A/N: Sorry guys for keeping you waiting for the final part! I was on work practice for three weeks in Italy, hopefully you will forgive me!

Erestor burst into tears when he had reached Imaldris. All the other scribes were dead but, Ildir the king's daughter was unharmed and the children too. Erestor had decided to bring Ildir first to safety and then let his emotions take the better of him.
'My lord what ails you?' a voice asked.
'Gondolin fell as did her people, expect we four' Erestor said and bit down his shaky voice but the tears was running down his cheeks. Erestor explained everything for the Ilmadris lord named, Maglor on the way to the healing house.
'My lord I'm afraid we lost the princess' one of the healers said.
'How? She was unharmed' Maglor said.
'She had no will to live anymore she faded away' the healer said. Erestor collapsed on a bed in the healing house and hold his stomach that was hurting and made him throw up few times. The healer had run to him and examined Erestor.
'Milord you are pregnant' the healer said. In the evening Erestor were warped in side a blanket curled on the bed in his new rooms and was crying. The only thing that made him on a little better mood was that he was pregnant with Glorfindel's child and that was a something he would have to hold on and remind him of his beloved, but sadly that joy of being pregnant was only few months when Erestor had woke up and his bed was covered in blood and the child had been a miscarriage. That was the point Erestor whole broke apart and wished to fade away but the god's wasn't so generous to him.

So here he sat Erestor, now chief advisor of Imaldris. The kid's had grew up and separated. Erestor in the other had changed to a cold and spoke only when it was needed.
,Sometimes is quit ironic how my names fit me, Etestor, Lone namer. I give people titles and only address them with it and then of course I'm alone. The memories of past is the little warmth I've left and ring of course, which was made for Glorfindel, Erestor thought when he sat in his office he revealed the ring which had been under his robe. The ring was in a chain around his neck, Erestor traced the symbols on the ring. A golden flower, symbol for Glorfindel's household and a lion, symbol for Glorfindel, brave like a lion had he been. An emerald was in the middle of the ring. On the other side of the emerald was a raven, symbol for him because his hair was raven black and a fountain, symbol for Erestor's household. Erestor swallowed down his tears and put the necklace back around his neck.

