"Let me try," Harm said, heading upstairs. He rapped on his daughter door, which was decorated with paper flowers and a banner that said 'Katie's Room'.
Katie's muffled voice came through the door. "Mommy, I said I'm fine! I'll be down for dinner!"
"It's not your mom, honey."
"Daddy?" Katie's voice held excitement, and in what seemed like no more than a second, the door was flung wide open, and Harm's sensitive thirteen-year-old had her arms wrapped tightly around his waist. Even after years spent together, Harm was still deeply moved every time Katie freely showed him affection. He remembered how terrified she'd been of him when she first came to live with him and Mac, and he felt honored to know how much she had come to trust him. He hugged her back, and then reached down to lift her face up to his.
"I missed you so much, Katie."
Katie wouldn't look into his eyes. She bent her head and buried it against him, and moments later, Harm felt wetness seeping into his shirt. Alarmed, he pulled Katie into her room and sat down on her bed. She continued to cling to him as she cried, and he stroked her hair and tried to calm her with soft endearments.
Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Mac standing in the open doorway, looking as worried as he felt. She walked quietly into the room and joined her husband and daughter on the bed, sitting on the other side of Katie and rubbing her back gently. When Katie looked up and saw Mac, she cried even harder. Her parents tried harder to comfort her. After a few minutes, the sobs turned to soft sniffles, and Katie dried her eyes.
"I'm sorry," she mumbled, looking down. "I'm really, really sorry."
"Baby," Mac murmured, "it's okay. Whatever it is, everything is going to be okay. Your dad and I love you very much – you know that. And you know you can tell us anything."
Katie nodded slowly, but she still wouldn't look up. "I know." She fell into a long silence.
"Did something bad happen at school today?" Mac prompted gently. She glanced at Harm over Katie's head, both parents' eyes filled with anxiety as they tried to contemplate what could have upset their child so much.
Katie nodded slowly. "I-I I'm so embarrassed… and I don't want to hurt you and Daddy's feelings."
Harm reached down and lifted Katie's head, looking deep into her eyes. "There is nothing, absolutely nothing, that you could ever do that could make us love you any less than we do."
Katie nodded again. "Okay… I'll tell you… but you're going to be so disappointed in me. There's a new kid in my class, Jay, he just moved here from Los Angeles…."
She paused. "He's really friendly and popular and cool… everyone likes him. He's met a lot of famous people, and all the girls think he's really cute."
Harm's jaw had tightened as soon as Katie mentioned a boy – he was already thinking of what would constitute a suitable penalty for any kid who dared to make his daughter cry.
Katie continued her tale. "Yesterday I got paired with him for an activity in English class. We had to do a presentation on something that was important to us – and we had to make it as… dramatic and interesting as we could."
"So," Katie took a deep breath, "Jay and I decided that we would talk about our parents. His parents are lawyers, just like you guys."
"So…" Katie continued haltingly, "Jay went first. His dad is a famous defense attorney – he's always on TV. He's represented lots of Hollywood celebrities. And his mom works for one of the largest corporate law firms in the country. Last year, her firm won a class action case against a huge multinational pharmaceutical company. So anyway… when Jay was done, it was my turn…."
Harm and Mac exchanged looks over their daughter's head… they'd both started to figure out where this could be going.
Katie kept her eyes glued to her feet. "I talked about how my dad used to fly fighter jets, and everyone thought that was pretty cool. But when I got to the part about my dad being in an accident and becoming a JAG lawyer, and my mom being in the JAG Corps too… well…."
"They kinda lost interest, huh?" Mac asked with a wry smile.
"Yeah… I talked about how you and Daddy would prosecute and defend clients in court martial proceedings. I talked about how sometimes you would even be on opposite sides in the same case, and some of my friends thought that was really dramatic – until someone asked if you would go home together afterwards and argue about the cases, so I had to admit that it was before you uh, got together. I talked about some of the other things you told us… about how you used to handle investigations for the Navy, but when they asked for some really exciting examples, I didn't really know any, so I… uh…."
