We'll find our own way back
Chapter two
5 months later
"Rachel! You have to come! It's not every day that your best friend makes their Broadway debut is it?" Kurt Hummel cried. "Aw c'mon Kurt I'm seven months pregnant give me a break." Rachel touched her baby bump which had grown very large. "Exactly you haven't been out in months, you're coming! All of our friends are coming even some old glee friends." Rachel's face grew angry. "ARE YOU JOKING? Will he be there?" "I-I no eh he's out of town I think. I still can't believe you haven't told him you know I hate you for it but I respect your wishes and I won't tell him. But you have to come!" Kurt squealed. "Fine." Rachel forced a smile.
A couple of hours later Rachel was standing in a club chatting to some of her old glee club friends. Quinn and Tina were chatting to her about pregnancy "So who's the father? You must have got together pretty quickly considering we only graduated in May." Quinn laughed. "Oh I met him during the summer when we were in California. It was a one-night thing." The two girls remained silent. Then Blaine made his way over to them. "Berry it's great to see you, you look amazing. Kurt's dying to be a godfather." Rachel laughed as Blaine kissed her on the cheek. "How have you been doing?" Rachel had always loved how nice Blaine was to everyone. "I'm good, I-"and with that she stopped. She saw him, standing in the middle of the room embracing Kurt. Her heart almost stopped. How could she let Finn see her now, seven months pregnant. She knew she had to leave. She began to make her way towards the door when suddenly she felt someone grab her arm from behind her. "Rach" only one person ever called her that. "How ar-"he stopped when she turned around. "You're pregnant?" Finn's voice went surprisingly high. "Eh yeah. A lot has changed since we broke up." Rachel tried to sound cool. "I- um didn't even know you had started seeing someone else." Finn was shocked. "Of course I did, as soon as I got here. I've moved on, Finn." "How far along are you?" Finn was visibly shocked but still managed to form the words. "5 months." Rachel quickly changed the dates. "Oh I see." Finn looked sad. "I have to go, someone's waiting for me." Rachel shrugged off his hand which was still on her arm and quickly began to leave. "Right well congrats Rach." Finn said as he kissed her hand. Rachel practically ran out of the club despite being seven months pregnant. When she got outside she found herself barely able to breathe despite being in the fresh air. She could feel the tears sliding down her face and she quickly went around the corner so no one would see her, as she turned around the corner she bumped into someone. Blaine. "Rachel oh my god are you okay?" "Oh Blaine, you should have seen his face" she cried. "He was so disappointed, I hate myself." Rachel broke down into floods of tears and Blaine comforted her. "I take it you're talking about Finn. Kurt told me the story, I hope you don't mind. Can I ask you something, why haven't you told him about well everything. Do you not think he'd want to be involved?" Blaine asked. Rachel stopped crying long enough to catch her breath. "I haven't told him because he broke up with me six and a half months ago. He said it would never work; he didn't even seem to want to try. He didn't just break my heart, he broke all of me. It took me weeks to pick myself up and go on and then I found out I was pregnant. To tell him would be letting him back in when I had just blocked him out. This baby is reminder enough of him. He said I didn't need him so this baby doesn't need him then. Do you think I'm a bad person?" Rachel looked upset. Blaine sighed. "No Rachel. No one could ever think you're a bad person, but you are most definitely stubborn." They both laughed. "I'm not going to give you advice but all I know is that a baby needs two parents. You know Finn's dad died when he was young. That was a circumstance that couldn't be helped, but this one can. Do you really think it's for the best that another baby grows up without a parent?" The expression on Rachel's face grew angrier. "I don't know if he deserves this baby, I lost him so he loses the baby he doesn't even know about, big deal." "It's up to you Rachel, let me bring you home now. I'll pass on your goodbyes to Kurt.
Blaine helped Rachel up the stairs and into her apartment. "You take care of yourself and little Berry now." Blaine smiled and hugged Rachel. "Thanks Blaine, for everything you said and did tonight." Rachel was genuinely grateful. "Anytime Berry. You're a strong wise woman Rachel and I know you'll do the best thing for everyone."
When Blaine left, Rachel stood at her window for a few minutes. As she looked out at New York City, Rachel thought of the time five months ago when she stood here with a pregnancy test in her hands. She gently rubbed her bump and suddenly thought of Finn, the only boy she ever loved, out in the same city as her that night.