What if? Chapter 1
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Pan-chan) hello I'm back I know it was a longer wait than I said so sorry about that but, oh well this is probably only going to be a mini chapter story maybe only three chapters. Yes there will be a slight lemon in this story but in later chapters not this one. So if you don't like lemons you can still read, I'll just warn you before starting the lemon. You won't miss any thing of importance in the story if you skip over it.
Pan-chan) I do not own Naruto or the movie I'm basing this story on.
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Stretching her back Sakura opened her eyes and looked out the window of her apartment at the blue sky and the sun as it rose above the trees. Hitting the alarm that had woken her up she rolled onto her side, draping her arm over the body lying by her. Bringing her other hand up she ran her fingers through the spiky silver hair gaining a moan from the Jounin next to her.
"Kakashi its time to get up." Sakura said still running her fingers through his silvery locks.
"Mmm, Sakura I don't want to get up." he groaned rolling onto his back so the pinkett was now lying on his chest, giving her a small smile. God how Sakura loved his smile, it had taken her months to get him to show her his face once they stared going out, she never tried to take it off. Which had surprised even her, she was not one to wait for things especially things she wanted, after six months of dating, Kakashi finally showed his face to Sakura. When he did she thought she would faint, his pale skin was unmarred with the exception of the vertical scar over his left eye. Looking in his eyes or at least his right eye she smiled then leaned down and kissed him then sat up and looked at the clock again. Following her gaze Kakashi's eyes fell on the glowing red numbers that were telling him to get his ass out of bed. Sitting up he swung his feet to the floor and watched as Sakura stood up and pointed at him and smiling.
"You, stay right there I have something for you." she purred as she walked from the room, walking back in she was wearing a jacket that reached to her mid thigh.
"Hum a jacket, it's nice." he said looking at her.
"Not just a jacket you also get what's in the jacket." she said opening it to reveal her wearing a red lacy bra and panties.
"I like the latter present better." he said standing and grabbing her by her waist, pulling her to him.
"Ahah not now you have to go to your meeting and I have to go to practice then the hospital." Sakura said peaking him on the cheek and moving from his arms.
"Haaa you're right, better go Lady Tsunade said if I was late this time she'd have my head." he said walking toward the bathroom and Sakura followed.
"Well?" she said as he turned to look at her.
"Well what?"
"The wedding you know, Hinata and Gaara's we have to go to Suna next week I asked you yesterday." Sakura said a disappointed look on her face.
"Sakura I can't I have the mission to rain next week." he said looking down at her.
"You're not coming are you?" She asked looking at him her eyes sad.
"I'm sorry Sakura but, no." he said
"Fine." she said walking out of the bathroom.
Going to the kitchen Sakura fed her stray cat and then stared making breakfast after she started the coffee she grabbed some peppers and diced them. As she was chopping them Kakashi walked in, looking up from cutting the vegetables she gave a small smile looking away from the knife caused her to cut her finger. Dropping the knife she put her finger in her mouth to stop the bleeding, and then Kakashi was standing in front of her taking her finger from her mouth.
"Are you okay Sakura?" he asked as her hand glowed green and the cut healed itself, nodding her head she grabbed two plates and set them.
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"So, what is this meeting about or can you not tell me" Sakura asked the copy nin as they walked down the streets of Konoha.
"It's about things Sakura." he said avoiding her question but answering her all the same she hated when he did that because she couldn't ask him again without seeming too pushy.
"So this is where we part." Sakura said smiling.
"Right, oh tonight at seven don't forget I got reservations at Sukie's." he said and Sakura's smile fell from her face and a look of utter confusion and pain took its place.
"Are you kidding me, at seven Kakashi are you forgetting something?" she asked looking at him annoyance in her eyes.
"I, umm-"
"Kakashi my concert I've only reminded you almost ten times in the past month and I've been practiced for the past three years, I can't believe you forgot!" the pink haired woman stated looking at his masked face.
"No, it's your graduation concert I didn't forget I'll be there, seven." he said leaning in to kiss her through his mask then he turned and walked down the street.
