Reid found himself laying in bed wide awake. He had desperately tried to forget the thought that kept racking his brain. But to no avail, no matter how hard he tried to forget it he couldn't stop thinking about it.

And when Luke got home that night; it didn't help. Not only that but he'd been glaring at Katie all evening because she kept smiling and giggling at them. Poor Luke had no clue whatsoever what was going on the entire time.

Reid could feel his frustration growing, he untangled one of his hands from the blankets and rubbed his head. An incoherent murmur sounded from next to him. Luke picked his head up; his hair was slightly tousled, his eyes were unfocused and looked tired.

"Reid..what're you doing?" he asked half dazed. Reid turned his gaze to his partner and lowered his hand.

"Nothing," he breathed out; heaving a sigh. His hand traveled to rest on the blonde's head and he found himself absentmindedly running his fingers through Luke's hair. Earning a soft moan and a sleepy smile from said blonde. Luke let his eyes flutter closed again while moving closer to the surgeon so he could lay his head over his chest.

Luke hummed softly in contentment; feeling himself starting to drift back to sleep as Reid's hand continued stroking his hair.

By the time Reid glanced back down at the boy half laying on him, he was already fast asleep again. Reid let a small smile grace his face for a moment before he laid his head back down letting out a soft breath.

...

Reid stood at the counter impatiently tapping his fingers against the surface. Luke had already left while Reid waited for the demon coffee maker to heat up. Katie walked into the kitchen wearing a large smile on her lips.

"So Reid," she said in a chipper tone. Reid sent her a glare over his shoulder. "Drop it Katie." he said darkly. "Well!" she exclaimed. "Someone's not happy today." she teased.

Reid groaned rubbing his eyes, "I couldn't sleep very well," he admitted. "I was up all night thinking about...it" he muttered bitterly. Katie's smile broadened, "Congratulations Reid, your a human being!" she said enthusiastically. "I'm serious Katie!"

Katie rolled her eyes, "Well so am I, face it Reid you wanna marry him."

"Stop saying that!" he hissed at her. "I told you before Katie, it's not a definite thing. Quite frankly I just want to forget about it!" he exasperated. He grunted in annoyance and pushed himself from the counter finally. "Forget it, I need to get going," he stated.

Reid felt more eager then ever to get out of the house. If he was lucky some good old fashioned hard work would take his mind off of the whole...you know what. Reid climbed into his car and began driving towards Memorial.

/You know your not going to forget about it/

Reid frowned tightening his grip on the steering wheel. He had never found the little voice in the back of his head this annoying until now.

"Says you, a few hours of working in the brain should take my mind off all this heart stuff."

/Pff! Yeah right! Your a brain surgeon so you know that there's still a part of the brain that handles emotions, and you know your not going to forget!/

The voice argued back.

"God, now I can't get you to shut up!" he growled and then reached for the radio. "Fine then I'll just drown you out too," he concluded flipping to a station.

"I'm hoping this will last, cause I just always wanna have you right here by my side-" Reid glanced at the radio and quickly turned it to the next station.

"These feeling's won't go away they keep knocking me-" Reid widened his eyes and once again quickly hit the button to change the station. He sighed in exasperation.

"So why can't you see you belong with me-" Reid stared at the possessed radio and quickly changed the station for the fourth time. "The hell," he breathed out.

"I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you"

"Oh for the love of God!" Reid cried out hitting his head against the steering wheel. He picked his head up glaring daggers at the evil radio and shut it off. Letting out an exhausted breath he ran a hand through his hair.

He could feel his frustration increase to hear the voice in his head laughing at him. He rolled his eyes, "Yeah laugh it up," he hissed bitterly.

Reid groaned softly as he pulled his car into the parking lot and got out of the car.

"Why is everything on this planet plotted against me today!" he asked himself out loud. The surgeon gritted his teeth together grumbling to himself as he stalked into the hospital. Ignoring the odd looks some of the other staff was giving him as he walked to the locker room to change out of his street clothes.

/Hm did you ever think that maybe all these things are a sign that you should..I don't know ACCEPT it!/

Reid slammed the door of the small locker shut. "Will you shut the hell up already!" he snapped in a hushed tone.

/Will you stop being in denial?/

"You don't even know what your asking me to do!" Reid replied straightening himself up again.

/Asking you to do! Oh yeah because God forbid you actually do something that would make both you and Luke happy, and let you spend your life with someone your madly in love with! I'm such a monster!/

"Will you just leave me alone already, and who said I was madly in love with him!" he asked sharply. He was getting sick and tired of this nagging voice; no matter how right it may or may not be.

/Right what was I thinking, I must be going crazy to think that you actually love the person who your in a relationship with. Who might I add is the person who saved your career, made you a better person, gave you a reason for living besides working, and helped fund your neurology wing./

The voice in his head drawled sarcastically. Reid let out an exaggerated groan; go figure, since this was his inner voice it would be just as much of an asshole as him.

"Look I don't have time to listen to you," Reid dismissed and walked out of the room.

/You don't ever want to listen when you know it's the truth/

His voice said stubbornly. Reid sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose, "It's not, I don't want to marry Luke," Reid hissed keeping his voice as quiet as possible.

/That's a load of bull and you know it./

"No I most certainly do not know that!" he whispered. "I said I'd think about it, I didn't say that I knew that's what I wanted." he contradicted.

/But that's just it! Your not thinking about it! Your trying to forget about it./

Reid this time didn't reply at all, he knew the nagging voice was right. He was trying to forget about it; which was proving useless. He sighed heavily rubbing the side of his head; this was just proving to give him a headache.

