Chapter 2
I don't own anything, just a computer and a love for an addictive show.
KURT
It's been about 2 years since I left Ohio, although it feels like it's been a decade. I miss glee club, I miss my girlfriends, my family, and most of all my boyfriend.
Okay, maybe he was just a friend. I just always wished he was more than that. I knew he didn't feel the same way though, so I just suffered through it. Even though his every move amazed me, and his every word sounded like an angel's song. I remember the day I left like it was yesterday…
I was busy packing up to leave to New York. After crying all night last night, it felt good to stay busy. Keep everything off my mind. It didn't help much that there was nothing short of a god sitting on my bed, watching me. My best friend, Blaine. I had been in love with him since the day I met him. I was in love with his dark hair, the way he talks, how outgoing he is, his smile, the way he knew every single thing about me and still put up with me.
I knew he didn't feel the same, though. If he did, he would've said something, correct? Sometimes I think I should just come out and say it. I guess now it's too late though…
Last night while I was crying my eyes out, I had come to the decision that if Blaine said one thing about not wanting me to go, if he even hinted that he had feelings for me, I would cancel my flight and stay in Ohio. Yeah, maybe it was idiotic to just dump your whole career for a man, but I couldn't help it. I was in love with him. It wasn't just a crush. He was everything to me, no matter how hard I tried to deny it.
"Hey Blaine, I'm finished." I said. I looked at him. He had that day-dreamy look he would get every now and then. It was a slight smile, with distant eyes. I love how deep his eyes were. "BLAINE" I said again. He quickly snapped out of it.
"Sorry, I was busy thinking." He said and looked straight into his eyes. I could have died right then. In fact, I'm actually quite surprised I didn't.
"Blaine…" I said. I saw a flash of emotion in his eyes, but it went away so quickly I was sure I had imagined it. "You're one of the very best friends I have ever had and I can't even begin to explain what you mean to me." I smiled and gave him the biggest hug ever. "if he had feelings for me he would have said it by now… give up Kurt. It's over." I told myself. I felt a wave of sorrow wash over but I composed myself before we pulled out of the hug. When he pulled back and whispered, "And neither could I." Tears began to well in his eyes. "Kurt.. I have a confession.." he began. Suddenly Finn burst into the room "DUDE COME ON WE HAVE TO GO NOW THE FLIGHT TIME CHANGED! HURRY UP!" He grabbed my suitcases and ran down the stairs. I looked at Blaine one last time. "Goodbye Blaine." I choked. I felt a tear go down my cheek. "Goodbye Kurt." He said. We were both crying by now. I turned around and left, leaving the love of my life behind. Hardest. Thing. Ever.
For a moment I could have swore I heard a Blaine whisper "I'm in love with you." Which was physically impossible since I was already halfway down the hallway.
So there I was. Sitting in my office in New York. I decided to go by Jamais which is French for "forever." I felt it suited me more than just "Kurt." I couldn't help but jump every time my phone rang. A part of me wished it was Blaine every time. How could it be though? He doesn't know my name. He would have to do a lot of digging to find me, and why would he try that hard to find me? We were only friends. Just friends. Never more.
I miss him. More than anything.
Wow, okay so I posted my first story on here yesterday. I woke up this morning and checked it, expecting like 3 views, instead there were like 70! Haha. Soo please reviewww!(: It only takes a minute of your time! Short chapter, I know. I'm finished with the next chapter already so it'll be very soon I upload the next part(: