Lyrics are from Perfect by My Darkest Days. I do not own the song, band, or The Big Bang Theory.
Sheldon's POV about the bonds between him and Penny
I was fine right before I met her. Never hurt and nothing could control me.
Every minute of every day was planned out perfectly. My life was orderly and structured.
Then she burst in like a super nova.
You know I tried but I can't regret her. She's the first, ask anyone who knows me.
I have never met anyone like her. She is everything I try to avoid.
I have never felt this pull toward anyone.
Terrified that she'd find my heart and break it. Paralyzed by the thought of her with someone else.
I dare not let her too close. Yet, I can't keep her out.
She is my paradox.
I wish I would've known. I shouldn't have fallen in love with her. She's been nothing but trouble till now. I shouldn't have fallen in love at all.
My focus is shifting. My work was everything. Now there is her.
I don't want this complication, but I can't live without her, either.
But I couldn't stop myself.
Who gives you the right,
To tear up my life?
For the first time in my life I don't know what I'm doing.
I have no solutions. I have no plan. I only have her chaos.
How dare she be so perfect!
What did I do to deserve this?
(I'll never let her go)
How dare she be so perfect!
(caught in the fire)
I'm caught in her trap. The more I struggle, the more tangled I become.
I haven't cried since the day she left me, Cause that would mean that I admit it's over.
No goodbye. No warning. All I have left is a song. Her song.
I tell myself that she's tryin' to test me. She'd never leave, she still needs me to hold her.
Every knock on the door, every ringing of the phone.
For one split second I know it's her. I am always wrong.
Horrified cause she found my heart and broke it. Mortified when I picture her with someone else.
I hate her for leaving me. I love her for setting me free.
She is my paradox.