(A.N)Thanks to all my reviewers. It's really nice to have people review my story AGAIN. Lol. I really appreciate it. Im making a few corrections to the chapters while im at it so it will be even better for you guys. I would never want to disappoint you. But I must say that I am looking for a certain number of reviews before I post again. Ok then, on with the second chapter!

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters. Jk Rowling does. However, I own the plot :)

Chapter 2

Sometimes, Lily thought it best to just shrug off what was happening to her and cut it all out. If she faced it, she would probably be at St-Mungo's by now. She forced to think about all the other things outside of Hogwarts. Only one more year to go and she's out of here, no more James and the hurtful things he does to her, no more late-handed homework, no more repulsive glances her way. She would be free. She sighed and turned over in her bed. The only question now was what she would do in her life. With the marks she has now, she probably won't go anywhere. But when she thought about it, she really wanted to become an auror and avenge her parents. For that she needed good marks. Not only good marks but top of her class marks.

Hmm…James wanted to be an auror didn't he? Considering his outstanding grades, he would probably be the best auror in the Wizarding world.

Lily then touched her lips absent-mindedly. James Potter…even evoking his name in her mind gave her Goosebumps. How pathetic was that? The guy hated her guts and here she was thinking about him, shivering and trembling. But why was she so agitated? Was it of fear, shame or simply attraction? She thought it was all those combined. When she thinks about what happened the other night, she feels humiliation and despair. But not because of the reasons you'd think. She feels humiliated that even though he's doing all this to her, she still wants more of his kisses, his scent his embrace. She feels like just another one in the crowd who likes James Potter and who fell for his undeniable charm. She was like all the other girls…an idiot. But James didn't hate all the other girls; he hated HER, which made this dilemma she was in even worse. She didn't like feeling attracted to him, she really didn't. If there was a potion or a concoction that would get him out of her system, she'd be guzzling the stuff down. But unfortunately, there wasn't a cure. She was doomed to be like this at least until Hogwarts was over. And James Potter being her first kiss didn't help much.

And what was McGonagall's problem? Telling her that her tutor is James Potter isn't supposed to help her. How is she supposed to listen to what he's teaching her if she can't even look at him without thinking about what he did to her that night?

She sighed and went to her window. She needed to lose herself in the constellations in the sky or else she'd be moping about how horrible her life is. After a while of searching and staring, Lily fell asleep on the windowsill. She hoped that she wouldn't wake up late the next morning or else she'd really be screwed.

OooooOoooooooOO

James Potter lay awake in his bed with a blonde girl sprawled against his muscular frame. This was becoming too easy for him. Girls all fell for his charm no matter what. He knew they thought him to be a "bad boy" and frankly he thought the title to be overrated. Why would he be the "bad boy"? It wasn't his fault girls were swooning at his feet dying for his undivided attention. They were the ones that brought it upon themselves. His fuck em' and dump em' title was exaggerated also. He knew that deep down inside, the girls that all dated him were all after his amazing sex. Why else would they want him? He wasn't the nicest guy alive. So technically, they were using him! He knew that he was doing them a favor by dumping them because then, if they continued dating, he would be living a lie and her as well.

He also knew that he was never really interested in a girl because of her personality; he was interested because of the good sex she would bring him. So basically, they both wanted the same thing and when that need was fulfilled, there was no further reason why to keep dating.

He looked at Karen, the girl next to him. She was sleeping peacefully on his chest. She was beautiful. Too bad he would have to dump her in the morning. She was a virgin…well, ex-virgin he thought slyly looking down on her pale flesh. They always took it harder when they got dumped than the non-virgins because their first time was supposed to be with someone special and they thought he would change his habits for an innocent girl like them. That's where they were wrong.

Girls never had power over him; it was always the other way around. They were dumb and stupid to think that way. Did they actually think that James Potter could be handled? He smirked. He would like to see the day when that happened.

But James wouldn't be able to survive if Sirius wasn't there for him backing him up. He was the only one that understood what was going on in James Potter's head. Without him, James wouldn't know what to do. Sirius was his best mate since the tender age of 2. Their parents were friends and allies so naturally; they grew up together and became best friends. Remus was also James best mate but James had to admit that Remus didn't know him as well as Sirius. But that didn't mean that Remus wasn't a great friend to him. Hell, if he wasn't, James wouldn't have gone through all that trouble in order to become an Animagus. Peter also was a really good friend to him. Even though he admitted to himself that Peter was a bit strange, it wouldn't be "The Marauders" without him. After all, every group needed its weakness and Peter was exactly that.