"Yeah, Bye." Sakura said then she screamed when water was poured onto her head looking up she saw Konahamaru standing on a roof with a bucket of water; he was grinning down at her.
"KONAHAMAU YOU BRAT!" she shouted.
"Sakura are you alright?" Kakashi asked looking at the soaked Kunoichi.
"Yeah, I'm fine." she said then she jumped onto the roof and started chasing the newest Genin prankster of Konoha. Finally after catching and thumping the boy on his head a few times Sakura went to help her childhood friend, Ino at the Yamanaka's family flower shop.
Walking in the door Sakura saw Ino arranging some flowers, hearing the bell on the door chime the blonde woman looked over her shoulder. Seeing her friend dripping wet Ino laughed then took Sakura to get her some clothes, once Sakura was dry and re-clothed she walked back into the flower shop. Stepping into the shop she watched as Ino talked to Shikamaru and Choji who were two of the people on her ANBU squad, yes Haruno, Sakura was an ANBU captain. Shikamaru was her second in command as well as her tactical expert and the other two on her squad were Choji and Neji. She became ANBU two years ago when she was 18, along with Neji who was 19, after Naruto left with Jiraiya to train some more, after all the future Hokage of the village had to be strong. That's right Sakura's blonde overly happy, hard headed and stubborn friend was going to become the new Hokage of the hidden leaf village, after Hinata and Gaara's wedding, of course.
Shikamaru had become ANBU not long after Sakura, after Tsunade had insisted with the intent of making him work at the academy if he didn't at least try afterword Shikamaru had taken the test, also become ANBU, passing it the first time when it took Sakura twice. Finally there was Choji the newest ANBU recruit, he had only taken the test six months ago and was a replacement for Sai who had been hurt on the last mission Sakura's team had been sent on. Sai had been in the hospital for three days from his injuries his arm had been broken in several places and a few ribs had been cracked. When Neji carried him into the hospital Shizune ran to get Tsunade, as the fifth tended to Sai's battered body Shizune healed the rest of Sakura's team including the pinkett herself. Thinking she should go see the ink user later on she walked into the shop pulling the three former members of team ten from their conversation.
"Hello Sakura." Choji said smiling at her.
"Hi Choji, Shikamaru what are you guys up to?" she asked looking at the two men who had been best friends before they could walk.
"We came to see if Ino could come get some barbecue with us." Choji said looking at the pinkett who glanced at the blonde woman untying her apron.
"Well come on Sakura you can come too, Choji's paying for it, we haven't done anything together for awhile." Ino said placing her apron on the counter and turning to look at her pink haired friend.
"Really, but I can't stay long I have my Violin practice, you guys are coming to my concert tonight right?" she asked looking at the others in front of her.
"Of course Billboard I wouldn't miss it for anything." Ino said making Sakura cringe at the childhood insult that didn't fit her any more. Her face had grown into her abnormally large forehead, it was no longer that of a child's' face it was defined by strong cheek bones. The pale skin of her face seemed to glow giving her an air of innocents and a weakness about her but anyone who knew the pink haired Kunoichi could vouch that she was defiantly not weak. Her body had changed for the better too she no longer had the straight lanky body of a pre-teen girl she now had the body of a woman. Her hips curved and her breasts were bigger that fact alone made her happy she went from being a flat chested little girl to a somewhat busty woman.
"Thanks Ino-pig." She said smiling at her friend as they walked from the shop and Ino locked the doors and they started to the barbecue stand.
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"Kakashi you're…not late… what the hell, why are you here early?" Tsunade asked in utter surprise as the scarecrow ninja stood in front of her desk smiling under his mask.
"Sakura woke me up early because she had something's to do." he said looking at the blonde woman in front of him.
"Huh, so Sakura is living with you now, is she?" the Hokage asked a hint of a threatening edge in her voice daring the Jounin to say something about her student.
"Heh, of course not I was staying at her apartment." he said.
"Oh really." Tsunade said in a deathly calm voice as she stared at the man in front of her, who took a small step back.
"Heh calm down Lady Tsunade." Kakashi said holding his hands in front of him wearily as he backed away, the door to the Hokage's office opened and a man with brown hair and a senbon in his mouth walked in.
