Chapter 2
"This is not real"
All of a sudden the music felt numb, conversations that filled the room slowly vanished into the background and all I could do was stand there and watch how my little world fell apart…
The sound, like a lightning, came back reminding her of where she is
Shizuru had seen enough, she slowly closes her eyes as if she could hide the fact that her heart was just broken right in front of her... as If closing her eyes would take away the image of reality that sooner or later she had to confront
Overwhelmed by her emotions
She turns around and starts to rush out of the room, Natsuki knew shizuru was there and was now leaving but didn't go after her, she just followed her with her eyes in till they could no longer keep track of her…
As shizuru was going towards the door she bumped into a short red hair girl making her slightly wobble
"Hey watch it missy!" says the girl quite irritated
"Kanin na" shizuru didn't really take a look at the girl and limited herself just to say that and walked thru avoiding the redhead, but she didn't pass unnoticed, the strange girl could tell that shizuru was in the verge of tears and decided to step in front of her
"Um… are you…alright?" asked the girl raising an eyebrow
"I'm fine, so please just… move…" answer shizuru quite desperate, hurrying the girl to move and the other girl did so
The red hair was looking at shizuru as she leaves the house ", the hell… and here I was trying to help" she looked around the place and sighed "damn conscious" she followed after shizuru
Outside Tate's house…
(Shizuru's POV)
I can feel the slight cold of the night as I walk outside, looking around I see there are some people hanging out here, having a good time… unlike me
Sigh
"I feel terrible… I want to go home"
I look at the sky and place my hand in my chest
My heart is aching baldy, I squeeze my chest as if I can suppress the emotions, I bitterly smile… such a childish attempt of making myself feel better, just how low I have fallen
Never had I experienced such terrible feelings or at least none that I was unable to mask away
I look towards Tate's house… Reito is probably having fun, I don't want to bother him and neither do I want him to see me like this…
A sudden breeze hits my body, causing an unpleasant feeling of coldness
I take out my cell phone and proceed to call a cab when I was suddenly covert by a jacket
"Here… you better wear this if you don't want to catch a cold"
It was that strange red hair girl once again; I'm starting to feel stalked…
"Thank you…" I can tell right away that this wasn't her jacket, considering the facts that she was wearing hers and this one was oversize's
"I didn't steal it, if that's what you are wondering…" explained the mysterious girl as if she needed to
"I just borrowed" she scoffs off
I giggle "well misses mystery, I appreciate it" I cover myself better with the jacket, I don't precisely feel comfortable using some guys clothing but choosing between freezing or using a strangers jacket, I didn't really have much of a choice
"Nao" I stare at her "the name is Nao"
I dint find smiling tonight possible but somehow it formed in my face
"My name is Shizuru"
"you know shizuru, it's pretty damn cold tonight and the party is pretty damn dull, so you should take me out for some coffe…like… "She looked at her watch "right now"
"ara? That seemed more like an order than a question"
"Well, what can I say, you owe me one" nao pointed her finger to the jacket and grinned
"My that's true… but still…" shizuru looked around like something is missing
"Still what?" nao asked curios
"I would like to know something before I go on a date with you Miss Nao"
"Excuse me?" she slightly blushed "this ein't no date"
"So…this is …not a date?" I tilt my head slightly while my eyes began to do their job
"It's…not…its… hey! don't give me that look" she started to get desperate and her blush starts to increase fast "no! NO! Stop right there! Don't do that!" I can practically see spirals in her eyes
Ah…sometimes I love myself…
After calming her down I called a cab and we were now on our way to town, and in our way we were having trivial conversations about anything that came in to mind
Somehow the perfect distraction
Once in the coffee place, we sat un table facing each other we then ordered and we got our drinks and still we where talking and laughing, it seemed like we could keep up for hours and hours
It was hard to believe I was having a great time in such a depressing night
Reminded by that, I had to ask her
"So tell me nao…" I started while she looked at me from her drink
"Why did you follow after me?" not really a great question but I was curios
"no particular reason really" the girl lowered her voice "…maybe I was a bit worried?" almost seemed like she said it to herself
"is that so?" I stare at her with amused eyes while I rest my head in my hand while leaning on the table getting closer to her, natural instinct of flirting, that bad habit of mine
"I don't mean it like that! Don't give me that look… you know… I was maybe a little worried you might kill yourself or something" she leaned on her chair getting away from me, she looked away trying her best to hide her embarrassment
What a poor excuse I mentally laugh
"Look what I mean is… that guy isn't worth anything, so don't be…" I cover my mouth and started to softly laugh "hey! Don't… laugh?"
she stops talking and I know she is looking at me now, so…
I let my guard down…at times like this I would say…My mask fell apart
Soft laughs came after every tear that slides down
"But If it is a woman that has broken my heart… then is it worth it?"…
Silence came in and not only ours, seemed like other people were listening also, Nao just glared at them and they just turned to mind their own business
"We should head out" offered nao, having gain to much attention from the people in the coffee shop, luckily there were not many.
On our way to anywhere, I explained her part of my story, somehow I felt compromised to tell her… or maybe… comfortable?
Suddenly we found a small park which conveniently was close by my apartment, so that means… it's a safe place
"wanna swing a bit?" nao asked me, I smile enough to answer a yes and we went to the swings, once sited we stayed in silence
I hide my head in shame… I closed my eyes feeling the soreness' them for having cried too much… and yet filled with a lot of emotions
The awkward silence was getting more and more uncomfortable and my small sobs where the only sound that invaded our conversation
"Still it's not worth it"
I was not really surprised by her answer; yet again I didn't think she would remember that
"Love is nothing to have to worry about, life itself has its own problems to be dealing with those things!, honestly… people in love are only a pain in the crack!" Nao's attempt of cheering me up wasn't giving me the effect It had moments ago…
I look at her, and in her eyes some sort of emptiness, yes… the sort of…
"You've never been in love, haven't you?" I in a bitter way ask her
"I…" taken back by my question "I guess not… I have no time for it"
"It's not a matter of time… it's not even a matter of decision!" I tighten my grip on the swing's chain "I never wanted it to be like this" I murmur
I can feel her watching me… now I feel bad for trying to take it on her…
"I'm…" I was about to apologize
"Look… yes, maybe I'm no one to talk about love, but something I know is that no matter how or what happens in a relationship, you should respect yourself even if, in your case, means letting her go"
"But how…?" is that even possible?
"You know shizuru…" nao takes my hand in hers and looks in to my eyes intensely "sometimes… just sometimes…
…life is just as simple as looking at the sky"
In some way, those words reached in to me deeply…
We both then shared the sight of the starry night
Shizuru: I didn't know Nao was that kind of person, so kind and deep
Nao: yeah yeah, and if you don't shut up anytime soon, you'll know more things
Shizuru: ara ara… how interesting, *apply sexy tone* like what kind of things Na-o-cha-n~
Nao: ugh… *blush*
Shizuru: you know… "Conveniently" my house is close by * mischievous look*
Nao: ah… *beat red*
Natsuki: you girls know I'm here right? *looks at nao like she is going to kill her*
Nao: WHY ARE YOU ONLY LOOKING AT ME!
Shizuru: giggle
Me: LOL love me 8DD don't hate me for not knowing how to writhe properly and… please u_u be patient… and and and and and thank you very much for the comments! /w/ enjoy!