Evangelion: The Angel With Broken Wings

by Turles

Are you a Kaworu fan? Then this is the story for you. It's about Kaworu Nagisa himself and his past, how does he know so much about Shinji? That's answered here in this new and improved version.

2. The Angel Awakened

Disclaimer: I don't own the copyrights to Evangelion. All copyrights belong to their respective owners.

Readers' disclaimer: This contains Evangelion Spoilers. If you haven't seen all (and I do mean all of the series) I highly advise you don't read this.

Neon Genesis

EVANGELION

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The Angel with Broken Wings

Episode 01: The Angel Awakened

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Kaworu ran far and fast from that disgusting home that he had lived in for all those years. This is what he desired the most, freedom. The feeling of being free was so exhilarating to his senses that everything seemed so much brighter. Even with the dark clouds and rain falling all of it seemed to be so much better now that he was free.

He ran into the mountains away from any city, town or village. He found a small clearing on a hillside; the ground was cool to his sweating skin. It was all grass as if God had made this little patch of grass just for him. He lay down and before he knew it, he began to fall asleep on the cool grass. The dangers in the woods didn't matter to him and neither did the danger of being found scare him.

As he began to dream he heard a voice calling him.

"Tabris." The voice called

Kaworu didn't move from his needed slumber, yet in his mind he could see it all clearly.

He found himself sitting on a train. He knew this to be a train since he had been on them when he traveled from home to school. The same clean steel walls and windows that looked out onto the scenic landscape. Beyond the windows the sun was setting, sending all of its exuberant colors of yellow, orange, and red into the cabin. Yet there was something different. The train was completely empty, why? Why was this place empty and why was he here on this train?

He looked forward and saw a shadowy figure sitting in front of him. The figure looked like a small boy, but Kaworu couldn't figure that out. All he could do was try to figure out who was calling him.

"Tabris." The voice called, the voice was louder yet it was soft and gentle.

Kaworu looked forward and saw that the voice was coming from the little boy.

"Who are you?" Kaworu asked

"I am an Angel."

Kaworu felt awestruck, he thought that an Angel of God would just come down from the sky with it's Greek Toga and white wings outspread giving him the word of God from above.

"An Angel?" He asked

"Yes, brother." The Angel responded

"Brother?"
"That's right, your one of us. You're an Angel, but you've been living with the humans too long. So we must fill you in on why you have awakened."

"Awakened?"

"15 years ago, our brother Adam killed himself so he wouldn't be taken prisoner by the humans. That act caused the Second Impact as well as stirred our brothers and sisters out of dormancy and your one of them Tabris."

"My name is not Tabris!" Kaworu screamed, "My name is Kaworu Nagisa and I am a human being!"

There was a moment of silence.

Kaworu looked across the isle to where the shadowy figure sat, Kaworu was hoping that this was a nightmare that he would simply wake up from. Yet somehow this nightmare was so real, he could feel the bumps coming from underneath the seat. That meant that the train was moving. He could see the telephone poles passing by as if they were going somewhere, but where we they going. Then again it didn't matter to Kaworu, he simply wanted to wake up from this nightmare.

"Please wake up." He kept saying to himself, "Please wake up."

The voice spoke again, "I know this is hard for you to accept, but being around the humans has made you forget what you are. You've become an Angel with broken wings. Let me heal your wings brother and let you take flight again."

Kaworu thought of a question that would throw a curve to whoever was speaking, "If I'm an Angel," He asked, "then why do I have human form?"

"It is the way the Lord created you, Tabris."

Kaworu screamed once again, "MY NAME IS NOT TABRIS! I AM KAWORU NAGISA!"

Kaworu heard the figure exhale; it was as if the figure was frustrated with him and that he was going to try to do something completely different.

"Let me show you, brother." The figure said

In a flash Kaworu saw in his minds eye all the things that had happened to him, the time that he used the field. That night when he was in the foster home and his drunken foster father, Todd was about to use that broken bottle on him. Kaworu saw that orange octagonal field in front of his eyes. It was beginning to click like figuring out the crucial clue to an annoying mystery.