James Potter looked at his watch, it was 5 a.m. He would be waking up in about two hours so he'd need his rest before the practice for the big Quidditch match against Slytherin this Saturday. After all, he was the captain of his team and they wouldn't be able to win without him. He felt Karen stir next to him and then she as awake.

"Hey Tiger..." She said looking up into his pale blue eyes.

He didn't answer her. He was trying to sleep for God's sake. Couldn't she shut up?

She reached a hand underneath the covers in an attempt to excite him but he took her hand away from his body and turned so his back faced her. She groaned in disappointment.

"What's wrong baby?" she asked him.

"Don't call me that!" He snapped at her. Baby was about the corniest name someone could call their partner.

Only real couples called themselves "baby" and he and Karen weren't a couple. Well not anymore anyway.

"But James…"

He didn't answer but then he felt her go under the covers. Now this was more like it, he thought smirking.

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Lily sat at the Gryffindor table alone. She woke up early and had nothing else to do. It was only 6h30 but Lily Evans didn't care much as she was chewing on a piece of bacon that was conjured on the plate in front of her.

Bacon's fattening she thought looking down at her stomach. It was as flat as the table and some of her ribs were sticking out. Maybe she should gain some weight. All her friends told her that she needed to gain a few pounds. Why did she need to? Was it because she was ugly the way she was? She sighed and looked down at her plate.

Why was she asking herself these meaningless questions? What she should be thinking about was that huge test she had in potions, second period. But in order to have a good grade, she was supposed to study and she didn't feel like it. She should have studied, she really should have she thought as she opened her Shakespeare novel.

All around her, people were actually starting to enter the dinning hall but she didn't much realize, she was too caught up in the book to even gaze up. She was engrossed in one of the lines… "To be or not to be, that is the question …"

Was Lily something? Was she someone to at least anyone? What was her purpose here?

But her thoughts were interrupted as Arabella sat in front of her with Alex. It seemed those two were inseparable now. Maybe Arabella found herself a new best friend…

"Hey Lily."

"Oh my gosh! Lily you're actually up!" Arabella squealed.

Since when did her friend squeal? Lily asked herself. Since when did her friend start sounding like a rat? Lily didn't remember. Maybe it was because Lily didn't know much of Arabella anymore, but she was still trying to deny that fact. Arabella was her friend for almost six years even though in the last two years, they haven't really been together much. Arabella was just there. As she looked at Arabella, Lily realized that she was kidding herself. She knew nothing about the girl in front of her and Arabella knew nothing about her. Lily looked down on her plate ashamed. Arabella and Alex were sharing inside jokes and laughing but Lily wasn't laughing at all. Lily felt rejected for the thousandth time in her life. She hated that feeling.

"Hi Lily" She heard Sirius say in back of her.

Suddenly, like that she started reddening as she recalled what happened the last time she saw him. How was she supposed to look at him in the eye now if he reminded her of something she was longing to forget?

"Hi." She mumbled under her breath.

Alex was now looking at her weirdly. She had the biggest crush on Sirius and he hadn't said hi to her. He said hi to Lily and that was making her furious with envy.

How could Sirius like that bitch? Alex thought. And why wasn't he saying hi to HER? Once Alex saw Lily blushing, she assumed something. Something completely false. She thought Lily liked Sirius when in truth, Lily couldn't care less.

"So Lily, what did you do with the money?" Sirius asked her grinning.

Lily looked up at him appalled. How dare he bring up what happened the other night in front of her friends.

"Leave me alone." She said.

Sirius laughed then left to join James that had just entered the hall followed by Karen who had obviously cried a lot. That was a sign that James Potter had dumped the poor girl. Lily saw all Karen's friends rush to her and tell her that James wasn't even worth it, but Lily saw Karen's friend wink at James. How pathetic. Lily rather not have any friends than have friends that are as bitchy as that.

The rest of Lily's meal was eaten in silence.

"Are you guys ready to go?" Lily asked once her meal was finished.

They both looked t each-other.

"No, we'll meet you there, ok?" Arabella reasoned.

Lily nodded and left to go towards her first class.

Once she was gone, Alex looked furious.

"What is her problem?" She almost yelled.

"What do you mean?"

"She's a prostitute Arabella. Don't you get it?"

"No…" Arabella looked confused.

"I mean, Sirius just asked her what she did with the money and do you ever wonder why Lily always comes in late every night? She's out there fucking guys!"