"God..Luke why do you have to drive me crazy?" Reid questioned.

"What about Luke?" Reid's head suddenly snapped up hearing the voice that somehow was now in front of him.

"What!" he asked quickly. He looked up to see a very confused Chris staring at him, Chris eyed the neurosurgeon uncertainly.

"Why are you so jumpy today?" he asked raising a brow. Reid frowned at the brunette smoothing out his composure. "I'm not." he replied calmly. "Sure? Because it sure didn't seem like it ten seconds ago."

"Doogie don't you have something you have to do? Or somewhere you have to be, preferably somewhere far away from me?" Chris frowned at the surgeon.

"Wow is it just me or are you even more of an asshole today?" he accused. Reid frowned in response.

/Maybe if you weren't so upset about this whole thing you wouldn't be in such a bad mood/His inner voice mocked him. Earning an aggravated sigh from the surgeon, "I'm not." he muttered defiantly. Chris raised a brow.

"Did you say something?" he asked. Reid glanced at him, "No, I didn't." he replied not missing one single beat of their conversation.

/I wish you would say something about this already!/

Reid grumbled something rubbing his temple trying to get rid of the headache that was forming. He wordlessly walked past Chris having forgot their conversation.

For that entire day Reid had been on edge, he was distracted and out of it all day long. And it quite frankly pissed him off! He couldn't get this whole marriage thing off his mind! It was like some kind of parasite that was embedded in his brain.

Reid sat down on the bench in the locker room; he was exhausted. And he hadn't even preformed a surgery. It was just how much stress this was putting on him and the inner voice was wearing his brain down.

He sighed closing his eyes; rubbing his head again. Chris walked into the room and glanced at the red head who looked rather tense.

"Rough day?" he asked nonchalantly. Reid opened his eye and heaved another sigh as he opened the small locker door again.

"I guess you could say that," he agreed. He began changing back into his street clothes when he heard something buzzing. He blinked and looked at his phone which was sitting on the bench.

He grabbed it and turned it over to see Luke's name on the screen. He pressed the phone to his ear, "Hi."

"Hey, is something wrong?" Luke asked over the line. Reid sighed softly sitting back down. Luke's voice seemed to make some of his stress go away, or it at least made him feel more relaxed then before.

"Uh No nothing's wrong...why do you ask?" he questioned curiously.

"No reason..you just sound a little different is all. You have a hard day or something?"

Reid felt a small smile work its way onto his face, "Yeah you could say that, just have a headache." he said lightly. "Hey you should be happy though, I didn't make anyone cry today." he joked.

He heard Luke laugh on the other line, "Well good for you Dr. Oliver!" he said enthusiastically. Reid chuckled silently.

"So what did you call about?" he finally asked.

"Well I was just wondering if you wanted to meet me at Al's and get lunch, I mean if your free," he quickly added. Reid mentally thought it over, but it wasn't that hard to make a decision.

"Yeah sure, I'm actually just leaving, so I'll just meet you there."

"Kay, bye."

"Bye," Reid lowered the phone from his ear with silent groan. He put his phone back in his pocket and began gathering his stuff up.

"So Reid, exactly what were you saying about Luke this morning?" Chris inquired breaking the silence between them. Reid sent Chris a half heated glare in response.

"Well Doogie my love life is non of your business, so kindly keep your nose out of it." he said firmly. Chris only snickered in response.

"The fact that your love life is actually existent is still a mystery to me," he jeered. Reid scowled at him as he stood.

"What on earth does Katie see in you?" he pondered aloud. Chris sent Reid a challenging look.

"What does Luke see in you?" he countered. Reid grunted in reply.

"Touche Doogie Hughes."

Reid then made his way out of the hospital and got back into his car. He reached for the radio and quickly stopped himself.

"Reid, you know you shouldn't, remember the last time," he told himself lowering his hand.

/You know Katie was right, this feeling's not going to just go away. No matter how much you try and avoid it./

The voice lectured him. Reid groaned, "It's like I have a mini Katie in my head."

Reid spent most of the drive to Old Town arguing with himself. Yeah he was sure he was going off the deep end or something pretty darn close to it. Reid made his way to the front of Al's to see Luke standing there waiting.

Luke spotted the red head and Reid was immediately greeted by Luke's signature goofy smile. No matter how much Reid didn't want to admit it, it made his heart skip a beat.

And he could practically feel his voice smirking smugly at him too.

/Do you honestly think you can live your life without that boy standing right next to you?/

Reid tried to ignore the voice in his head but found the voice ringing loud and clear. Luke walked up to him still smiling brightly.

"Great, come on I'm starving," Luke said turning on his heel and started towards the door. Reid stood still for a few moments feeling a smile work its way onto his face again. The words still ringing clearly through his head.

"..No.." he replied and followed Luke into the restaurant.

TBC

SQuee ..yes i know i liked this chapter i really hope you guys like Reid's whole inner voice character. I made it mostly to be almost like a second katie and kind of add some humor to this as well. Reid's inner voice is pretty much that an inner voice but the point of it is it also is kind of Reid's voice of reason and kind of his inner thoughts. So it's kind of a more..idk honest Reid..who's just a voice... AH IT hurts my head! lol well i hope you guys review more..please...it would make me super duper happy!..oh and by the way just cause reid said no that does not mean he's totally out of denial. Oh and by the way the songs i used for this were "If the moon fell down tonight" 'Sideways" [i think] "you belong with me" and "fallin' for you" and once more PLEASE REVIEW!