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I don't own Twilight, Stephanie Meyer does.

Chapter Two: Saying Goodbyes.

The throbbing ache in my chest grew stronger, threatening to rip open my chest as I drove nearer to the Cullen's house. I was about to leave the people that loved, protected and cared for me. They've done their fair share of protecting and now it was my turn, I was doing this for them. As I pulled my old Chevy into their drive, I couldn't help but think, would I ever see them again? Or would they move to another cloudy town? To Alaska with the Denali's? I shook my head willing the thoughts out of my head. Stop thinking about Bella. It will only make this harder. I took a deep jagged breath and stepped out of my truck, would this be the last time I come here? I blinked away the tears that had formed in my eyes and slammed the car door shut suddenly angry. I was being bullied into leaving my life. The life I loved. The life I had always wanted. Forced to leave it all behind. But I'm doing it for a good cause. Doing it for the Cullen's safety. I shook my head again, leaving them and disapearing would hurt them more.

I locked up my Chevy and walked to their front door slowly prolonging the time. I reached out to knock on the door but my arrival must of been anticipated because it swung open, Alice was stood in the entrance looking extremeley concerned. I knew my eyelids were swollen from all the crying, my eyes lifeless and dull, my skin sallow and my voice quiet and monotone. I couldn't hide the fact that I was a wreck, I looked exactly the same when the Cullens left.

"Bella! What's wrong? Are you okay?" Alice's voice grew frantic at my appearance, her eyes darting over my face. Jasper and Edward suddenly appeared next to her, their topaz eyes filed with anxiety. Always worrying about the fragile human.

"Tired." I shrugged, diverting my gaze to the floor. I could feel their gazes on me.

"Bella.. You look worst than tired." Jasper's musical voice accused. I looked up and saw Alice shoot a warning glance at him. Edward's topaz eyes were searching mine, looking for an answer or a sign of life. He wouldn't find anything, my life was here and I was leaving it behind to go to Volterra.

"I'm going to Phoenix tomorrow for a few days, so I just come to say goodbye." My voice broke on the last word. I took my gaze off Edward and looked above Alice's head. I couldn't look them in the eyes, they'd see the lie.

"Do you want one of us to go with you?" Alice spoke up, her voice leaking with sympathy. I just shook my head, keeping my eyes away from their gaze.

"I need to go pack so I can't stay long." I explained. I was holding back the tears, keeping what I truly felt inside. My heart was aching painfully and I tried to keep my feelings locked up so Jasper couldn't feel anything.

"We'll miss you." Emmett piped up from somewhere in the house. He always acted like my big brother, like my protector. But now it was my turn to protect him even if it meant I caused myself pain in the process.

"Miss you too Emmie." I manage to say. It took all my concentration not to make my voice sound pained. I heard a loud chuckle. He always smiled, always laughed. There wasn't a time you didn't see Emmett happy.

"What time are you leaving tomorrow?" Edward's usual velvet smooth voice, now sounded rough and almost tortured. He went wherever I went, we were like magnets. I move, he moves. Simple. Until now. We hated being seperated, like part of us was left with the other.

"Early tomorrow morning. 7:00. Probably." I answered vaguely, accidentally allowing some of my pain leak into my voice. Jasper flinched from the feeling and I locked eyes on Edward's. They were filled with pain, desperation and love. Mine held nothing, they were lifeless. Dead. Leaving him will be the hardest decision I'll ever make.

"I've got to go. Sorry." My voice sounded hoarse. The longer I stayed here, the harder it would be to say goodbye. I stepped forward and embraced Alice into a sisterly hug, squeezing her tighter than I ever had before.

"Hey, hey. You'll be back soon, why the sudden bear hug?" Alice joked, but you could hear the slight panic in her tone. Nevertheless, she hugged me back as hard as she could without snapping me in half. I pulled away from her and gave her a small smile.

"You are coming back aren't you Bella?" Jasper chuckled nervously as I gave him a tight hug. I just forced out a laugh and stood in front of Edward. His topaz eyes burned into my inanimate brown pools, he opened his arms and I flew into them, clutching onto his stone hard torso with all my strength. His protective arms immediately wrapped around me and held me tight. He lowered his head so it was the same height as my ear.

"You are, aren't you?" Edward whispered anxiously. I couldn't lie to him anymore. I just squeezed him harder, hoping my embrace answered his question. I took my head from his chest and stood up on tiptoes to get my last kiss. He pressed his lips gently to mine and the same spark of electricity shot through me from the first kiss, my blood boiled under my skin and I instinctively knotted my fingers in his bronze hair. A fake cough brought us out of our kiss. I reluctantly pulled back to see Emmett with a fake pout, standing in the doorway with his arms open.

"Don't I get a hug Bells?" Emmett frowned. Even in my depressed state, he made me giggle as always.

"Of course Emmie." I smiled and entered his arms. He picked me up and whirled me around, crushing me lightly to his muscular chest. I heard the quiet chuckles of Edward, Alice and Jasper as I gasped for air. He put me down gently and gave me a massive grin.

"When will you back?" He asked, still smiling. Three days for the transformation and the fact they'd never want to see me again after, let's see that makes.. I won't be back.

"Three days. Hopefully. But don't panic if I spend an extra day." I told them simply, leaving out the fact that the extra day would turn into years. Emmett frowned.

"I don't want you back a day late, Miss Swan- Soon to be Mrs Cullen!" Jasper commanded using his major voice. I plastered a fake grin on my face. Edward wouldn't want to marry me after all this. Edward grinned, completely oblivious to my unnatural smile.

"I'll try Major Whitlock!" I teased, walking back to Edward. I wrapped my arms around his waist and went on tiptoes to whisper in his ear.

"I love you, I will always love and no matter what, I'm so glad to be your fiance." I murmured, knowing he would hear me. I pulled back to see his puzzled face. I gave him one final wide smile and kissed his cheek. My happy facade was crumbling and my emotions were surfacing.

"Tell Carlisle, Esme and Rosalie I said goodbye." I quickly before my voice could give away what I was feeling. Everyone looked at me confused, I usually disregard Rosalie and leave her out but no matter how much she hates me, I will still miss her. I gave them all a weak smile and turned on my heel. Tears triculated down my face, I turned my head slightly to side and waved. I hoped they didn't see my tears. As I got into my truck, I wiped away streaks that the tears had left. Bye life, I whispered to myself. I dug around for my key and started the engine. I permitted myself one last look at them. All their expressions were different. Jasper looked concerned, Emmett was smiling although it faulted slightly, Alice looked distance and Edward.. Well Edward looked lost, broken, hurt.. Should I go on? I was leaving the love of my life for a stupid promise. I love you I mouthed to Edward. I knew he saw it because he flashed me my smile. The smile I loved so much. The crooked one he only smiled at me.

Please forgive me, I mumbled as I dropped my gaze. From my peripheral vision I saw the Cullens one last time. They all looked suddenly frightened and I suddenly understood that they had heard me. I gave one last wave at them and drove off, leaving my perfect life behind me. The hole in my heart burst open as I sobbed. I was off to Volterra to seal the promise we never fulfilled.