Erestor stood out side Imaldris waiting on them who had survived the war back home to the valley. Many had fallen and the princess Ildri's other son, Elrond had become the lord of valley because Maglor and Maedhros had fallen. When the company came closer to him he noticed that beside Lord Elrond rode someone who wasn't from the valley. Erestor froze totally when he recognized the one beside the lord. This couldn't be happening, how did he even? That can't be him, or? Erestor mind was full with question but his cold mask didn't betray a single emotion.
'Welcome milord back home, it is sad to see so few of you have returned' Erestor said and watched as the men jumped off their horses.
'It is sad. Will you show Lord Glorfindel to his new chambers?' Elrond asked and Erestor nodded and motioned the golden haired to follow him. Glorfindel looked exactly how he had and nothing seemed to have changed in the warrior, except his memory, guessed Erestor. He opened a door to a big and warm room.
'I hope this room's pleases you milord' Erestor said and bowed to the other.
'Thank you. Where is the library?' Glorfindel asked and looked at the dark haired and dark clad elf.
'I will send you a servant who will escort you milord' Erestor said and quickly escaped from the golden haired because his cold mask was breaking and all his emotions were taking the better of him. When Erestor reached his rooms he let the emotions let take him over. His beloved was so near him but the one didn't even recognize him. Did Glorfindel think he was dead? Why would he have so hurry to reach the library if he didn't thought that he was dead.
He, Erestor basically run whole valley, everybody came and complained to him. He never did nothing wrong, put Rivendell before himself and it was heavy one him because he was alone and he hadn't anyone to share his troubles to and the worst of all was that his former lover was so close to him, but didn't remember him.
Erestor had been wrong about that the Elda had searched for evidence to that he was alive. Lindir the butler of Rivendell told that the reborn elf had been curious about the ring he had found hanging around his neck.
'Did you see the ring?' Erestor asked and walked restless in a circle in the library.
'Yes I did. I guess it's a wedding ring from his past life and it was so little so I think it was meant for his beloved' Lindir answered and sat on his working desk. Erestor nodded.
'I gave him the advice to ask you about the carvings, because you Erestor are the best in history' Lindir said after a while and Erestor paled and stopped instantly.
'Is something wrong?' Lindir asked worried and walked beside the advisor.
'Do not trouble your head with my problems lord Lindir' Erestor said quietly.
'Erestor, you know I will gladly help you if you would only let me' Lindir said and placed a hand on the black clad elf's shoulder.
'I'm fine, thank you' Erestor said and walked away from the library with a book pressing against his chest.
'Erestor' the advisor heard Lindir calling after him but did not turn back.
Later that day someone knocked at his offices door.
'Come in' Erestor said and turned around so he looked at the door and he saw the golden haired step inside his office.
'Good evening advisor, I hope don't disturb you' Glorfindel said and walked inside of the room.
'How can I help you lord Glorfindel?' Erestor asked and looked at the Elda who walked to him and put the ring on Erestor's working desk.
'I hoped you would have the skill to recognize these carvings on the ring' Glorfindel said and sat down on a chair beside the desk.
'I shall try my best milord' Erestor said and looked at the ring, it was very beautiful and it made him sad to know that he would never have it around his finger. He opened a book and looked for the page where he knew the symbols of the different households in Gondolin, he couldn't just tell the Elda that he was his beloved and that ring was meant for him.
'Well as you can see milord, these are the different symbols for the households in Gondolin, your home' Erestor said and pointed with his finger on the symbols.
'How did you know I was from Gondolin?' Glorfindel asked and looked at the symbols and the ring.
'You are a legend milord and there are many songs about you' Erestor said.
'Can I look thorough that book?' Glorfindel asked and then added;
'And what is your name advisor? And you can call me just, Glorfindel'
'Of course and I'm Erestor' Erestor said and gave the book to Glorfindel. The Elda thanked the other and begun to leaf through the books pages.
'So what is your theory Erestor?' Glorfindel asked after a while.
'That your beloved was from the household of the Fountain and I guess the raven has something to do with the appearance' Erestor said and looked at the other and asked;
'You don't remember anything from your life in Gondolin? '
'Not much. I'm very glad you helped me and didn't think that I and Ecthelion were lovers' Glorfindel said and smiled a little.
'Have there been people that thought that?' Erestor asked, luckily he didn't burst out in laughter on the comment that people thought that his brother and Glorfindel were lovers.
'Aye' Glorfindel said and after a while turned the book around and asked;
'Do you think that is her? Because that other do look like me' Erestor looked wide eyed at the picture that was drawn in the book, it was him and Glorfindel. But why by Valar did the Elda think he was an Elleth and who the heck had drew that, nobody survived the fall of Gondolin, except he and the children. Erestor nodded slowly.
'Yes, that is definitely you and the other… How?' Erestor mumbled the last word.
'Do you recognize her Erestor?' the Elda asked and looked at the advisor. Of course he recognized, it was him that could anybody notice, but what should he tell the other. He couldn't lie and he did want his love one back.
'Looks familiar, but I'm not quite sure. I thought nobody survived the fall except lord Elrond and lord Elros' Erestor told the Elda, not completely a lie. For Erestor surprise they stayed long and talked about different topics.
The advisor had to get his lover back, so he begun to figure out how he could flirt with the other and get him to fall in love in him. Erestor had no idea how to do it, because in Gondolin he hadn't done anything, it was Glorfindel that had kissed him… Oh yes, maybe a nice meal and a kiss would do it.

Erestor knew he was fading and guessed he would soon travel to hall of Mandos, he wanted to try one last thing before he faded away. The chief advisor dressed himself in a dress and braided his hair fairly and went to search after Glorfindel. Erestor succeeded in getting the warriors attention and they walked in the gardens laughed and begun to go on dates.

