Okay here's what I was originally planning. But serious angst took over so here is something nice and not so awful. It was actually supposed to be a one-short and a pretty angry one but now it will be one, this one, that is angst, the next will be angry, and the last will be sweet. I promise.

I rubbed my face with water washing it clean. In this new society I was made to be the one of the leaders. I hated it, I didn't want it. Though I guess that they are following the Abnegation idea, you have to give power to those who don't want it.

I am twenty-eight, my life sure didn't turn out how I ever planned it, at any stage of my life. "I hope that you're proud of me for this, Beatrice." I say, today is a special occasion-it's the tenth anniversary of her death.

Everyday I talk to her it has calmed me some. I can almost feel peace now, though she is long since dead but she is still alive in my heart and in my mind. I start heading to the meeting place of the city's leaders.

The meeting is disgustingly long and boring. The idea to not let any one person have too much power, each government job has a committee and before anything can be done it must be agreed on by the council.

I once said to her "you die, I die too" and though she is dead and I'm alive it feels like I'm dead with her. I already am dead, I'm just waiting for my body to catch up with my heart. I can feel her with me, when I lay my head down to sleep I can feel her right beside me, I feel the warmth and smell her scent; warm and sweet with a spicy bite.

I had almost made it to my home, Beatrice's home, I was on the road but was stopped by Evelyn and she had a girl with her. I knew her-Susan, Tris's childhood friend, Evelyn had not left her alone-through all the dates I refused Evelyn would use her often, the only one she did that with to was Christina...well that was until Christina threatened her life. Susan did not want to be with me and I didn't want to be with her, of course not we both were in love with one of the Prior siblings and wanted no other. Though there is no such thing as Factions now, it is just a distant memory to everyone now;most children had little to no memory of Factions, but Susan is Abnegation through and through.

So she refuses to say anything to Evelyn, I am Divergent-I am not just Abnegation so I grab Evelyn by her arm and pull her away with a hissed "can I talk to you?!"

"Now Tobias, I know you don't think so but Susan would be good for you. She will never abandon you and you can heal each other; you heal her from Caleb and she will heal you from Beatrice." I growl and have to fight not to slap her, that's not who I am-I don't hit people for no reason. But it does feel like she is attacking Tris but I won't do anything.

"Will you leave me-and that poor girl-the HELL ALONE!" I scream at her, not caring of the shocked looks, everyone around knows that this has been coming. "I don't want anyone else, if I had I would have by now! Neither does Susan, stop taking advantage of people you...you" I breath heavily as my heart beats fast and I let it out "bitch!" Her eyes are wide and she looks scandalized, but it looks false; her eyes are too wide and her mouth too open.

"I will say this one more time; I said NO!" I growled before leaving, shutting my door and for once not locking it; she will stay away this time. I head up to the room I sleep in and sit on the bed. "Do you think I did the right thing, Tris?" I ask looking around with a sigh. I feel calm and I can almost feel her here; kneeling behind me with her slim arms with lithe muscles wrapped around me.