Kaworu's eyes opened widely.

"Now do you understand brother?" The shadow asked, "You're one of us."

Kaworu didn't say a word, the shock or finally realizing what he was so much for him to take that he didn't know how he should react to the situation. All his life he had a nagging feeling that there was something different about him. He didn't know what it was but it was there like a sliver in the depths of his unconsciousness. It is this difference that separated him from other children. Now the truth is known. He is an angel.

The voice spoke again, "That field that protected you is what the humans call the AT field. They don't know that it's more than that."

"What is it?"

"It is the light of your soul sacred territory that no one is allowed to enter. Don't you understand, Tabris? Everyone has an AT field. It is the thing that separates your mind from those around you."

The pieces fell into place, all of it was beginning to make sense. The incident with his foster father and the orange field, it was his soul trying to protect him. Whenever he would feel threatened the field would come to shield him. Kaworu knew that this was the fact that he had to accept.

"Since I am an Angel." He stated with a smile, "Then why didn't you come to me earlier?"

"At the time," The voice explained, "You were born out of your dormancy, actually I should say born from Adam. The rest of us were beginning to come out of our long sleep."

"All because Adam killed himself?"

"Yes."

"What do you want from me?" Kaworu asked

He kept looking into the face of the shadow wondering who this figure it is.

The figure spoke, "We need your help. The humans have taken Adams remains and are going to use them to their own advantage. We've been trying to get back what's left of him but the humans have stopped all of our attempts."

"What can I do?"

"Join us, Tabris. Help us save humanity from itself."

"Does this mean I have to kill people?"

The figure was silent for a moment, "Sacrifices have to be made for the greater good, like Adam before us."

Kaworu suddenly had a question in the back of his mind that he wanted to ask.

"What were the humans going to do with Adam once they captured him?"

"Knowing the humans, they would probably use him as a weapon."

Kaworu sat back and thought about the things he's already been exposed to so far. It all seems so unreal that just a day ago he was just another faceless and nameless kid in a crowd. Now life has taken this abrupt change for the extremely bizarre. Yet, he felt so calm and peaceful as if he had been searching for a secret for so long and now he could rest easy knowing what it is.

"Show me what to do." Kaworu asked

The shadowy figure then stood and saw that the figure almost looked like himself. It was as if his shadow had stood up on his own and was taking matters into it's own hands. The shadow outstretching it's hands and placed them on the sides of Kaworu's face.

"Trust me, brother." The shadow said, "You have nothing to fear, but this will feel a tad bit weird."

Suddenly in a flash Kaworu's head began to pulse like a heartbeat of a headache, with each beat the pain could be felt radiating around his head. Kaworu closed his eyes and in this pain he could feel something coming into his mind, he felt knowledge coming to him. The shadow was giving him knowledge, but on what? It was going too fast for Kaworu to comprehend what it all meant or how useful it was. He felt like screaming because of the pain, but he remembered the voice of that shadow, "Don't be afraid."

It had become the longest few seconds of Kaworu's life, he felt the pulsing headache stop and he opened his eyes. He looked to the Shadow who had now sat back down in its place with the sun setting in the background.

"When you awaken." The shadow spoke, "You will completely understand our mission and your own abilities too. All will be come clear when the time arrives. In the meantime, stay here. Don't let those humans find you. But you must also learn about one boy, a boy who is the bridge between what we the Angels of God are trying to prevent and the humans are trying to cause. You must observe this boy, named Shinji Ikari. Then when the time comes you'll feel drawn to a place, called Tokyo-3, but you are not to go there now."

Kaworu smiled, "I understand, brother."

"Remember Tabris," The shadow warned, "When you feel that the time is right, you will be the last Angel, if you go there then it'll mean that the others have failed and you will be our last hope and you will be the last hope for the humans as well. Keep that in mind when you go into battle."

"I understand, now." Kaworu said as he began to stir from his sleep and he began to wake up on the soft cool grass.

He looked up and saw the sun begin to rise over the eastern skyline. He looked at his hands as if he were looking at them for the first time. He understood all of it, what he is and what he can do.

"Let us see what the future will bring." Kaworu thought.

