went over to Daysia to do that weird hand-slap-shake thing that guys do whenever they say hi or bye and then asked, "Daysia you coming straight home?"

Daysia responded, "Nah man. Gonna head towards the park. I'll be back by six or seven."

"Alright. Cool then, see you later bro." Kanda turned to me and gestured that we start walking.

I said bye to Daysia and before I could say bye to Lavi he... "Wahhh! Yu-chan! Arent'cha gonna say bye to me?"

"NOPE." Kanda said without taking a second glance.

Lavi pouted but then broke into a fiendish grin. This wouldn't end well.

"YUUUU-CHAAAN!" Lavi yodeled as he glomped Kanda's back trying to force him into giving him a piggy-back ride. I knew it...

"What the hell! Get off fat-ass!"

"Hey I'm no fat-ass! You're the one with the booty!"

Daysia howled behind me, "Yo Lavi checking out my bro's ass now?"

Lavi distracted by that one comment gave Kanda enough time to throw Lavi off.

Kanda glared and growled at everyone and everything, "Piss off you faggots!"

He stomped away before turning back and pointed at me, "YOU!" and I began to fidget, what did I do? "Hurry up! Or I'm gonna leave without you!"

I swear I "eeped" like a mouse and ran after him. He can't leave me, I need that ride!

We finally made it to the school's north parking lot, we approached his black Jeep. It was a Jeep Wrangler Sahara Edition and I only knew that because Kanda and the boys would not stop talking about it when he first got his car err, I mean Jeep (Kanda always flips at that) two years ago.

As we drove off I couldn't help but remember all the times Kanda gave me rides. Before it wasn't such a problem because we used to be neighbors but just around when summer ended he moved. It actually made me kind of sad when he did, I sort of miss being his neighbor.

Of course when I started to date Allen last Christmas I usually just ended up receiving rides from his guardian Cross whenever we went to his place. On occasion his friend Link would give us rides too.

I remember the first time I went over to Allen's place he was so anxious about it. As if my experience of going to his house had to be perfect.

I stared outside the window wistfully. I missed Allen.

"Alright Lenalee, I know that something has been bugging you all day. Spill it."

Kanda spoke up.

I continued to stare out the window, I didn't say anything back. Or rather I couldn't.

He sighed, annoyed and clenched his steering wheel, "I see that you're not going to talk right now. Fine."

I tore my gaze away from the window to look at Kanda. He didn't look back and kept his focus on the road in front of him.

My stupid mouth still couldn't say anything and he spat nastily, "But listen here, don't be wasting my time by coming to me looking all upset and shit, asking for a ride because you're 'troubled' and then go mute on me. Either tell me you're fine so we can drop it or let me know what the fuck is bothering you when we get to my place, got it?"

My face couldn't help but break out into a smile.

Despite his nasty tone, I suddenly felt a little bit better.

Kanda was my closest friend.

"Okay." I heard myself say.

Okay so this, (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻) is like officially the unofficial line breaker for this story (maybe for another one too but that's.. ehh something else). Everyone cool with that? Good.

Decided to save author's comment til the very end, I noticed that I write something at the beginning and at the end of the chapter. How annoying is that? Never knew I was such a talker XD

I'm wanna experiment different writing styles from time to time to see what really fits. So far everything seems the same to me, but I'll let you people be the judge of that. Did the ending seem a little awkward to anyone, maybe it's just me. I'm sleep-deprived right now T_T

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