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Lucius couldn't help but watch Severus slowly walking past him and towards his seat. The boy had changed, that was for sure. But what the hell had happened since he had left Hogwarts almost five years ago? What he actually remembered about Severus was that he was silent and highly intelligent, not that much into people but definitely not this introvert and sad than he was now. Silently he made his way back to the front of the class.

With his back turned to the students for a while he didn't see all those evilly glistening gazes towards Severus, that foot which almost made Severus fall to the floor, that grin which decorated James Potter's face when he saw Severus' face. When he turned to look at them everything was back to normal.

"As I said before Mr Snape arrived, turn to page 62 and start reading. It isn't likely that you would actually come across these curses since the Ministry decided that they were illegal in 1916. However, even if they're rare their existence hasn't totally vanished from the wizarding world. As it seems, dark times lie ahead... And it doesn't hurt you to know about these", Lucius said, watching Severus from the corner of his eye. His black hair was like a curtain covering his face from the world, his black eyes still seemed to water a bit but it was clear that the boy fought his tears back. Lucius sighed inwardly; everything wasn't okay but he wasn't sure if Severus would actually speak to him.

Meanwhile Severus couldn't concentrate on his book, not when he felt someone kick his chair a bit. He didn't even bother to turn his head to look who did it. It was Sirius Black who entertained himself by making studying in lessons almost impossible to him. Somehow he guessed that Lucius hadn't noticed. No one had before so why he then?

The memories, sharp as daggers, triggered into his mind too easily. The time when he had fought with Potter in his second year at Hogwarts and how he had found himself from the medical wing after that. He hadn't told madam Pomfrey the real reason; why should he? It wasn't like anyone would have come to his rescue before the incident so why someone would listen to him now? And the time when he was almost killed by Lupin... No, the werewolf he had turned into. Lupin was that shy guy, the intelligent and silent one. He couldn't hurt a fly. Anyway, Severus had seen his beast side and it was a wonder that he had survived. Once again everybody just shouted at him and told him to be more careful. And, once again, James Potter was the hero who had saved him from the tragic fate.

The fights, the name-calling, stuff like that was still going on but everyone seemed to be deaf for it. Not even his head of House, potions master Slughorn, noticed anything. And, like everybody knew, Severus didn't tell if something was on his mind. He didn't bother since nobody would help him after all. When he was a child he had searched some comfort from his parents but they only concentrated on their fights – which were usually Severus' fault since he was a wizard and his father just couldn't accept it. The memory made itself known.

"You bitch! I didn't raise your son to be a damn freak!"

"Tobias! He is your son too!"

"Hah! That freak of nature!? Never! Look at him; he isn't even attractive in any way so he can't even get a wife, at least not one who actually has money and power! He was the greatest mistake of my life! You hear me!? THE GREATEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE!"

"Tobias, please - "

SLAP.

Severus had seen his parents fight many times before this but none of those times had been this bad. Of course he had heard that he was a freak, of course Tobias Snape had name-called his wife but never before had he slapped him. Severus curled up into the corner, rocking himself back and forth like he tried to comfort himself. Nobody else would do that. The neighbours didn't care; they were used to the shouting and fighting. He felt a single tear escape from the corner of his eye.

Silently he raised his gaze to the ceiling and whispered:

"God... If you are there, do everyone a favor and kill me already."

But something greater was against him since it had been two years of that fight and he was still alive – or as alive as one could be if he was going through a living Hell. He had searched comfort from Hogwarts, he had wanted to feel safe but everything just somehow turned out to be a damned nightmare. A nightmare caused by the Marauders. Of course he also got owls from his mother but they didn't do anything to make him feel better. Almost every letter ended in words "If you don't hear about me in four days, do me a favor: find your father and get your revenge". His mother actually waited for his... Father to kill her. Even though she had accepted his fate, Severus just couldn't. He feared that that day would actually come, that his mother Eileen Snape nee Prince would be found dead from Spinner's End, the asshole of the world. Then he would be truly alone without anyone to trust. He didn't want his mind to swallow him into the dark cradle called pitying himself but sometimes he couldn't help but desperately cry into his pillow in the dead of night and wonder why him all of people had deserved this.

Though it might have something to do his attitude; he also knew that Black didn't have the loveliest parents in the world (at least not according to his little brother Regulus) but he had just walked out. Well, at least he had had a chance to do so – he actually wanted his mother dead so he didn't have to be afraid of it.

Lucius' voice almost made him fall out of chair. "For Friday's lesson I'd like you to write me a twenty inches long essay about these curses and why they are considered illegal. You will find some extra information from the library – if you decide to go there and find some information, you will need a special permission from me but that won't be the problem. Class dismissed" the blond said in a pretty loud voice.

Severus started to pack his things, almost hoping that he would be lucky enough to escape from the classroom before Lucius would remember that he would like to speak to him. That just didn't happen; when Severus rose from his chair and started to make his way towards the door of the classroom he heard Lucius' voice, much softer and full of concern.

"Severus... Would you please come here? You were late from my class and now, as your teacher and your friend, I would like to know the reason."

A/N: Soooo, another chapter is here! I forgot to say in the last author note that I will update this one once a week. I have no idea how many chapters there will be but I plan to work on this at least for a few months.

Also thank you for the favs and follows! ^_^ They really made my day since I was pretty nervous when I published the first chapter... ^^" By the way, I'm sorry about all the grammar errors etc but even though my English is pretty fluent my maternal language is Finnish and sometimes I just start to translate things from one language to another and then it goes all wrong _

I will update this fic again in the next week! I've been writing a one-shot too; it's not about this pairing but anyway. I don't know when I will publish it since it seems to turn out to be pretty long and I'm not even in the halfway of it yet... xP

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