thank you for reviewing! not as good as the first chapter in my opinion, but i wrote it really fast. enjoy! stuff actually happens in this one.
After my shocking discovery, I still lived life as I did before. I would arrive at the training grounds, drool over the smug Uchiha, and ignore the cacophonous Uzumaki. All the while thoughts of my elusive sensei crept back into my mind. I had to push him out some how. I couldn't keep these ignominious emotions from surfacing again. I tried to admire Sasuke again. I attempted to resurrect those feelings I once held for him. What was it I liked about him again; his cold heart, his hurtful words, his hair? What was so irresistible about him in the first place? Now he seemed like an abomination. How could any girl fall for him? And his HAIR! He resembled a cockatiel to me. Nevertheless, to like him would be less of a sin. Kakashi, his face soon found its way into my thoughts. No, no more, he probably was twice as old as I was. It was amoral. It was shameful. It was just plain wrong. Did that mean love was wrong too then? How could an emotion, so delicate, so kind, so caring, be so wrong? I had to stop thinking about him like that. He was my teacher, no more. He could never be anymore. Even if it wasn't wrong to love him, he would never love me in return.
It was morning; I crawled out of bed begrudgingly. I couldn't stand living another day, yet alone a training day. That meant I would have to see him. He was always late anyways; I might as well sleep in. However, I couldn't sleep. I thoughts of him kept me awake. So I pulled off the sheets, threw on my clothes, and trudged down stairs. At breakfast, I poured the milk in my cereal until it was overflowing. I couldn't think straight. Actually, I couldn't think at all. I felt so empty. I just sat there on the chair, staring at my cereal as it turned into a soggy mess. I was late now. I didn't care. I dumped the cereal into the sink and headed to the training ground.
"My, my Sakura, it isn't like you to be late." It was his voice, his deep, resounding voice. The sweet vibrations floating to my ears and reverberating through out my entire body making me shudder. It was so hypnotic. It put a spell on me instantly. For a moment, I forgot everything except for him. The only thing that snapped me back to reality was the blush quickly appearing on my cheeks. "I'm so sorry Kakashi sensei. I…I must have overslept." That excuse sounded so lame. "It's fine, Sakura. Well now we can get started." He was so forgiving. Unlike Sasuke whose sole purpose was revenge. Kakashi was so different from everybody else. I breathed in his fragrance. It was something new to me. It was always something new. I wonder where he goes when he is not training us, or reading that silly book of his. His sent was almost like…rain, and grass. Almost like a puppy. It suited him perfectly. I closed my eyes, I felt like I was turning to mush like my cereal that morning. This is what he did to me. He made me so happy, so refreshed. His casual style made everything seem all right. He would teach me so much, and, when needed, he would protect me. He was my hero, my sensei, and I loved him.
Training went by beautifully. When I was with him, everything seemed right again. Then, he had to leave. He was assigned a mission, one that could take weeks. How was I going to survive without him for that long? I tried practicing my jutsu but I just couldn't get it right. I needed him with me; he was the reason for my success as a ninja, he was my inspiration. I sulked alone for weeks and weeks, but they seemed like eternities in his absence. I would look at pictures of us together, but it still hurt inside. I needed him so badly. Nothing could quench the flame of desire I had for him. When I went out with my friends I strived to act as my normal cheery self, but knowing that he wasn't there made it so much harder. Life seemed dull, a sheer imitation of what it used to be. Colors seemed faded; the sky always was cloudy, what was the point in life without him to love?
Weeks past, it had been to long. Kakashi had not returned.
so what did you think? is it worth continuing? the next one will be better, i promise. but it'll take more time to write. REVIEW!!