"I'm not a perfect person. There's many things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go that I just want you to know. 'I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you it's something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through; I wish that I could take it all away and be the one who catches all your tears. That's why I need you to hear. I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you, and the reason is you. And the reason is you, and the reason is you.

I'm not a perfect person. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go that I just want you to know. I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you. I've found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know. A reason for all that I do. And the reason is you..."

(The reason by Hoobastank)

Tsuzuki was worried. Hisoka wasn't acting his normal self. He seemed to be weak on his feet. But he had insisted he was fine so Tsuzuki dropped it. They were assigned a new case where three people had gone missing in Nagasaki from the same block of flats. All young women who knew each other. No bodies were found. They went there to check it out.

They started off talking to the families of the young women but all they knew was they had gone on a night out and none of the three women had returned home neither and they were not answering their phones. A witness saw them leave but nobody else saw them anywhere else. Tsuzuki suspected a man was behind this. Hisoka agreed. And they knew it probably wasn't Muraki either because no bodies were found.

To Tsuzuki it seemed like a typical kidnapping case all they had to hope for was there would be a new sighting of all three of the women. Hisoka was very quiet the whole time and Tsuzuki couldn't help but worry. He suggested they call it a night and they headed to the hotel they were staying in. Hisoka barely touched his food he claimed he wasn't hungry. Tsuzuki was really worried by now because Hisoka would at least try and eat it but he hadn't he was just fiddling around with it.

"Hisoka are you feeling alright?" Tsuzuki asked. "I'm fine Tsuzuki I'm not a child I can deal with it." Tsuzuki knew otherwise he knew Hisoka was suffering from horrific nightmares he knew that he sometimes still thought he was living with his parents enduring the psychical and verbal abuse. Tsuzuki knew that Hisoka was not alright. And he wanted to help him because he didn't want to see Hisoka in pain. They got up and left the restaurant. As they got to the door Hisoka clutched his head and collapsed. "HISOKA!" Tsuzuki shouted.

Tsuzuki found that Hisoka had a high temperature. 'Damn it how long has he been feeling like this?' Tsuzuki questioned. He found a cloth and began soaking it in cold water placing it on Hisoka's forehead. 'Hang in there Hisoka I'll help you.' Tsuzuki promised. He stayed by Hisoka's side most of the night monitoring his temperature.

The next morning Tsuzuki decided to continue with the case deciding Hisoka was too ill to do anything at that moment. So he left a note saying where he was, a glass of water and a slice of toast on Hisoka's bed table, then he soaked the cloth again and kissed Hisoka on the top of his head. "I'll be back soon I promise." He mumbled. Hisoka woke up sometime after twelve instead of resting like Tsuzuki ordered he decided to go out and help with the case.

When Tsuzuki returned he found that Hisoka was gone. He knew instantly that Hisoka was going to help with the case; he knew how stubborn that kid could be. He was going to have to reprimand him even though he hated doing that. He just wanted Hisoka to get some rest he didn't want him up and about when he was so ill. But this was Hisoka Kurosaki he was dealing with here. Even so it still made him quite cross when his partner wasn't taking care of himself.

Hisoka returned early that evening looking worse than before. He practically stumbled into the room. "Oh Tsuzuki you're back before me." "Where the hell were you Hisoka? do you have ANY idea how worried I was?" Hisoka cringed slightly. "I didn't want to be a burden stop protecting me all the time I'm not a weak little child." "I never said you were but you're ill Hisoka you should be resting! Not outside in the rain no less. I care about you Hisoka I don't want you to be ill." He grabbed Hisoka by the shoulders. "I know you still have nightmares Hisoka I know you scream in your sleep. I've been out of my mind with worry for a week about you. But I can't sit here and watch you get weaker."

"Leave me alone damn it Tsuzuki! Stop interfering with my problems! It's not your burden to bear it's mine because I caused all this! Just worry about yourself for once!" Hisoka snapped. "Hisoka I'm supposed to look after you, you're my partner." "No! Just stop! I don't want people sacrificing themselves for me! I have to bear this! I have to be stronger I can't keep holding you back." "Hisoka..." "Just go and get some food or something I need to be left alone for a while I won't be eating anyway." Tsuzuki stood up and left.

When Tsuzuki was gone Hisoka buried his face in his pillow and started to cry. He hadn't meant to make Tsuzuki worry so much and he didn't mean to snap at him like that too. Hisoka felt horrible and hated himself for hurting Tsuzuki. Tsuzuki was also feeling guilty too he didn't mean to shout at Hisoka he was just worried about his health and he wanted Hisoka to be safe. For once he found himself not at all hungry. He was too wrapped up in guilt to eat anything. He headed back to the room.

When he got outside the door he could hear sobbing noises coming from it. Tsuzuki's guilt increased because he knew it was from the fight that Hisoka was crying about. Slowly he opened the door. "Hisoka..." He called out softly. Hisoka tensed and tried to conceal the fact that he was crying. "Why are you back so early? There's no way you've eaten yet." "I wasn't hungry." It was then that Hisoka felt Tsuzuki's guilt from the fight earlier. Hisoka sat up tears still streaming down his face and he stared down at his hands guiltily.

"Tsuzuki um..." He was taken back when Tsuzuki sat at the edge of the bed and wiped away his tears. New ones formed immediately, and then he was crying and clinging onto Tsuzuki's arm. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" He cried. Tsuzuki pulled Hisoka into his arms and stroked his hair. "I'm so sorry Tsuzuki! I'm sorry!" "I should apologize too. I shouldn't have shouted at you like that. I know I hurt you so I'm sorry too." Tsuzuki tightened his grip on Hisoka. "I'm sorry Hisoka." They remained on the bed clinging to each other for a long time.

Hisoka recovered a couple of days later and they solved the case. It turns out one of the women's ex had been mad about her leaving him so he kidnapped her and her two friends and kept them in the attic, they were all found safe and alive and very grateful for their rescue. Hisoka was relieved that Tsuzuki wouldn't blame himself for any deaths in this case.

But more horrors were yet to come...