A/N: Hey guys! It's Celli!! Ok, so I don't know how good this is, I was never really that good at conveying Edward's feeling. I mean, I can kind of feel his pain, but I just don't have words for it, ya know? Well, anyways, please read and review! I absolutely love your guys reviews, and I will answer them when I finally figure out this darn website!! Luvs!

Disclaimer: I don't own any part of Twilight. No character, no setting, no plot. Nope, they are all Stephenie Meyer's, who I am not. Sadly. I am just messing with her characters

Chapter 2: Broken Man

They always said to listen to your heart. But what if you don't have a heart? I sat in pain, wallowing over the decision that I had to make soon. It would shape my Bella's future. But what if I did the wrong thing? I knew exactly what I personally wanted, but it so selfish, I could never do it. I didn't want to take away my love's soul. But at the same time, I did. It was pure selfishness that drove me to stay by her side.

Watching my brother, my own brother, attempt to take my Bella's life was the final straw. The world had suddenly stopped. I knew that if I stayed, Bella and, no doubly Charlie, would forever be in grave danger. Self hatred filled me. I absolutely loathed myself and the creature that I was. A monster that couldn't live without others dying. Wasn't enough, to kill others just for a devil to dwell on the earth? No. I had to put the one true love of my life into constant danger. Whether it is of my species, my family, or even myself. If only I had just died on that fateful night almost a hundred years ago. If only I had the power, the selflessness to leave and never come back the moment I noticed that I loved Bella with all of my being. But now… now I had to leave when she loved me back too. When I was completely dependent on one human to keep me going. I knew that I had to leave now.

'Edward?' I heard Alice call out to me inside the comforts of her own mind.

Turning my head slightly, to show her that I had heard her thoughts, I bobbed my head down then back up.

"I don't want to leave. I love her too." Alice apparently was going for the full effect, as she was speaking out loud for once.

"Alice, no. We are all leaving." Red starting blurring my vision, I could feel a faint growling making its way through my chest. Wasn't it enough that we were leaving? Everyone in my family suddenly seemed to make it their life's mission to make me miserable. Couldn't they see that I was already doing that job for them? Obviously not.

All of a sudden, Alice started to see something. There was a young woman, around Bella's age. She was just sitting there, crying, shuddering, shaking, and screaming. Her cheeks were hollow and her eyes had no emotion, except for hurt and betrayal. It looked as if she was about to die, be ripped to shreds. Then, it dawned on me. This wasn't just any other young girl, it was my girl. Bella… My Bella… I had never seen so much pain. It tore my straight through my soulless body. Who would be so heartless to hurt her in this way? It was killing me, something that I never thought possible.

"Edward! Please! Don't do this!" Alice screamed, pulling me out of my thoughts. Alice's eyes were filled with sadness and pain. She would be on the edge of hyperventilating, if she was still human. She was devastated. I personally couldn't blame her. But what would I have to do with this?

Alice obviously saw the confusion in my eyes. She thought back to a vision she had a few days ago, but she had attempted to keep it from me. Bella and I were standing in a forest. I could recognize it very well, it was the one right next to Bella's home. We were standing near the edge, her house still in sight. Then I opened my mouth to speak.

'Bella we're leaving.' It looked as if agony was in my eyes. In the present tense, I was baffled. So I actually had the nerve to do it?

'Why now? Another year…' Bella looked as if she was expecting this answer.

'Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless.'

'When you say we…' She said slowly, her voice echoing so much pain, I could barely take it.

'I mean my family and myself.'

'Okay, I'll come with you.'

'You can't Bella, were we're going- it's not the place for you.'

'Were you are is the right place for me.'

'Bella, I don't want you there.'

'You… don't… want me?' Her voice cracked on the last syllable. On that note, Alice's vision came to an end.

I was stiff. The world had stopped. How did I cause her so much pain? How did I have the heart to do it? A small voice inside my head answered my question, 'Because Edward. You are a monster. You have no heart, nor soul. You are a sick person, who doesn't even deserve to walk on this soil. You're evil, deserve no life. It's all your fault…' The voice was right. The dwelling self-hatred inside of me doubled.

"Edward! Please… please… she's my best friend. Please!" Alice was on her knees, something that she never did, begging. Her thoughts were in the same consistency. She was using all of her might to make me change my mind. I could tell that she was trying so hard to see the future change. But all she was doing was watching an unchanging future.

"She is a human, Alice. We will both be in pain, I know that. But she will heal quickly and I do not matter." I answered in a faint monotone. I couldn't bare to hurt her. Every part of my stone cold body screamed against it. Of course, I knew I had to. As much as I wanted her, I needed to save her soul. Save her from the hell that I was damned to. An angel like her doesn't deserve a monster like me.

"Edward! Don't do it!" Alice begged again.

"Damn it Alice! Stop that! Stop looking for her future. You will leave now, stop looking for Bella!" I had absolutely lost it. Truth be told behind my actions, I just couldn't live through the pain that I will cause Bella, I didn't want to see the aftermath anymore. It was just too much.

Alice looked completely heartbroken. She hung her head low, knowing that my word would be final. Bastard! Jerk! Jackass! Her tedious thoughts broke my line of concentration. I could just feel the anger building up inside of me, starting to brake the clam façade that I was horribly trying to keep up.

Finally, I couldn't take it anymore. I crumpled to the ground, in despair. I would lose my only love, hurting her when I leave. Dry sobs made their way up my throat. Past hope, past words, past help; I was a broken man.