Kieron awoke and wondered where he was. This wasn't his room and why wasn't John Paul lying next to him? Then he started to remember. He needed to warn John Paul about Niall. He struggled against the tubes to get out of bed but then noticed John Paul asleep in the chair and realized he was at the hospital. John Paul must have heard Kieron stir because he awoke and was quickly at Kieron's side saying he was sorry and asking why Kieron tried to kill himself. It took Kieron a minute or two to realize what John Paul was saying.
"John Paul, I didn't try to kill myself. Niall slipped those pills in my drink. He is very angry and dangerous, and I need to talk to the police."
Kieron told the police everything and John Paul listened stunned. Kieron wished that he could have told John Paul privately but Niall had to be stopped before he hurt anyone else. Maybe part of Kieron also wanted to hurt John Paul the way that John Paul had hurt him. No, Kieron did not want to hurt John Paul but he sadly realized that John Paul would never hold that special place in his heart again.
It was funny how almost dying made you see things so clearly. Kieron realized how John Paul had been pulling away from him these last few weeks. Kieron loved John Paul so much that he excused it away by thinking that John Paul was just anxious about his family's acceptance. Kieron realized that maybe he had been too excited about their wedding, he could think of little else. But Kieron had asked several times if John Paul was sure or did if he wanted to wait to get married. Each time Kieron asked, John Paul insisted that he wanted to marry him. And John Paul had proposed to Kieron, hadn't he?
"John Paul, why didn't you trust that you could speak to me honestly about your feelings?"