E

So, that's how it is. My name is Kaworu Nagisa. I am also known as Tabris, the Angel of free will created by God to save humanity from itself. Humanity, or rather the lillim as I would like to call them. I know that I was born from Adam, but the first wife of Adam, Lilith gave birth to all humanity thus the name I call them, lillim. My time hasn't arrived just yet, so I shall do what the angel who awakened me instructed to do. He told me of a boy named Shinji Ikari; I was said to observe him. I thought, how I was I to observe him without getting caught by the lillim. At least that was what the lillim side of me thought, but the Angel side of me had a different approach.

Open your mind, it said, allow mind to go free.

I lay back on the soft grass in the clearing, I closed my eyes and I allowed myself to drift into a trance. I was opening my mind. It felt as if my mind was a being unto itself and it could leave my body like a person could leave their car. It was an extraordinary feeling, as if I was floating or flying but to where?

I opened my eyes and found myself on an empty street. I had never seen a street as empty as this one, there were no cars, no people, only the sound of the wind blowing and the locusts creaking.

CREEK! CREEK! CREEK! CREEEEEK!

As I looked I found that I was not alone, there ahead of me was a telephone booth and standing there was a boy with a backpack on. I dashed, but I couldn't feel the pull of gravity below my feet. I had a good idea of what walking on the moon must be like. When I stopped, I noticed that the boy was ignoring me. I got a good look at him, he was a young boy roughly around 15 years old with fair skin, brown hair, blue eyes, a blue undershirt covered by a white button-up shirt and wearing a green back-pack.

"Excuse me" I called, but the boy didn't turn around he simply stood there at the telephone booth with the receiver to his ear. Suddenly I could comprehend all the information that was awakened within me. I've projected my own soul out of my body, and that's why he can't see me. He can't perceive my presence. I could hear what the voice within the phone receiver was saying at least vaguely.

We're sorry, but due to the state of special emergency no lines are currently available. This is a recording.

"It's no use." The boy moaned as he looked down into the phone's receiver, "This is dumb. I shouldn't have come here." He hung up the receiver and then looked at a card. I walked around him to get a look at it. I found a woman who was down on all fours on the card who was roughly in her thirties with a message written on it. It said, Shinji, I'll come and pick you up. P.S. Look at these, from that message was an arrow pointing to the woman's exposed breasts. I wondered what kind of woman would send a boy like this a card like that.

"Guess we won't be meeting here" He said with a voice full of sorrow then he looked at his watch, "maybe I should find a shelter."

The whole of this situation has become extremely odd to me. I've only been awakened to my angelic powers just a day ago and now I have to be an observer for a boy? If in fact this boy is the Shinji Ikari that I was instructed to watch. This must be proof that God must really have a sense of humor. Just as I was thinking that to myself the boy seemed to be looking straight at me, it was as if he could see me. I realized he was just looking off into the distance.

I looked up and I heard the birds begin to flutter and fly away. As I watched them I had a feeling that something was coming this way. From out of nowhere there was a loud boom, it shook the steel guards on the closed stores of the streets and whipped the power lines above my head. I looked to the boy and found him covering his ears, yet I couldn't feel that kind of pain when I heard the noise. The two of us looked into the distance and from behind one of the hills several large aircraft's. They moved slowly, I wondered at the moment why they were doing that and then the answer came as an enormous lumbering monster towered from behind the hill. I knew what this creature was; it was one of my angelic brothers, Sachiel…so it has begun…the war between the angels of God and all of his children.

I watched as Sachiel made mince meat out of the lillim machinery, he stood his ground against the onslaughts made by the aircraft's with their missiles. Sachiel even caught one of the larger missiles in his great hand as if it was a handball. I felt like cheering for him since the lillim machinery couldn't lay a single scratch on him. Then I watched him kill the lillim as if they were bugs. At that point I remembered what my angelic brother said that certain sacrifices have to be made, but can't their be a way for the angels to accomplish our mission without killing God's children?