'We should go to your room Glorfindel' Erestor said and lead Glorfindel to his room.
'You are right my darling, Eïrin' Glorfindel said and followed the "Elleth" to his room and the locked the rooms door after them.
'You enjoyed the feast didn't you?' Glorfindel asked and smiled handsomely at the dark haired.
'Of course I did. I enjoy spending time with you' Erestor answered and straighten his violet dress with black details.
'Glorfindel' Erestor said and the blond pulled the slimmer elf in his lap and asked;
'Aye, my dear?'
'I shall soon travel from Rivendell, so I wonder if we could make love?' Erestor carefully requested.
'Of course dear, but will you return?' Glorfindel asked and placed a kiss on top the others forehead.
'Depends, but let's not worry of it' Erestor said and turned around in the others lap and pulled the golden haired gently in a kiss that left the other breathless.
'It feels like you have wanted this for a very long time' Glorfindel stated and begun to undress himself and Erestor couldn't do anything else than just watch as garment after other fell on the floor. His eyes roomed over Glorfindel's now naked body, it was exactly like it had been when they had made love for the first time. The time Glorfindel searched after the oil, Erestor undressed himself and laid on the bed on his stomach. He was very nervous, what if Glorfindel released who he really was, a very horny advisor of Imaldris who dresses as an Elleth to get the seneschal of Rivendell make love to him and the worst of all, he was not a she.
'Found it... Beautiful, you are a true beauty Eïrin' Glorfindel said and Erestor could feel as the warrior laid half a top of him and placed kisses on his back and the large hand caressed gently his butt. Erestor moaned and lifted his bottom against the others hand.
'Sure you don't want any fore play?' Glorfindel asked and was kissing Erestor's neck.
'Mhhm... Fin I do think that it is fore play when you prepare me for you' Erestor answered and Glorfindel laughed lightly and agreed with the other. Erestor closed his eyes when he felt the first finger and soon followed by the other and a third, he was moaning against the pillow he needed feel the true pleasure and for his luck the golden haired pushed his manhood gently inside of the him. Their love making was slow and passionate and when they both had came, Erestor snuggled close the warrior. Oh yes, this was the place where he and his soul belonged, beside his Glorfindel.
Erestor felt the vomit slide past his lips painfully slow to the bucket in front of his face. The first thing he had woke to in the morning was that he felt sick and wanted to throw up on the floor, but managed to the bathroom. He heard steps and that the door to the bathroom opened. Shit, he was only in his boxers and hadn't tied his manhood with a cloth against his body.
'Is everything alright?' Glorfindel asked worried and Erestor could feel when the warrior helped him into sitting position.
,Oh crap, I am so screwed now, Erestor thought and could see in the others eyes that he was surprised, very surprised.
'Erestor? You are Eïrin... I should have known. How are you feeling mellon-nin?' Glorfindel asked and stroke softly the others back.
'I don't feel well at all. Oh don't worry Fin you didn't hurt me' Erestor said and leaned carefully into the others embrace.
'I am very sorry for dressing up as a Elleth and dragging you to bed' Erestor apologized and stared on the floor, he was ashamed of himself, he had been the most selfish elf in whole Arda to put his desires first and didn't think on Glorfindel's happiness.
'Why didn't you tell me that you want to bed me?' Glorfindel asked and gently pulled the dark haired in his lap.
'I did tell you, but you laughed at me and said that you prefer Elleth's' Erestor said and tried to get rid of the bad feeling in his stomach.
'Did I truly? I am so very sorry for causing you pain and hurted you so' Glorfindel apologizes ashamed and then added;
'I don't remember anything that I have said such a thing to you. But what I said back then is a completely a lie'
'A lie?' Erestor asked and rested his head so he could see the golden warrior.
'Oh course my dear advisor. I do not prefer Elleth's, for I prefer for one tall and slim dark haired who has the loveliest chocolate brown eyes and spends his days working, reading and without him Imaldris would be doomed' Glorfindel said and stroked the others cheek and asked;
'Feeling better?'
'Yes, Hannon le lion. I am pretty sure I am pregnant...' Erestor said. Yes he had been through this before, unexplained sickness and throwing up in the mornings.
'Don't worry, I will not leave you even if you wouldn't be carrying my child' Glorfindel said and placed a gently kiss on the others forehead.
'Erestor... It is you isn't it? The one I was going to marry in Gondolin' Glorfindel said slowly and looked at the other. Erestor paled a bit, he had unnoticed told the whole truth to the golden warrior, by one single word; lion.
'Yes. I just wanted you to have a new choice in your life, I just wanted you to be happy' Erestor explained and continued;
'And because of the choice that you could have the life you wanted, I begun to fade. I just wanted to feel one last time be loved by you'
'Oh Erestor, you were giving your life for my happiness. But still in this life I choose you, my heart belongs to you dear' Glorfindel said and claimed the advisors lips in a kiss that left them both breathless.
'So the time when you told "Eïrin" that your heart belonged to one you couldn't ever be with... Were you talking about me?' Erestor asked and run his fingers on the warriors arm.
'Aye. Sometimes I begun to suspects that you were Eïrin, because you had the same personalities. I thought my mind just made me see you in everything, but now everything makes sense' Glorfindel told the other and pointed out;
'Come on naneth, let's dress you in warm robes and feed until you can't eat no more'
'I love you' Erestor said and giggled when the warrior purred a "I love you too" in his pointy ear, lifted him in his lap and carried him to the bedroom.

Erestor had regained full strength and the child in his stomach was healthy and growing. The life of the advisor begun to go like he had dreamed. He had Glorfindel and could spend the long nights with him just talking and cuddling.
But then when Erestor's pregnancy was in the last days, Glorfindel had been wounded in a battle and when he recovered he treated Erestor badly. So Erestor gave birth to the children alone, he got twins. The boy died but the girl survived and Erestor begun to call her Eïrin. Erestor was alone again with his baby girl and Glorfindel treated him as a piece of shit.

