I ain't sure if this is a poem or just the shortest story I can possibly come up with. Whatever…Enjoy!
A single drop in an entire ocean
Going with the waves, but choosing my own path
I know where I want to go.
A wall on each side
Impenetrable to all,
Except one.
The feeling of his voice, moving under my skin.
The touch of his hands on my cheeks, as he cups my face.
Feeling his lips, become a part of mine.
One wall he breaks down,
Another he creeps under
The other he just breaks trough
I can feel him closing in on my soul
I erect new walls, to slow him down
Even though I know it's futile.
Every defense has failed
I cannot keep him out
I look in the mirror
And see a living being, for first time.
I used to fear this, but I feel even better then fine.
I lie in bed with endless thought,
about that single guy
I think to myself
If resistance fails,
perhaps embracing will prevail.
I rest my mind on the pillow
Fearing and liking he might someday be my bedfellow.
Sleep takes me away from reality
In my dreams, I dream of him.
I imagine the feeling of him within me
Our bodies touching each other, like never before.
I know I like it, but also loathe it.
I know of an attraction, I just cannot admit it.
One day I might give in,
One day I will risk my heart.
My mind only has two scenarios
Either heartbreak and loneliness
Or he will be with me forever
And teach how live life with him
because I can no longer live it without him.
I'm too stubborn to swallow the last remaining protest
He might convince me someday
But someday, is not today
Nor is it tomorrow
I cannot deny it any longer
That day is coming.
But for now it just stays,
Someday….