Sachiel used the light of his soul to float up and he came crashing down right in front of the young boy and I with the lillim aircraft under his feet. The explosion and shards that the crash had made went right through me. I couldn't be affected by it, yet my companion could be affected by it. If this boy is Shinji Ikari and he's the key to our mission then he can't die now.

"Sachiel!" I called, "Stop this!"

I thought that I could reach him and reason with him that we could accomplish our goals without killing the lillim. My efforts were useless as I watched Sachiel stay perfectly still, he couldn't hear me either.

I heard a car coming I looked down and found a blue sports car pull up. The door opened and sitting in the driver's seat was that same woman from the card the boy had. Except she was wearing a black dress this time instead of short shorts and a loose tank top as in the picture.

"Sorry" she said, "get in. Am I real late?"

"I would say so." I said to myself

E

I had followed the boy into the car, even with my soul out of its body I still can't grasp anything solid. So that meant I had to constantly move with the car in order to hear whatever it was that these two were talking about. I knew that this boy was Shinji Ikari, all I needed was a conformation of my feeling.

We had stopped on a hillside; I could see Sachiel in the distance still being surrounded by the lillim craft. From the distance that we were at the swarm of aircraft's looked like bees flying around Sachiel. They stayed around him for a moment and then flew away with great haste.

"What are they in a hurry for?" I asked myself

"Wait a second…" The woman said looking through her binoculars, "No! They're going to use an M-2 mine! Get down!"

She went back into the car and laid herself down upon the boy like a blanket. I was confused as far as what they were going to do. I looked back and I saw a great explosion that light the sky and the clouds in an unnatural glow sending smoke, dust and debris into the air. It only took a few seconds for the shock wave to hit the car; it toppled over several times while I remained standing. Not even my hair was blowing in the wind of the shock wave but it didn't take long for the explosion to clear. I dashed to where the car had landed and I heard the boy coughing.

"Are you alright?" The woman asked

"Yeah" the boy answered, "but my mouth is full of dirt."

"You'll be alright."

The two got out and began to push the car back onto its tires, I was surprised that two lillim like these two could push a car back onto its tires after being in such an explosion.

"Thanks Shinji, you're pretty useful." The woman stated

It was then that I knew that this boy was Shinji, the one that I am to look over. Then an interesting question came to my mind, why am I to watch over this boy among all the other angels? Why me? Perhaps, God has a special plan in mind for me to deal with this boy.

"Thank you, but I should thank you Ms. Katsuragi." Shinji said

"Ah, Misato is fine." Misato smiled as she took her sunglasses off, "So, Shinji Ikari, we meet at last."

"I have found you at last, Shinji Ikari." I said

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We had made our way to a city that was nestled in the hills far away from the attacks that were made by my brother Sachiel. I watched as the car pulled into a garage like door and past another one with half of a maple leaf on it with the word "Nerv" on it.

The conversation between Misato and Shinji had started up again. I listened carefully.

"Nerv?" Shinji asked

"Uh-huh" Misato smiled, "It's a secret organization controlled by the U.N."

"And that's where my father works?"

"Well yeah, you do know what he does don't you?"

"All my teachers told me it was important to the future of all mankind."

Future of all mankind, I thought. From what my brother told me, the Angels don't share the same point of view that what they plan to do is for their benefit. Rather it would kill them, so was Shinji's father planning mass genocide?

"Misato, are we going to see my father?"

"Of course, of course we are."

I could still see Shinji's face as I traveled along with the car, I saw that his face went into a state of deep thought. Just then I saw a flash in my minds eye, like a memory. All I saw was a young boy with a torn shirt standing in the middle of a road with a bag at his side. He was crying. I could even hear his sobs. I wanted to hold onto the boy and try to calm him down. It was then that I realized that the young boy was Shinji. I had put the pieces together that his father abandoned him. I then remembered back to my foster father who would beat me like some kind of punching bag for his own amusement. I felt enraged by it.

Just as the car was moving downward something came into view. Both Shinji and I looked in the direction that caught our attention the most. It was an underground fortress, a GeoFront.

