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'You and Derek Morgan seemed cosy.' Emily asked inquisitively as she poured their first bout of drinks out.

'Hmm so the boss man's arm around your chair doesn't leave much to imagine with your closeness.'

'I don't know how to explain...' Emily said and a blush crept over her cheeks. 'It's like we've grown...'

'Closer?' Penelope said the same time as her and JJ laughed.

'I gotta agree, it's just like I feel I want to be with Spencer every moment I can and when I am, I'm happiest.'

'Is it strange that when Derek came into my office earlier I just wanted to keep him there, lap him up.'

'Well who wouldn't?'

'No it is literally how JJ put it, I'm happiest when I'm with him, I don't have to hide or be something I'm not, I'm me, Penelope Garcia the over sarcastic, brightly dressed, tech of the team.'

'You forgot valuable tool to the team.' Penelope laughed at JJ's declaration. 'Don't laugh! But yeah, I'm no one but the real me when I'm with him... is it safe to say I'm in love?'

'It is... I'm in love too.'

'Ditto.' Penelope sighed and took a sip of her glass of wine. 'Heck I think Derek Morgan won me over with...'

'Baby Girl.' JJ and Emily joined in and they laughed at one another.

'So why not tell him?'

'It's complicated, probably the same reason you won't tell Hotch I'm guessing and JJ the reason you won't tell Spencer.'

'I don't want to destroy what we have; I feel that if I wasn't friends with Spencer that I'd be missing a part of me.'

'Yup, I mean the last time Derek told me he loved me I was doped up on pain relief... what if he laughs at me?'

'He's told you before?' Penelope nodded. 'When?'

'When he took me home after I was shot.' Penelope replied almost remorseful.

'What's up?'

'Is it stupid of me to say that I so wanted him to mean it, like properly mean it, but he see's me as his sister, and then Kevin came along and I thought if I went with him it'd be okay but obviously not.' Penelope frowned and then smiled. 'But tonight is not about wallowing, we are having a chill out.'

'Do you love Derek?' Emily asked and Penelope looked at her with wide eyes. 'I admit it, I love Aaron.'

'I do... but I'm not right for him, I can't give him what those girls he usually gets can give him.'

'Who says so?'

'JJ do you love Spencer?' Penelope asked avoiding the question. 'We've admitted it, now you need to declare it.'

'Like earlier, I do love Spencer and I think I'm sick and tired of waiting for the opportunity to fall in my lap.' JJ said positively. 'But come on why wouldn't Derek be interested... this is another all out session... so spill it.'

'Look at him, his toned, utterly gorgeous and then there's me, I'm fat and a geek... high school rules still seem to apply even if you're years out of high school... jocks and geeks aren't suppose to be as close as we are and they certainly aren't suppose to fall in love with one another.'

'That's a ridiculous reason and you know it!' Emily near enough yelled at Penelope. 'Boss and colleagues aren't but I really couldn't care less.' She continued to prove her point. 'Pen, your happiness is as much accounted for as his... much like JJ's is and mine... we deserve the chance.'

'So I say we grab that chance.' JJ said and finished her glass of wine off and poured them all a new one. 'To chance!'

Reluctantly Penelope joined in with Emily. 'To chance!'

'Now can we just enjoy senseless TV, music up too loud, drinking and some gossiping please?'

'If the senseless TV means we can lust over men that are definitely out of our reach.'

'Those men would be gorgeous underage beings then?'

'Yes them...' Penelope stood and waved the DVD in her hand. 'You said you like your men young.'

'Only in the film world and Edward Cullen works well.' Emily smirked. 'It's a fitting film... love story that she thinks shouldn't be happening.'

'Shut up and enjoy it.'

'Oh I will... I like all the Cullen men.'

'Even though they'll forever be underage.' JJ said laughing at their usual film choice.

'A girl can dream!' Emily said as Penelope began to put the DVD in the player, knowing the film was ironic for them to be watching but she loved how childish and girlie they got over it.

Hours later found them asleep on the couch, twisted up with one another under a blanket, the third film's credits rolling out. All three of them completely oblivious to the world around them.