Chapter 1 - Lucy's Story
Lucy looked across the Bull pen at Myles, only Sue and Tara knew her secret that she was still in love with him, only the two women knew how she dreamt of him and cried over him, only they knew how jealous she became every time he dated someone knew, or when he flirted with someone other than her and when someone other than her flirted with him. Myles looked up from his paperwork and caught her eye as she watched him, she smiled shyly at him and then quickly looked away, she saw both Sue and Tara glance up in her direction as she returned to her work, she smiled sadly at them, and saw them return her sad smile before she continued typing at her computer, she knew they felt bad for her. Her computer dinged twice and she smiled as she saw the two flashing window bars on the bottom of her screen, she opened them one at a time, knowing they were instant messaging conversation windows, she read Sue's message.
Conversation with Sue. T.
Sue. T. says: Are you okay?
Lucy. D. says: I'm okay hang on a sec I'll add you into Tara's Conversation window.
Lucy. D. has left the conversation
Lucy replied to Sue then ended the conversation and opened Tara's (Lola's) conversation window and added Sue to the conversation.
Conversation with Lola
Lola says: Hey how are you holding up? : )
Sue. T. has been added to the conversation
Lola says: Hey Sue : )
Lucy. D. says: Welcome to the conversation Sue, and I'm okay you two honestly,
you don't have to worry about me.
Sue. T. says: Hi Tara, thanks Lucy.
Sue. T. says: Luc you don't look okay, I saw how sad your smile was and I bet Tara
did too.
Lola says: You're right I did Sue, you're our friend Luc, and as your friends it's our
job to worry.
Lucy. D. says: Okay, okay, so I'm a little sad, why can't he see that I still love him?
Why doesn't he love me anymore? It's driving me crazy :'(
Lola says: Awww Luc, *hugs* he's a man they never see anything when it comes to
people's feelings, even if the feelings are staring them in the face ; )
Sue. T. says: LOL you're right Tara men don't pick up on anything they're just too
slow on the uptake.
Lucy looked at her friends and at Myles before replying.
Lucy. D. says: Thanks guys I feel a bit better now, but I'm still frustrated, I'll figure it
out though : )
Lucy. D. has left the conversation
Lucy knew she had some decisions to make, she started to think about the things she needed to make decisions about and every so often she glanced over at Myles.
*Do I tell him how I feel? No I can't do that.
Do I wait for him to work it out for himself? No because he probably never will.
Do I just carry on wasting my time, my life waiting for him? I don't want to do that.
Do I move on? Yes I move on.
But do I move on and find someone else, or do I move on at work, or both? I know what I need to do*
Finally she had made her decision; she stood and left the Bull pen. Lucy walked to the Supervisor's Office and knocked on the door.
"Come in" D's voice called from inside. Lucy opened the door and walked inside,
"Lucy, is everything okay?" D asked smiling,
"Not really, could I talk to you about something?" she asked,
"Of course, take a seat Luc, what's up?" he asked as she sat down.
"Well I haven't exactly been myself just recently, and even though I love the team and I love my job here, I think to get myself back to normal, it's time I moved on, I was wondering if I could request a transfer, preferably to a different team in a different office here in D.C.?" she asked sadly,
"Wow, I wasn't expecting this Luc" D said sitting back in his chair in shock,
"Why do you want to transfer? Has someone done or said something to upset you? Someone from the team? Myles he hasn't said or done something stupid has he?"
Lucy shook her head vigorously,
"No, no, he hasn't, no-one has, I just need to do this, for me, I do have some personal reasons for wanting….. needing to do this, but I have to do this for me please D?" she asked desperately as tears began to fall down her face.
D leaned forward and patted her hand reassuringly,
"Okay, I'll see what I can do Luc, but in the meantime if you need anything or if you need to talk, you know where I am my door is always open, especially for my friends" D told her.
"Thanks D" Lucy replied giving him a watery smile as she left his office.