Arabella didn't know what to think of that. Alex had a point but then again Arabella didn't think that Lily would be capable of such a thing. But then again, she barely knew Lily anymore.

"That girl is seriously fucked up." Alex squealed.

Arabella nodded in agreement.

OoooooooooooooO

Lily sat at her usual place in potions and Remus decided to sit next to her this time.

"Hi." He said smiling weakly.

Lily looked at him. He looked so tired and weak. What was wrong with him?

"Hi."

"Do you mind if I sit next to you in class?" He asked.

She was stunned. Why would one of the Marauder's sit next to her? Didn't they all hate her? Maybe this was one of their silly pranks made to embarrass her once again. But when she looked into Remus' eyes, she saw nothing but sincerity. At the moment, she didn't think him capable of hurting her in the way that James or Sirius hurt her.

"Sure," she answered smiling sadly back at him. "Why not?"

He gave her a warm smile then that made her feel as if he was going to be one of her really good friends.

The professor entered the class a couple minutes later equipped with parchments that Lily recognized to be the homework she handed in last week. Her heart was pumping in her chest; she had to have a good mark or she would fail her term. She didn't think she would be able to take any other failures in her life.

"Alright class, silence!" He asked sharply.

The class fell silent except for a couple Gryffondors who were snickering.

"I said SILENCE!" he almost yelled.

The Gryffondors jumped and silenced.

The teacher smiled to himself as he started handing back the homework.

"I must say that the class average was very low. You didn't understand the true concept of the essay."

He was looking straight at Lily. At that moment she knew that she had failed miserably. She was finished, doomed. She was going to get out of the best wizarding school with the worst marks of her grade. Why was she put in Gryffondor if she had no honor? It had vaporized a long time ago. A very long time ago…

Lily saw James smile as he got his grade back. He probably got an A+ or something. As the teacher pronounced her name she got up and went to retrieve her homework assuming the worst. She got her paper and rushed to her seat without even looking at her mark. She didn't want to know. She just didn't want to feel discouraged again. She saw the teacher raise an eyebrow at her and she looked down to avoid his gaze.

"How much did you get?" Remus asked her as she installed herself next to him.

"I don't know," she answered dismissing him. "I didn't look at it."

Remus looked at her weirdly.

"Why not?"

"I probably failed and I don't want to know how bad it was."

"If it makes you feel any better, I got a C."

Lily managed a weak smile. Actually, it made her feel even worse but she wouldn't tell Remus that. If she had gotten a C she would have jumped of joy. He seemed to think C was a very bad grade.

The rest of the first period was a blur to Lily. She almost fell asleep again. She never knew why she was this tired all the time.

During the break in between periods, James caught up with Remus at Lily's desk and he looked down on her with his nostrils flared, as if he smelled something bad under his nose. Lily was sure that "smell" was her.

"Remus, what are you doing with Evans?"

"She's my partner for potions this term."

"Evan's your partner?" He said and started laughing.

Lily looked at Remus weirdly. He didn't even ask her to be his partner. What was he playing at? Did he really want to be her partner?

Remus rolled his eyes at James.

"James, I don't think that's your problem. I'm the one who decided to be with her."

Lily caught a glint in James eye. That was an anger sign with James. She didn't want James and Remus to be mad at each-other for something as unimportant as her. James would hate her even more.

"Actually Remus…" She started but James cut her.

"Who asked you to talk Evans?" He snapped.

She started blushing furiously and looked down at her shoes.

"Hello? I'm talking to you."

She looked away from him and answered weakly:

"No one. No one asked me to talk."

James snorted at this.

"Are you sure you want to be with this shit." He said pointing to her.

"James, leave her alone already." He asked his best friend.

Remus has never seen James like this before. He looked, well betrayed. Remus regretted now to have defended Lily. She couldn't even defend herself. He really pitied her. No one was there for her and she looked so demolished. For some unknown reason, Remus wanted to know why she was like that. What made her become this way? In her first years at Hogwarts, she was a cheery girl and had the top marks of her class. She was sociable and Remus even had a crush on her…But now, Lily seemed to have lost so much. Her eyes were always empty, devoid of all emotion. When you did see something in her eyes, it would be sadness or regret. Remus could barely even imagine Lily the way she used to be.

Sitting there with her hair covering her eyes and James laughing at her, he couldn't believe it. Back then, if James would have insulted her, she would just shrug it off and answer something witty and comical. But now, Remus was looking at her and she even seemed to agree with him. She had nothing to say or answer against him.