Erestor had no intention to go the feast they where having honoring the last days in Middle-Earth, before sailing to west. He sat in his room drawing on a parchment paper by the window and he had just got Eïrin to sleep. She was a little angel and she was beginning to learn how to walk.
'This is a quite déjà vu' Erestor tensed, he recognized that voice right away.
'If you would be so kind and leave my rooms Lord Glorfindel' Erestor said strictly but quietly so he did not by accident wake up his daughter.
'Leave? I thought I promised something a very long time ago' Glorfindel said and opened his necklace and gave it to Erestor. The dark haired swallowed loudly, it was the ring that was meant for him, it reminded Glorfindel's but in the middle was a heart instead for the emerald.
'You are drunk lord' Erestor said swallowed his tears back.
'Erestor, why do you not trust me? I haven't drunk a glass. You have changed, I don't even recognize you anymore. This is not you' Glorfindel said and looked the dark haired who sat by the window.
'Try to lose everyone dear to you! Notice that you are with a child and get new hope and joy of it and then it's a miscarriage! Then I got you back, we used to love each other! I truly thought I got you back, but no! You got me pregnant left me, by little boy died in labor and you did not even care! And since then you have been treating me like a piece of shit! It is you who have changed and many times. So do not come and shout at me that I have changed!' Erestor said loudly and felt his walls around his hear begun to break down, he finally had said everything he had held hidden all these years. Glorfindel stood there and saw as Erestor broke down in emotions.
'I never knew, I am sorry' Glorfindel said and walked to Erestor, lifted the other in his lap and sat down on the bed.
'I have caused so much pain. I would want you to forgive me and continue where we left, but I know that you can't do that. Because I neither do not know what I have done' Glorfindel said sadly and Erestor put his arms around him and cried on his chest.
'I need you to just stay' Erestor said quietly.
'I'll not leave you alone raven' Glorfindel said and put his arms around Erestor. They stayed like the whole night and until breakfast.

'Morning, you fell a sleep in my arms' Glorfindel said and smiled to the other when Erestor woke up.
'You stayed' Erestor said softly.
'Of course, I won't leave you alone anymore. Not after everything I have done to you' Glorfindel answered and brushed some of Erestor's dark hair from his face.
'Thank you' Erestor said.
'What? Thank you is the last word in whole arda you say to me after hurting you so much' Glorfindel said and he was surprised that Erestor had thanked him.
'I am not blaming you Glorfindel' Erestor said and rested head on the strong shoulder.
'You should' Glorfindel admitted.
'Nay, it isn't me' Erestor said and Glorfindel chuckled.
'These clothes aren't you' the golden haired teased a little and poked on the advisor's whole black robe.
'I know, I haven't been myself. It is wonderful to have you back Fin' Erestor said and smiled a little.
'Well there is my beloved raven, where have you been hiding?' Glorfindel asked and rubbed his nose against the advisors.
'Under the shadow, but I got my sun back' Erestor answered the question truthfully and kissed the lips of the one he loved.
,Oh Valar! How I have missed those lips and...,
,Fin, now, now, no dirty things. We have a little child of ours in the room,
'Oh, that is just wonderful. Can I see our elfling?' Glorfindel asked and Erestor laughed. He opened his necklace and slipped the ring from the chain and put it too the right place, in the ring finger in Glorfindel's left hand.
'I love you my raven' the golden haired said and kissed his dark haired beauty and slipped the other ring in Erestor's finger.
'Feels good to be with you' Glorfindel said and hugged the other close.
'After all these, it was worth waiting for you. You did take a long time on you' Erestor said and stood up from Glorfindel's lap and gently pulled him to the crib.
'Isn't she beautiful. That's our princess Erestor, our little princess' Glorfindel said and grinned like a madman and hugged Erestor and carefully lifted his daughter in his lap.
'Hey beautiful, Ada is here now and won't ever and never again leave your naneth our you' Glorfindel promised and kissed their daughter on the forehead.
'Her name is Eïrin' Erestor told his lover.
'Erestor...' Glorfindel said, chuckled and kissed the dark haired on the cheek.
'So you decided to remember that' Erestor said and leaned on Glorfindel.
'How can I forget you in a stunning violet dress?' Glorfindel said and smiled.
'And you remember our time together here and in Gondolin?' Erestor asked.
'Aye and the night when our princess was made' Glorfindel said.
'Well in that case, you have to show me how that night felt' Erestor said and smiled.
'Now it is you who is impatient' Glorfindel pointed out.
'You do not know how many years I have waited, so I have no intention to wait anymore' Erestor informed and added;
'Just until we have eaten breakfast' Glorfindel laughed.
'You are making me falling in love with you over and over again my dear' Glorfindel said and kissed the dark haired.
'I know' Erestor said and took their child in his lap and begun to walk to the dinning room.
'You cheeky Advisor'