Chapter 2 Bleed Just To Know Your Alive
Bella's POV
This time Jake came into my room alone. I decided I might just give him some of what he wants. Jacob laid down beside me. I rolled over and started kissing him gently then urgently. I removed his shirt quickly. Quickly I pressed play on my CD. The song felt sort of true.
'And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive'
Jake pulled back gently to say something.
"Bella are you sure you want this?" Jake asked gently.
"Yes Jacob. This is what I want. I want you to love me. Please love me." I whispered.
There was no reservation after my words. Quickly we undressed eachother, and Jake laid me down. Calmly he pushed into me. I winced slightly. The burning at first was unimaginable. The burn started to turn into pleasure.
"Did I hurt you? I'm so sorry." Jake said quickly.
"It's supposed to hurt your first time isn't it?" I said smirking.
Jake understood after that and started gently, but shortly thereafter he sped up bringing us to our climax.
The pleasure I felt was undiscribable. He laid down beside me and held me after. The experience was so beautiful it brought me to tears. Exhausted I fell asleep.
When I awoke it was dark outside. Someone was yelling outside of my room so I ventured out to see what was going on.
"You took her virginity after he broke her heart! Are you stupid? I know she's your imprint, but that has no bearing on the situation at hand! Do you realize what could have happened?" Sam growled.
They were arguing over my virginity? It was none of Sam's buisness. I snapped.
"Sam my sex life has nothing to do with you! Would you please stop talking about it like I'm your daughter?" I snarled.
My body shook gently.
"Bells are you feeling ok?" Jake gulped.
I nodded my head and ran outside. I no longer was going to put up with others judging me. I ran as fast as I possibly could into the woods. I didn't realize it was faster than human till I crashed into a tree ofcourse.
That made me even angrier. My body was positively vibrating now. I heard several crack, and felt a sharp sting as my bones changed shape. I heard someone behind me and I snarled at them crouching into a defensive posture.
'Bella. It's just me. Your beautiful this way by the way. I love you and you are my imprint.' Jake said into my thoughts somehow.
Turning slowly I looked into his eyes and time stopped. Everything that held me in place fell away from me, and at the same time tied me to him. My pain vanished. All I saw was this wolf/man in front of me. I nodded my head.
'How can I hear you in my head' I thought.
'It's a wolf thing. You just imprinted on me as I have on you. That's how we find our soulmate. By the way you are absolutely beautiful!' Jake thought.
In Jake's head he showed me what I looked like. Needless to say I was shocked. I was fluffy white. I had yellow eyes whereas Jake's eyes were the same as in his human form. This confused me.
'I don't know either. Sam is waiting with a sundress behind that tree. You need to shift back. In order to do that you need to think of something comforting. Something that brings you peace.' Jake thought calmly pointing.
I nodded and thought of our pairing earlier. I shifted quicker than even I expected. I lifted the dress and pulled it over my head. Jake came to me in human form wrapping me in his arms lovingly. I didn't understand.
"You smell different than other wolves. Even different from Leah. Damn it Jake! I told you it was mating season you shouldn't have!" Sam whispered.
I tilted my head up to him confused.
"From September to December is mating season. Meaning that he could have gotten you pregnant. I explained everything to Charlie. He's ok. Don't worry he took the news better than I expected." Sam said thoughtfully.
I nodded but was still confused. I was 18 there is no possible way I could get pregnant. The doctors told my mother that years ago when I got sick.
"Sam I'm not pregnant nor will I ever be. I'm unable to concieve. When I was younger I had cancer, and one of my ovaries were removed. The radiation ruined the other." I said tearfully.
"That doesn't make sense! It defetes the purpose of imprinting! It's to create stronger wolves. Why would someone imprint on a female who was unable to reproduce?" Sam thought out loud.
I felt a nudge from my belly. Figuring I was just hungry I ignored it and looked lovingly to Jake. Jake looked shocked.
"Bella, Kim's pregnancy only lasted a week. Um, I well. I just heard another heartbeat." Jake said gently.
I shook my head and ignored him. It was impossible! Again I felt the nudge.
"Jake I'm not pregnant silly I'm just hungry." I said calmly.
We heard several cracks, and I was even more confused as the pain came on. Sinking to my knees I realized I was betraying Edward. I didn't love him as much as I loved Jake. It wasn't right. Edward just left me 2 weeks ago. "Vampire!" Sam hissed.
Jacob threw me behind him into the waiting arms of Leah. I guess it's true sometimes you do bleed just to know your alive.
Something struck my stomach hard. It bowed me over taking Leah with me. Suddenly Leah lifted me and was running, but not before I saw the steady stream of blood flooding down my legs. Great my period came. I was carried to the couch.
"Emily call Sean. I'll do what I can but it isn't much." Leah yelled.
Gently Leah lifted up my dress and pressed gently on my stomach. I was surprised as I howled with pain.
"Placenta ruptured. I need to suture it but I have no pain killers. I'm sorry Bella. You are pregnant. The baby will be fine.
I just need to suture this and everything will be ok." Leah said.
Sean arrived then and injected me with something. I was asleep within seconds.