You always come close, but this never comes easy- Taking Back Sunday

I opened my eyes to shining light.

"Good, Clementine you're up." The vampire with the platinum blonde hair smiled, "Oh, I'm Carlisle Cullen."

I nodded.

I got up still a little groggy from the black out, but it was welcomed. I haven't slept in 130 years, I yawned and stretched like a newborn.

"Am I okay, I guess you're the doctor or whatever Peter told me about?" I rambled.

"You seem to over exhausted yourself," He said walking towards me, "You need some rest and blood."

I took in my surrounding, this place was beautiful. Hard wood floors, expensive art filling the walls.

'Jasper got a nice place to live.' I thought to myself with a smile.

He deserved it. He deserved a wife that can provide the comfort he needed. He deserved everything, that I could not give him. I smiled sadly at the portrait of the family.

"I'm gonna go." I announced casually, its not like I wanted to run from the place. I just wanted to run screaming out of the place.

"Clementine, you don't always have to go. I'm sure Jasper would want you to stay, and we need to figure out why you blacked out like that." He said genuinely.

"Your kind is golden eyed, my Jasper doesn't need to be around me. He seems to be adjusting, he doesn't need another newborn fit. I'm set in my ways, I drink from humans." I reasoned, "Like you said I was over exhausted, I haven't hunted for the fear of being on the wolves' land. I'm 128 years old, and been a people drinker all of a 112 years of it. Can't stop the cycle, now."

I smiled weakly.

Carlisle looked at me with concern. " If you are worried about his state, you'll want to know he'll worry if I just let you go. He'll never forgive me if I let you go, and that's my son, I'm not going to do that to him"

"Jasper has everything he needs here. He seems better, he has a wife, a family, everything that I could not give him. I'm not gonna sit here and subject myself to anymore pain to see him with her. As much as I am happy for him, I'll be happier away from him." I spitted out, "He never needed me, so Doc, you don't have to let me go. I'll walk out by myself, and you can tell him it was my decision."

I began my nice and steady brisk, not 30 mile per hour walk, but human pace walk out the door, following down the stairs. Sadness began to slip into my emotions, and all I could say was, "I'm sorry."

Jasper was waiting on me down the stairs. His stance was determined and angry. I walked past him, not batting an eye, looking for the nearest exit.

"Look at what you're doing," my mind screamed out at me, and I stopped in the middle of the room that must of been the family area. My heart began to thump and stutter, the atrophied piece of trash started to hurt a few moments, I felt his arms wrap around me from the back.

"Soldier, stop fighting." He murmured.

"I've fought my entire life with and without you, why should I stop now?" I said angrily, but not moving. He had me at a place if I made the wrong move, off with my head. Even though I know he would not, it was a precaution I wasn't ready to risk.

"Little soldier, I left so you could live." He said quietly, "I knew you'd be okay."

I turned around to see his golden eyes, his arms still steady around me.

"You are suppose to be my mate. You are my purpose for surviving." I said looking into his golden eyes, "Why do you think I'd be okay without you? I know you are okay without me, maybe I am not your mate, maybe my atrophied heart is just reminding me what I am missing out on."

He growled angrily but held me steady, " Don't ever doubt that I am your mate again," he said in a quiet steady, yet deadly voice.

"You fucking left me," I pushed him into the piano right behind him. " You fucking left me."

A audience came to attend, as Jasper and I stood in a Mexican Stand off. His eyes was pitch black, and I know it was he could do to rane his emotions back.

Everyone stared in disbelief as him and I just stared at each other, waiting on each other's next move.

"You are my mate, act like it." He said with finality.

"Does a mate leave you with a heartless bitch that would kill you if you looked at her crooked." I said angrily, "Does a mate forget about you and starts fucking some pixie?"

He stepped closer to me, his induced fear had me scared stiff as I just stood there, almost waiting for him. The tug in my heart was just bleeding as he circled around me, eyeing me. The confrontation to this length, he was the Major, and I was fucked.

" Don't assume. Assuming makes an ass out of you and me." Major was in mode, "You are my mate, and you are staying until I deem that you are well enough to leave."

"If you wanna leave then, you can." Major said quietly," Until then, don't step foot out of this house."

He left in a flash. Everyone's eyes were on me, and I was at a loss of words. I just collapsed onto the floor, and I just wanted to die.