"Ha Genma I'm glad to see you." Kakashi said thanking any kind of god that was listening.
"Hum alright." Genma said walking into the room.
"Now we only have to wait for Gai then we can begin." Tsunade said tapping her fingers on her desk and looking at the two Jounin in front of her.
"So Kakashi are you treating everyone's favorite medic right?" Genma asked the scarecrow nin, smiling around the senbon in his mouth.
"I try to Genma." he said getting a look from Tsunade but luckily for Kakashi, Gai decided to bust through the double doors of the Hokage's office.
"I am here now so we may begin the briefing." the spandex wearing man said rather loudly walking up beside the other two Jounin in the room.
"Right, you all three know the reason for this mission, there have been reports that a Rain village is planning an all out attack on Konoha. This would strain the streached peace we have with them now, so you three are to go and scout out the perimeters of Konoha then go gather information on these rumors. I am giving you until next week to formulate a plan I want you back here this day next week understood?" she said folding her hands on the desk in front of her.
"Yes, Hokage Sama." all three men said in unison.
"Good your dismissed now." she Tsunade said waving them away before shouting for Shizune causing a woman with brown hair and carrying a little pig to run in to the room.
When the three men were outside the Hokage tower Genma sighed then looked at the other two men "So Asuma is meeting me at a bar close by do you two want to tag along?" he asked the scarecrow and Gai.
"Sure I have some time before I have to met Sakura for her concert." Kakashi said looking at the watch Sakura had given him after he kept showing up late for all of their dates, it helped a little he wasn't as late.
"Yes, my youthful friends I too will go with you." Gai said punching his fist into the air and following the two less excited Jounin toward the bar.
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Thank you guys for inviting me to come with you and thanks for paying Choji." Sakura said as she stood from the table in the restaurant smiling at her three friends.
"No problem Sakura." Choji said smiling back at her.
"So you're going to go practice then you're going to the hospital?" Ino asked looking at her pink haired friend.
"Yeah then I have to go home change and be at the concert hall at 6:30 to set up." she said as she moved her shoulder length hair out of her face.
"Alright see ya Sakura, you better not mess up at your concert I'm not coming to see you botch it." Ino said smiling at the other girl.
"I'm coming too Sakura, so is Shikamaru." Choji said hitting his friends back knocking him forward a bit.
"Thanks guys, well I'll see you then." she said walking out of the restaurant and down the street toward the concert hall.
"Sakura." hearing her name Sakura turned her head to see a woman with lavender eyes and bluish colored hair waving at her and jogging in her direction.
"Hinata what are you doing here?" Sakura asked as she hugged the other woman, who was supposed to be in Suna preparing for her wedding.
"Well I heard about your concert from Temari so I talked Gaara into letting me come and see it." she said smiling at the pink haired women.
"I'm so glad he let you come Hinata." she said hugging the women again.
"I would have come even if he had said no." Hinata said smiling a little at the shocked look on Sakura's face.
"Well, well Hinata you're not the shy, timid girl who left here two years ago are you?" Sakura said smiling at the fact that Hinata had gotten more confident after leaving Konoha to live in Suna.
"No, I guess not I speak my mind more now and I don't stutter either." she said as she and Sakura walked down the streets of Konoha toward the concert hall.
"Did you come here alone?" Sakura asked looking over at Hinata.
"No, she didn't." Looking above them Sakura smiled as the Kazakage stood on a roof looking down at them a small smirk on his face, jumping down he landed in front of Hinata.
"You disappeared on me Hinata you're getting better at that." he said a hint of laughter in his voice.
"Well I wanted to find Sakura and you were talking to the Hokage and I was getting bored." she said wrinkling her nose.
"Hn, Sakura I hear you are playing a concert tonight." Gaara said wrapping his arm around Hinata's waist and pulling her closer to his side.
"Yeah I am, are you coming too Gaara? I know that Hinata is." she said looking at the sand user and she hoped he would come too.
"Yes, Hinata wants me to attend your concert with her so I will be there." he said.