What in the hell had happened to Lily Evans? He was determined to find out.

Remus got up.

"James, that's enough please!" he said holding out his hands.

James laughed some more, then shrugged and left towards Sirius who was looking at the scene with a smirk hanging from his lips.

Remus put his hand on Lily shoulders and he felt them shake. She was crying. Remus sighed and let her go. He knew that Lily wouldn't have liked it if he would have tried to consol her so he let her be.

After a while, Lily grabbed her bags and headed towards the door. She couldn't take this any longer. She left towards her room.

What she didn't know was that a paper had slipped through her bag and fell onto the floor. Remus hurried to pick it up…it was her potions essay. She had an A+.

OoooooooooooooO

James hurried down the hall after her. The fucking professor had asked him to go fetch her. Why didn't he ask someone else? Someone who actually cared? But, oops, he forgot, no one cared about Lily Evans.

He swore as he finally found her rounding a hall and going up the moving staircases. He had a nice view of her ass in her underwear. It was hot as hell.

He caught up with her as she was running towards her dorm and grabbed her elbow.

Her felt her jump of surprise and smirked inwardly. What a pathetic girl!

As Lily turned, she saw James peering down at her. Why had he come after her? Did he care what happened to her?

"Don't make yourself any ideas Evans. The professor sent me."

"Oh."

"You're coming with me. We're going back to class."

Lily looked up at him and shook her head.

"I don't want to go back."

He sighed loudly.

"Stop being a baby and follow me," he said shoving her in front of him. "I don't have time for this shit Evans."

Lily moaned in pain as she felt a strong pressure on her arm. He was holding her very tightly. She was sure that he would leave her a bruise. Why was he so abusive with her? He wasn't like that with the other girls.

"Ouch, you're hurting me."

"Tough luck! If you wouldn't have left the potions class, I wouldn't be here with you and I wouldn't be hurting you right now. So move!" he said almost yelling his last word.

Lily looked at his face and obeyed. He looked ready to kill her right now and she didn't want to die. She started walking in front of him aware of his eyes following her every movement. James scared her to no end but at the same time, he intrigued her so much. She was trembling now. Was it of fear? She didn't think so. Maybe it was of awareness of him so close to her, watching her.

She frowned as she was standing in front of the potions classroom door. She really didn't feel like being the center of attention right now. She didn't want eyes turning towards her asking questions. But with James in back of her, she had no choice. As she was standing in front of the door, she was thinking about everyone's reaction when she'd enter the class again. She was supposed to make a swift getaway but it ended up as a pathetic attempt to flee a class. The teacher must really hate her now. First off, she was failing his class and she wanted to ditch them too.

Her heart was pounding and her hand was trembling as she reached for the door handle. Her hand froze on it. She couldn't move it.

She heard James sigh in back of her.

"Why were you put in Gryffondor Evans?"

She didn't answer.

"Why is it that you can never answer my questions?"

She looked down at herself ashamed. She couldn't do anything right. He was right. She didn't belong in Hufflepuff: she didn't have any friends. She didn't belong in Ravenclaw, she was too dumb. She didn't belong in Slytherin because she never pursued her goals. And she didn't belong in Gryffondor either, she was a coward. Plain and simple.

She felt the tears well up in her eyes. That was the second time today. She truly was fucked up. But only James made her feel this way. Only he was prone to making her cry. He was the one that made her realize that she belonged no where. She was a reject.

"What do you want from me?" she asked her voice shaking.

James saw her shoulders shaking and he knew she was crying. That girl always cried. He had to teach her a lesson. He admired the fact that she tried to keep her voice in check while she was talking to him because he knew that she felt all her insides rip with emotion.

"What can I possibly want from you? You don't have anything."

Ouch, that had to hurt, James thought smirking.

It definitely did. Lily felt like if her heart had just been ripped out and cut into pieces in front of her eyes. She had a huge lump in her throat and could barely breathe. It hurt so much!

She let go of the handle of the door and turned around to run away from him. As he watched her run down the hall, he smirked and entered the classroom.

Everyone was watching him.

"So," the teacher started "Any luck?"

James smiled to himself and pretended to be truly sorry of the fact that he hadn't found Lily.

"No sir," James said "I looked everywhere but I couldn't find her. Maybe she's at the medical wing."

The teacher nodded.

"Thank you James."

"It was my pleasure." He said while a slow and easy smile was playing over his lips.