FREEBATCH FIC

Benedicts perspective.

What. The. Fuck.

I try to shake what just happened off but the butterflies in my stomach won't go away. "Ben? Benedict?" Moffat says, touching my shoulder softly. I look up at him but I feel dizzy and he blurs in and out of my focus. "Huh? Yeah, sorry. I should go too. Thanks Moffat." I grab the script from him and wave my goodbyes as I run out the door as quickly as possible. As I swing open the door the blinding light comes pouring through. I wait until my eyes adjust before stepping out into the pouring rain.

I should have brought my umbrella. Oh my God, calm down Ben. You're fine. It was just a stage kiss... A really good stage kiss.

Oh shit.

I pull my jacket up over my script and start walking towards my car. It was raining pretty hard but I was too mixed up to care. I've had feelings for men before but nothing like this.

Maybe Sofie was right...

I'm deep in thought when I feel someone touch my arm. "Ben? Hey, slow down. Where are you rushing off to?" Damnit. I turn around. "Hey Martin. Sorry I, uh, need to get home." He still had his hand on my arm and I couldn't breathe. He stepped a little closer and smiled weakly. "Yeah, okay. I just-" Shit. Don't pull away. "Just what?" I say a little more than confused. I moved my eyes down to his lips and watched his words form. "I uh, we need to talk." He said blatantly. I looked back up at his eyes and swallowed. "Ye-yeah."

God Ben, stutter a little bit more why don't you?

He let go of my shoulder and let his arm fall to his side. Thunder clapped from afar and the rain poured harder. I stood up straighter and cleared my throat. "Yeah. Okay, what about?" I say ducking under a nearby awning.

Play dumb. Maybe it's nothing. Maybe he felt nothing between us. And maybe he did. Just. Play. Dumb.

He followed behind me and wrapped his coat around him tighter. "You know. Just talk. I know you have to get home but do you wanna grab a coffee sometime?" I put my coat collar down and looked at him. The rain was pouring but still the sun was out, shining down onto the wet pavement. The light surrounded his body as he spoke. "You know just as friends." He laughed uncomfortably. Oh... So he really didn't make anything out of the kiss. I didn't think that would sting so badly. "Yeah, of course." I smiled and winked, trying to lighten the mood. And trying to let myself know I would be okay. He smiled. "Tomorrow? After Shooting?" I looked at him and nodded.

"Tomorrow."