"Sakura I'm guessing you have to go and practice now?" Hinata said moving from Gaara's grip to hug Sakura again "Also I want to find Kiba and Shino so I'll see you at seven." Hinata said before disappearing in a puff of white smoke.
"Hinata, I should have never shown her that, good bye Sakura I will see you at your concert." Gaara said and he was gone in a swirl of sand.
'Well I'm glad Hinata found her confidence and she has change Gaara for the better too.' the Kunoichi thought as she walked down the street.
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"Hey you're here finally." Asuma said as Gai, Genma and Kakashi walked into the bar and over to the other Jounin sitting at the bar.
"Sorry we're late the meeting was a bit longer than we thought it would be." Genma said as he sat at the bar and ordered his drink.
"So how are you and Sakura really doing Kakashi?" Genma asked looking at the copy nin sitting next to him.
"To tell you the truth I don't know, I love Sakura really but we have no time for anything I mean with her being a medic and in ANBU and me being back to doing my Jounin missions." he said looking at the drink in front of him then sighing.
"She wants me to go with her to Suna for the Kazakage's wedding but it's during the mission next week and I can't get out of it and I completely forgot about her concert tonight." he said running his hand through his hair.
"Don't you worry Kakashi if you really love her you'll make it trust me." Asuma said lighting the cigarette in his mouth and tucking the lighter back into the pocket of his Jounin vest.
"I thought you were going to stop smoking, you know because of the baby and Kurenai." Gai said looking at the smoking shinobi who smiled.
"Yeah I guess you're right." he said putting the cigarette out in an ashtray on the counter "Are you going to her concert tonight Kakashi, Kurenai's dragging me with her." Asuma said picking up his drink.
"Yeah I'm going and then I'm taking her out to dinner." he said then saw Genma taking to one of the waitresses.
"Hey cutie what time do you get off we could go have some fun?" he asked the brown haired women.
"Oh fuck off." she said before walking away causing the others to start laughing. Just then the cup sitting beside Kakashi shattered; looking at it he saw a pool ball setting it the shards of glass.
"Sorry about that." a man with orange hair said grabbing the ball and going back to the pool table.
"You okay Kakashi?" Gai asked looking at his rival.
"Yeah I'm fine but I have to go I got some things to do before Sakura's concert." he said as he walked from the bar and down the street.
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(Six-thirty p.m)
Walking out of the Hokage tower Kakashi walked down the street looking at the ground thinking about him and Sakura as he walked he blocked out everything else. Looking up he ran into someone, knocking them down, looking at the older man sitting on the ground Kakashi helped him to his feet and to a bench.
"I'm sorry sir, are you okay, I wasn't paying attention to where I was going." Kakashi said sitting beside the man who looked up at him.
"It's okay son you were thinking about you love life weren't you?" the old man said looking at Kakashi with gray eyes.
"How did you know that?" he asked looking at the old man sitting next to him.
"I'm an old man boy, I've seen many things in my life and a heavy heart is not the first one I've seen." he said standing with Kakashi's help and he started down the street with the Jounin following him.
"So what is the trouble with you and your love?" he asked.
"Nothing, I don't feel like talking about it." he said looking at the old man who sighed.
"Right, that's great bottle it up, it's sure to fix itself sooner or later right young man?" the elderly man said looking at the man next to him.
"… Well, I can't make her happy no matter what I do." he said running his hand through his hair and looking up at the darkening sky. "How can you love someone with all your heart but not know 'how' to love them I can't seem to figure it out." he said dropping his hand to his side.
"So you do love her?" the old man asked flatly.
"Yes, of course, I love her with my whole being." Kakashi said as they continued down the street to where, well the Jounin didn't know but he kept following the old man.
"Well that's all that matters right boy?" he asked looking at the Jounin to his left.
"She's going to Suna next week and she wants me to go with her, but I can't I have something else to do." he said shoving his hands in his pockets content that the elderly man could now walk without falling over.
"What if she never came back?" the man asked making Kakashi look over at him.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean what if she goes to Suna and you never see her again, could you live with that boy?" he asked.
"No…no, I couldn't live with that." he said looking at the ground not wanting to think of the idea of never having Sakura with him.