Katie was silent for a long moment. She took a deep breath, as though gathering up her courage, and then the words spilled out all at once, in a rush.
"So I – kinda exaggerated a little bit. I made up stories. I said that… that you and Daddy went on dangerous missions and saved thousands of lives. I said you both worked undercover for the government in countries all over the world. I said you actually captured terrorists and all kinds of criminals and put them behind bars. I said you saved civilians in life-threatening situations both here and abroad, at the risk of your own lives. I even made up stories about Daddy flying top-secret missions to war-torn countries, and… and I'm so sorry, because the last thing I want is for you to ever think I'm ashamed of you or that I want you to be more than you are, because that's not true… I'm so proud of you, and I love you both so much."
Katie hung her head, returning her gaze to her feet. She was clearly on the verge of tears. Her parents, on the other hand, had been exchanging surprised glances during her impassioned confession. Harm spoke up.
"Uh, the thing is, Katie –"
She looked up at him, grabbing his hand. "I'm so sorry, Daddy. I know I shouldn't have told those lies, and I feel so guilty, but I just felt like I had to come up with something exciting, and –"
"Katie, listen," Mac stopped her from her other side, "what your dad was going to say is that the things you told your class… well, they weren't exactly lies."
Katie's face was a mixture of shock and astonishment. "But… I made them up…." And then a light dawned in her eyes. "Wait… so I thought I was making them up, but those things actually happened?" She smiled. "That is so cool!"
"No, it's not," Harm shook his head, while Mac rolled her eyes at the typical teenage response from their daughter. Harm continued. "The things we did, the assignments we were given sometimes, weren't 'cool' – they were hard, and we had to rely on every ounce of our training and instincts to get through them. Some of them were very dangerous, and we're very fortunate that we did get through them."
Katie nodded frantically, excitement still shining in her eyes. "Yeah, I mean, I know that, but how cool is it that I wasn't actually lying?"
"Uh, I beg to differ, Katie" Mac inserted dryly. "You didn't know that the things were saying were true. And you should never feel pressured to make up false stories to impress other people. Who you are is more than enough, and don't let anyone ever make you feel otherwise."
Katie nodded, sobering a bit, although her eyes were still alight with excitement. "I know, I know... and I'm sorry. And I understand that I should be punished… I know I shouldn't give into peer pressure, and I won't ever do anything like this again, I promise. But I'm just so… relieved to know I didn't actually tell my entire class things that weren't true. And maybe a part of me always knew that you and Daddy were heroes, not just to us, but to so many other people."
Harm shrugged. "Don't put us on a pedestal, Katie. We don't see ourselves as heroes; we were just doing our jobs. We're no different than anyone else."
Katie smiled. "Well, you and Mommy will always be heroes to me." Suddenly, something seemed to occur to her. "How come you've never told us those stories?" she asked, her eyes darting from one of her parents to the other. "Don't you trust us?"
"It's not about that," Harm said, shaking his head. "There are some things we can't tell you, because of the nature of the assignments, and there are some things you aren't quite old enough to know yet."
"And before you remind us that you're thirteen now," he interjected, when he saw Katie open her mouth in indignation, "that's not old enough for you to know some of the things that happened back then. Your sister Mattie knows some of it, and as time goes on, the rest of you will too."
Katie nodded. "I can live with that." She put an arm around each of her parents, holding them to her as tightly as she could. Her grip was surprisingly strong for such a petite girl. "Thank you for not being mad – and thank you for still being here with us, after everything you went through. I can't imagine what my life would be like without you."
"Well, thankfully you don't have to – and we're so thankful for you too, Katie," Mac said, "for the very same reason – we can't imagine our lives without you either."
A/N: Huge thanks to everyone who's reading, following and reviewing this story. The response from you has encouraged me to write more 'Rabb family' stories, so I'll definitely work on that. For this little story though, there's just a short epilogue left. Thanks again for reading!
