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Truths.
1st September 1978
Dear diary,
I'm so happy! Today, I'm finally returning to Hogwarts for my last year of schooling. Summer was horrible as usual. Petunia is now engaged to the most horrible man on earth. It's a pity that Mum and Dad seem to like him; I have had to put up with him and his stupid ideas for far too long. I don't understand what my sister sees in him; then again, I haven't understood my sister for many years. I guess that Hogwarts came between us; I even have heard her call me 'a freak'. At first, it bothered me, but now I'm over it. I love my life at Hogwarts; I have everything I would wish to have, and if my sister is too closed-minded to accept it, it's her problem.
Other than my problems with Petunia and her fiancée, I've also missed my friends terribly. The Marauders have been able to keep in close contact with me through owls, but unluckily, my boyfriend hasn't been able to. That stupid family of his refuse to allow him to keep in contact with a muggle- born witch. I'm lucky that Sev is so bull-headed; else our relationship would have been impossible. From the first moment we started dating, he told me very clearly what problems we would have, but oh well, I love him, and there's nothing and no one that will stand in our way. I won't allow it.
I'm ranting again about Sev, it seems to be one of my favourite pass-times. I saw him briefly today, when he came to harass the Marauders. I should be angry with him for insulting my friends, but I was just too happy to see him to pay much attention. Besides, he says he only does it so he can see me without drawing attention.
The sorting went on as usual, and after that, James and I, as Head Boy and Girl, lead the first years to the Gryffindor common room and then held a prefects meeting, informing the new prefects of their duties. It was quite late when we finished, and I wasn't able to sneak out to see Sev. No matter, I'm sure I'll be able to see him tomorrow.
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Harry frowned. Well, it seemed that his mother and Snape had been close during school, however, if that was so, how did she end up with James? Or didn't she? Shaking his head, he turned to the book again. It seemed his mother hadn't really been a writer since there weren't daily entries.
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10th September 1978
There's something wrong with Sev. He keeps telling me it's nothing, but I know he's lying, and it worries me. Sev has never in his life lied to me; that he feels the need to do so now is bothering me a lot. Don't get me wrong, my boyfriend is just as kind, gentle, and patient as always, but now there seems to be an inherent sadness hidden inside his dark coal eyes and I can't figure out what it is. I'm starting to feel afraid. Did something happen to him during summer?
20th September 1978
Those bastards! Those sad excuses for human beings! How can someone do something like this to another human being? A boy! More than a boy, your own son!
Today, I finally found out what was wrong with Sev. I had been trying to get him to tell me from the first day, but he's so stubborn. I knew he was hurting, but he wouldn't allow me to help him. Now I know he was afraid that I would reject him. Today, he broke down, and finally told me that his parents had forced him to accept the Dark Mark during summer. I think he was surprised when, instead of leaving the room in disgust as he had been expecting, I hugged him. But he really should have known better. I knew everything about his family, and I knew that this possibility existed.
We spoke for a long time, and finally, I managed to convince him that he should go and speak with Dumbledore. We did it at once, before Sev lost his nerve. I wished I could have gone with him, but right now, we don't want anyone to know about our relationship, not even Dumbledore. When Sev returned, he seemed to be relieved, he told me that the Headmaster had been very understanding, and had assured Sev that he would do everything that was in his power to shield him. Severus had agreed with Dumbledore that he would pass him any information he got, and that, in the future, when he was out of school, he would spy for him. I was worried about the last part, but what could I do? That was the best Sev could do, and a lot of people would be saved thanks to him. Even so, I know it will be a big responsibility to bear, and I plan to stand next to him. Always.
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Harry closed his eyes, wondering what the entire story about that Dark Mark was about. It sounded like something bad. Maybe it had something to do with Voldemort? Probably. But then, that meant that Snape was a good guy! He wished he had known that last year, he wouldn't have been in so much trouble if he had known that it wasn't Snape who was after the Stone. Maybe he would have suspected Quirrel earlier. Harry shook his head; it wasn't good to dwell on what ifs. Looking at the clock standing next to him, he noticed it was nearly midnight. He really should go to sleep, especially since he probably would be woken up early to start making breakfast. On the other hand, he still had too many questions, and he probably wouldn't be able to sleep anyways. Looking at the book again, Harry decided to read a bit more.
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25th October 1978
What we long feared has finally happened. After nearly two years of dating, someone found out. On the other hand, we were lucky since it was James and not Sirius who saw us. Not that he had much to complain about, after all, who would have thought that a Potter would date a Malfoy? Everyone would have heart failures if they found out that James Potter was dating Lucius' younger sister. At the time it didn't seem funny, but thinking about it right now, Severus' face was priceless. Yes, we were very lucky. James and Angela gave us their word they would not tell anyone as long as we didn't either; I hope they keep their word. I know James will not tell anyone, but I'm not so sure about Angela. Maybe it's time I got to know her better; after all, she's one of Severus' best friends.
30th October 1978
Who would have thought that Lucius would have such a sweet sister? The guy is a bastard, but Angela seems to have all the qualities that Lucius lacks. No wonder that James likes her a lot, she is fun to be with and kind, even if she's ambitious as a true Malfoy; she says she wants to be the best in everything. As far as I know, she is, indeed, one of the best witches in her year. She approached me the other day and asked me if I could tutor her in charms, which is her worst subject. Lucius didn't seem to like it, in fact, he looked furious, but somehow, Sev managed to calm him down, and I accepted. James was very happy, and he also asked if I could tutor him. I really wonder if we will do much work.
2nd November 1978
Today was the first tutoring session, and much to my delight, Lucius had asked Sev to keep an eye on his younger sister. It seems that the blond boy wants to set up his best friend with his sister. Little does he know that that isn't going to happen.
