Hi guys here is your next up date! I can't believe the response I've had for just one chapter so far, I'm also working on my Hawaii 5 0 fic so please forgive me if it takes me a few days to upload. In this chapter the song is personal to me! I really do hope you keep enjoying and thanks to everyone for their reviews and people adding this to their favourites and for those following. As always thanks to Jelly Bean Jenna. Just a wee note Nick is not in this story and Noelle doesn't have a baby.
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Chapter 2
Sam saw Andy arrive with Traci and notice the small smile Traci gave Andy before they came out the car, looking at Andy now from his spot away from the others he could see the hurt, sadness and heartbreak that he has put her through all because of his stupidness. Breaking up with Andy was the last thing he wanted but at that moment in time last week he just couldn't help the guilt that had come over him at losing Jerry, she was the last person he wanted to take his anger out on but she was there, close to him and in that moment he did he lashed out at the one person he had ever truly loved and now he'd lost her probably forever but he only had himself to blame. He thought back on her words how she never thought he was one of those people in her life that would walk away, he was angry at himself for being one of those people but he couldn't change that now, could he? He watched her walk towards Oliver, Dov, Chris and Gail and exchange a few words before they all looked at Traci who was hugging her son. In that moment Sam couldn't stand there and look at her and not be able to comfort her in the way he wanted to, so he made his feet walk, walk past her and didn't even look but he noticed that she tensed when she seen him walk her way and he didn't blame her for that. He managed to walk past without looking her in the eye but what he didn't know was that Oliver and Traci noticed.
It was now time to make their way into the church where Jerry already was, Traci came over and grabbed Andy's hand and with Leo by her side they lead everyone into the church. Behind Traci and Andy were Oliver and Sam, then Noelle and Frank, then Chris, Gail and Dov and behind them came the rest of the family and close friends. Andy looked around with her eyes as she walked down the aisle the church was full of people here to say one last goodbye to Jerry, the flowers where in the colour of light blue, the coffin was draped in Toronto Police Departments service flag and flowers on top. As they reach their seats at the front Andy noticed that there was a picture of Jerry next to the coffin with a candle lit next to it and up on the alter there was a projector screen, Andy had no idea why that was there;
"Traci?" Andy whispered "Why is that projector screen there?" she asked.
"When you go up to sing there's going to be a slide show of Jerry just pictures and stuff showing up through the song" Traci whispered back before pulling Leo closer into her side. Andy caught Sam watching her when she turned her head back but he quickly looked away it was just her luck that Sam was sitting next to her. She felt Traci squeeze her hand and she squeezed back letting her know she was there for her. As the service got underway Andy just hoped that she could keep the tears at bay long enough so she could sing the song that Traci had asked her too.
Andy felt as though the whole service had went by like a whirl wind Oliver had gave a moving and lovely speech on behalf of everyone at 15th, a few others had went up and spoke a few words who Andy didn't know but guessed them to be from Jerry's family. Traci was also going to give a speech the moment was just too much for her so Gail had stepped in and spoke Traci's words on her behalf. Andy felt as though the whole church was in tears, she was giving Traci all the support she could but she was also watching Sam out the corner of her eye, no matter what they had been through this past week her love for Sam was so strong and she would help him today too if he would let her. Watching him she noticed that he hadn't lifted his head at all for the whole service, he just kept his head down staring at the floor as if lost in his own wee bubble. It was quiet for a few seconds until the priest spoke again;
"The time has come for a certain request to be held in this service, I'm told that Jerry wanted this song sung at his funeral if it had been today or any other day. Through this song there will be pictures of Jerry's life up on the projector screen as the family has asked for. I'm lead to believe that the person who is singing this song is one of the best 15th division has to offer" the priest chuckled as Andy rolled her eyes, she heard a few whispers wondering who this person was and she also felt Traci smirked beside her no doubt it was Traci's idea for the priest to mention that little comment "So would Officer McNally please come up" at the mention of her name she felt all the eyes in the place on her including Sam who's head had whipped up to look at her the moment her name was mentioned. But she promised Traci she would do this so looking at Traci one last time Andy went and took her place, taking the microphone Andy closed her eyes as the music started;
You walked with me, footprints in the sand
And helped me understand where I'm going
You walked with me when I was all alone
With so much unknown along the way
Then I heard you say
I promise you, I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you when you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
Andy opened her eyes at this point and looked at the shocked faces watching her, as her eyes moved she locked eyes with Sam and they never broke contact for the rest of the song.
I see my life flash across the sky
So many times have I been so afraid
And just when I had thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say
I promise you, I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
And I'll carry you when you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary, well, I know you'll be there
And I can feel you when you say
I promise you, I'm always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you when you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
I promise you, I'm always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you when you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
Andy had just finished letting out a sigh of relief that she got through it without crying when Traci suddenly through herself at her and broke down and finally Andy's flood gates opened and tears ran freely down her face.
Sam sat totally shocked as Andy and Traci came back to their seats; that song had hit close to home if he was ashamed of what he had done to her before he was more ashamed now. The priest said that Jerry wanted this song sung at his funeral, Andy had sung it but it felt as though she was singing it to him, for them. If there was anything he knew was true in this moment and that was that he wanted no needed to get Andy back but he's caused her so much heart break would she give him another chance. Taking a chance himself, he grabbed her hand and squeezed it watching her reaction. Andy quickly looked down at their hands, she gave him a small squeeze back but then pulled her hand away, she just couldn't deal with Sam right now.
Movement at his right side caused Sam to look away from her as he watched members of Jerry's family lift the coffin onto their shoulders and slowly make their way out to the grave site. Sam didn't know what to make of Andy's small squeeze but it was more than what he was expecting, as he took his place behind them once more, he couldn't stop the one thought running through his brain, he wanted Andy back.
Sorry to end it here but I felt as though this was the best place to leave it but all I will say is that it won't be plain sailing for Sam. More to come soon! And for those of you that's don't know the song it's Footprints in the Sand by Leona Lewis, search it on YouTube if you haven't it's a beautiful song.