"Well you know what to do then, appreciate her and the time you have with her, just love her." the old man said looking over at Kakashi as he stopped.
"Where are we?" Kakashi asked looking at the old man beside him.
"You can't meet you love empty-handed now can you?" the man said pointing at the Yamanaka flower shop, smiling under his mask Kakashi walked into the flower shop and the old man left. Walking out with a bouquet of lilies he made his way to the concert hall and found his set next to Asuma and the others.
"Kakashi you're late." Ino hissed looking back at him from her set.
"Sorry I got distracted." he whispered holding up the flowers, rolling her eyes Ino went back to watching and listening to the concert.
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"Sakura!" Ino shouted running to her friend and crushing her in a hug. "You were so good I almost cried." she said releasing the pink haired woman from her grip.
"Thanks Ino." Sakura said smiling as the rest of her friends gathered around her praising her on her playing.
"Yeah, you were really good Sakura-chan." hearing this Sakura spun around at a break neck speed to see a man with wild spiky blond hair wearing white ninja pants and a black long sleeved shirt and a black Konoha headband on his forehead. Smiling Sakura tackled the blonde in a hug picking him up off the floor a few inches before setting him down and letting go.
"Naruto I missed you, I thought you were out training with Jiraiya?" Sakura said looking at her blonde friend who smiled at her.
"Sakura-chan I would never miss your concert, you've been practicing for years now so I came to watch you play, besides pervy sage wanted to come back for something anyways." he said smiling then he saw Gaara and Hinata. "Hey Gaara Hinata-chan I didn't think I'd see you guys till your wedding." he said walking over to them and started talking about what he should get them for a wedding gift.
"Sakura." turning she was met with a bouquet of lilies, her favorite flowers held by the man she loved. "These are for you so are you ready to go?" he asked looking at her.
"Um, yeah I guess." she said.
"Sakura-sensei!"
"Oh, Rei. Hello." Sakura said hugging the boy in front of her, who was no more than six. "I'm glad you made it." she said letting go of him.
"Yeah, I wouldn't miss it for anything." he said "I love Sakura-sensei if only I was older." he said making the older ninja laugh. "This is for you." he said handing her a bracelet made of shells. "I made it when my dad took me to Kirigakure." he said smiling at her as Sakura put it on.
"Sakura we should go." Kakashi said quietly.
"Oh um well I-"
"It's okay we need to be going anyways." Rei's father said as he walked away with his son beside him.
"Well I guess we can catch up later." Sakura said turning to her friends who nodded in agreement and she and Kakashi walked out of the concert hall.
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"So Sakura what's been going on lately?" Kakashi asked sitting across the table from her in the restaurant.
"Oh, Ino has an exhibit tomorrow its some big gallery I stopped by to see it before going to the hospital-"
"Sounds fun." Kakashi said cutting her off, sighing softly Sakura looked behind her and smiled seeing a few couples dancing.
"Want to dance?" she asked smiling at him.
"Sakura you know I don't dance." he said and her face filled with sadness.
"So where did you go after your meeting today?" she asked hoping he had changed his mind and would to go to Suna with her now.
"Spent the rest of the day walking around the village thinking." he said looking at her.
"Oh about what?" she asked looking at him.
"About us and whether or not we're going to make it." he said and Sakura looked as if she had been smacked across the face seeing this Kakashi add. "No, I didn't mean it that way Sakura but you have to admit our morning wasn't all that great and well…I bumped into this old man and we talked." he said looking at her.
"An old man? You talked to-" Sakura started but was cut off.
"It sounds weird I know but it was good, he helped me realize that even though we have our own problems, we share a lot of them, too. We enjoy each other, and I should appreciate that, despite this awful day I adore you Sakura." Kakashi said looking at her. "I guess what I'm saying is that I want to solider on Sakura." he said.
"Well good for you Kakashi but I don't want to "solider on" I've been requested to play in the most amazing of places but I would give that all up and stay in Konoha for you, for us in a heartbeat. If I thought that we were really special if we were meant to be together." Sakura said her eyes growing moist as she looked at the Jounin across from her.
"We are." he said.