"A fortress for all mankind." Misato said

I thought that it was a wonderful sight to see, like digging for buried treasure and finding the mother load. The view was so breathtaking that it took my mind off of the rage that I felt when I saw those memories of Shinji. Then they came back. I couldn't help but feel so sorry for the boy. It made me wish with all my soul that I could do something for him, anything.

Misato, Shinji and I wandered around the GeoFront for God knows how long. Simply because Misato wasn't exactly used to the place. Then again I can't exactly blame her, the place is such a maze that it makes me wonder what do they need all this space for. Then another joined the group, a tall blonde woman with green eyes and a mole like a tear near her left eye.

"Hi, Ritsuko" Misato said looking at near frightened.

"Why are you wasting my time?" Ritsuko asked, "Don't you know that we are short on time and manpower?"

I felt my head move backward, as if saying, Well, excuse me! I listened, as Misato explained it that according to something that she called the Marduke report, Shinji was the third child. I thought to myself, if that he's the third, where are the first two? Plus, why did they call him the third child? The third child of what?

"Battle stations level 1" A voice sounded through the whole GeoFront.

I had a feeling that Sachiel was drawing close, could he have been drawn to me? Can he sense the presence of my soul here in this place? If that was the case why didn't he see me out in the street?

I had asked myself these questions when suddenly the lights went dim.

"Why is it so dark in here!?" Shinji called out.

The lights came back on and there was Shinji and I face to face with a giant robot. It was then I found out what the Angels were so concerned about. It was the synthetic life form known as Evangelion Unit 01. I already understood why they were so concerned; it's this that's drawing Sachiel closer. I could feel something within that machine, something alive yet sleeping. It felt like an Angel itself, but why?

I looked up beyond the robot and I saw a man standing there, with a Lincoln style bearded, orange tinted glasses and white gloves. I had already gathered from the initial phrases exchange between this man and Shinji that this was his father.

"Why did you send for me?" Shinji asked with tears in his eyes.

"You know why I sent for you." His father answered

"So, you're asking me to take this thing and go out there and fight?"

"Correct."

I was surprised at the man's cold voice. The rage that I had felt from before when I made the connection that he abandoned Shinji grew stronger. The contemptuous look that the man had in his eyes and the indifference in his voice was infuriating.

"How can you do this to me?!" Shinji screamed, "I thought you didn't want me. Why? Why did you have to call me now father?"

"Because I have a use for you."

A use?! A use? Is how the man lives? Using people like they were Kleenex, use them and dump them? My hands had gathered into fists, I wish I had my body then I would tear that throat out of his neck with my bare hands. He reminded me of my foster father so much that it burned deep within my soul.

"You vicious heartless bastard!" I shouted, but I knew that he couldn't hear me.

"But why?" Shinji asked, "Why me?"

"Because there's no one else who can." His father replied.

"No, I can't! I've never seen anything like this before! It's impossible! There's no way I can do this!"

"You will be instructed."

"But still.. there's no way I can pilot this thing. I just can't!"

"If your going to do it, then do it now! If now then leave!"

How can you? You're his father you sick bastard! How dare you! Using your own son like a condom. May God strike you down for this sin!

As the rage swelled within me, the whole GeoFront began to tremble and shake all around me. Sachiel is close, he must sense the presence of what ever is in this thing called Evangelion Unit 01. At that point so mixed up, I am an Angel and my brother was telling me that I would have to fight. So now it comes down to a question of whose side should I be on? Should I go along with Shinji's side and hope that my brothers would die? Or stay on the side of my brothers and stop humanity from committing its foolish acts.

I then heard Misato leaning towards Shinji, she said, "You mustn't run away, Shinji."

I had made up my mind, I didn't care if Shinji could hear me or not, "Don't run away Shinji!"

To be continued…

Author's Notes: This is the part where I made a huge change in the story. In the old version of "The Angel with Broken Wings", it happened in the 13th episode where a whole bunch of events happened that would have screwed up the whole Eva timeline. So I redid the whole thing so that Kaworu can observe what happens to Shinji but he can't participate in any of the events that occur until his time comes. In this particular chapter I had to start at the beginning where Kaworu finds out that he's really an angel. Then he finds out about a completely different power that he has. I hope that this is better than the old version.