"Really, you never tell me how you feel or tell me about your day or about yourself. You forgot my graduation concert, we run into my favorite student and you act as if he has some contagious disease. I know you have good intentions but I feel as if I come in as a second priority for you. And it hurts and the worst part of it all is that I'm starting to get used to it." She said tears gathering in the corners of her eyes as she spoke.
"I don't understand Sakura." Kakashi said looking at her.
"I know and that's what kills me, if there has been one day, just one day when nothing but us mattered." she said as more tears gathered in her eyes.
"But I adore you." he said
"I don't want to be adored!" she snapped then her voice softened "I want to be loved." she said standing up.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going to stay at Ino's then I don't know…I can't do this anymore." she said turning to walk away then she stopped and looked back at him. "Kakashi did you ask Tsunade- Sama to take you off the mission so you could go to Suna with me?" she asked looking at him.
"No I didn't" he said sadly, and then Sakura turned a tear falling from her eye as walked toward the doors of the restaurant.
"Sakura, Sakura wait please you can't do this to me, you can't leave me, are you saying I'll never see you again?" he asked her as they stood in the street of Konoha.
"Sakura-san." turning at the sound of her name Sakura saw an eagle ANBU standing behind her.
"Hokage-Sama wishes to see you for a mission right away." the eagle said "Oh Kakashi-san you may come also if you wish, Hokage-Sama said you were aloud." the eagle said looking at both of them from behind the mask.
"Well Kakashi are you going to come or not?" Sakura asked her voice cracking from trying to hold the tears back in front of the eagle.
"Are you going to answer her boy?" came an old voice. "Yes or no, it's your choice." Looking to his right Kakashi saw the old man he ran into sitting on a bench.
"Never mind come on." Sakura said to the ANBU before jumping onto the roof of a building and running to the Hokage's tower to get her mission.
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Waking to a pounding on his door Kakashi stumbled to the front door, opening it he saw Naruto standing on his door step his expression worried. Seeing his former student in so much distress Kakashi stepped closer and spoke.
"Naruto, what's wrong?" he asked looking at the blonde man in front of him.
"Kakashi-sensei its Sakura-chan she was hurt, she's in the hospital you should come." he said his voice cracking as he held back his tears. Not waiting any longer, Kakashi put on his sandals and ran out his door shutting it behind him, Naruto following beside him.
"What happened Naruto, do you know?" the Jounin asked as both men ran over the roof tops of the village.
"All I know is that they were ambushed Sakura-chan, Shikamaru, Neji and Choji, by some high class missing ninja and Sakura-chan took the worst of it. The others were hurt too but theirs were only cuts and a few broken bones, so there fine but Sakura-chan is still in surgery Grandma Tsunade and Shizune are working on her so is Ino." Naruto said as they landed in front of the hospital.
Following Naruto, Kakashi saw the others standing there, waiting on the news about Sakura too. First he saw Hinata and Gaara then Asuma and Kurenai and Choji whose arm was in a sling then Shikamaru was leaning against the wall his head wrapped in bandages as well as his left arm. Then he saw Neji who had his arm in a cast and some scratches on his face, still following Naruto, Kakashi sat next to his former student and waited. Two agonizing and silent hours later the doors to the operating room opened and Tsunade, Shizune and Ino walked out. Tsunade's face was set in a dead stare, Shizune looked ready to collapse and Ino was staring at the floor and leaning on Shizune.
Standing from his seat Kakashi looked at the three women in front of him trying to think of the words to say but they were asked for him.
"Sakura-chan is she…" Naruto started but let it fade away as Tsunade looked at him with sad honey colored eyes.
"I… Haruno, Sakura is...gone." she said as the tears finally found their way to her eyes turning Tsunade walked down the hall she couldn't let the others see her cry. Following quietly Shizune let the tears fall freely down her face at the loss of the pink haired Kunoichi they all loved dearly.
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Pan-chan) Ha finally I'm finished yeah. Sorry it took so long to post this chapter but I had some other stuff to do well no more excuses there are maybe two more chapters left till the end. Please, please review I want to know what you think about my first tragedy Fanfic.