To be continued.
A/N: Thanks for all reviews and thanks to my beta reader, Vinnie.
Truths.
1st September 1978
Dear diary,
I'm so happy! Today, I'm finally returning to Hogwarts for my last year of schooling. Summer was horrible as usual. Petunia is now engaged to the most horrible man on earth. It's a pity that Mum and Dad seem to like him; I have had to put up with him and his stupid ideas for far too long. I don't understand what my sister sees in him; then again, I haven't understood my sister for many years. I guess that Hogwarts came between us; I even have heard her call me 'a freak'. At first, it bothered me, but now I'm over it. I love my life at Hogwarts; I have everything I would wish to have, and if my sister is too closed-minded to accept it, it's her problem.
Other than my problems with Petunia and her fiancée, I've also missed my friends terribly. The Marauders have been able to keep in close contact with me through owls, but unluckily, my boyfriend hasn't been able to. That stupid family of his refuse to allow him to keep in contact with a muggle- born witch. I'm lucky that Sev is so bull-headed; else our relationship would have been impossible. From the first moment we started dating, he told me very clearly what problems we would have, but oh well, I love him, and there's nothing and no one that will stand in our way. I won't allow it.
I'm ranting again about Sev, it seems to be one of my favourite pass-times. I saw him briefly today, when he came to harass the Marauders. I should be angry with him for insulting my friends, but I was just too happy to see him to pay much attention. Besides, he says he only does it so he can see me without drawing attention.
The sorting went on as usual, and after that, James and I, as Head Boy and Girl, lead the first years to the Gryffindor common room and then held a prefects meeting, informing the new prefects of their duties. It was quite late when we finished, and I wasn't able to sneak out to see Sev. No matter, I'm sure I'll be able to see him tomorrow.
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Harry frowned. Well, it seemed that his mother and Snape had been close during school, however, if that was so, how did she end up with James? Or didn't she? Shaking his head, he turned to the book again. It seemed his mother hadn't really been a writer since there weren't daily entries.
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10th September 1978
There's something wrong with Sev. He keeps telling me it's nothing, but I know he's lying, and it worries me. Sev has never in his life lied to me; that he feels the need to do so now is bothering me a lot. Don't get me wrong, my boyfriend is just as kind, gentle, and patient as always, but now there seems to be an inherent sadness hidden inside his dark coal eyes and I can't figure out what it is. I'm starting to feel afraid. Did something happen to him during summer?
20th September 1978
Those bastards! Those sad excuses for human beings! How can someone do something like this to another human being? A boy! More than a boy, your own son!
Today, I finally found out what was wrong with Sev. I had been trying to get him to tell me from the first day, but he's so stubborn. I knew he was hurting, but he wouldn't allow me to help him. Now I know he was afraid that I would reject him. Today, he broke down, and finally told me that his parents had forced him to accept the Dark Mark during summer. I think he was surprised when, instead of leaving the room in disgust as he had been expecting, I hugged him. But he really should have known better. I knew everything about his family, and I knew that this possibility existed.
We spoke for a long time, and finally, I managed to convince him that he should go and speak with Dumbledore. We did it at once, before Sev lost his nerve. I wished I could have gone with him, but right now, we don't want anyone to know about our relationship, not even Dumbledore. When Sev returned, he seemed to be relieved, he told me that the Headmaster had been very understanding, and had assured Sev that he would do everything that was in his power to shield him. Severus had agreed with Dumbledore that he would pass him any information he got, and that, in the future, when he was out of school, he would spy for him. I was worried about the last part, but what could I do? That was the best Sev could do, and a lot of people would be saved thanks to him. Even so, I know it will be a big responsibility to bear, and I plan to stand next to him. Always.
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Harry closed his eyes, wondering what the entire story about that Dark Mark was about. It sounded like something bad. Maybe it had something to do with Voldemort? Probably. But then, that meant that Snape was a good guy! He wished he had known that last year, he wouldn't have been in so much trouble if he had known that it wasn't Snape who was after the Stone. Maybe he would have suspected Quirrel earlier. Harry shook his head; it wasn't good to dwell on what ifs. Looking at the clock standing next to him, he noticed it was nearly midnight. He really should go to sleep, especially since he probably would be woken up early to start making breakfast. On the other hand, he still had too many questions, and he probably wouldn't be able to sleep anyways. Looking at the book again, Harry decided to read a bit more.
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25th October 1978
What we long feared has finally happened. After nearly two years of dating, someone found out. On the other hand, we were lucky since it was James and not Sirius who saw us. Not that he had much to complain about, after all, who would have thought that a Potter would date a Malfoy? Everyone would have heart failures if they found out that James Potter was dating Lucius' younger sister. At the time it didn't seem funny, but thinking about it right now, Severus' face was priceless. Yes, we were very lucky. James and Angela gave us their word they would not tell anyone as long as we didn't either; I hope they keep their word. I know James will not tell anyone, but I'm not so sure about Angela. Maybe it's time I got to know her better; after all, she's one of Severus' best friends.
30th October 1978
Who would have thought that Lucius would have such a sweet sister? The guy is a bastard, but Angela seems to have all the qualities that Lucius lacks. No wonder that James likes her a lot, she is fun to be with and kind, even if she's ambitious as a true Malfoy; she says she wants to be the best in everything. As far as I know, she is, indeed, one of the best witches in her year. She approached me the other day and asked me if I could tutor her in charms, which is her worst subject. Lucius didn't seem to like it, in fact, he looked furious, but somehow, Sev managed to calm him down, and I accepted. James was very happy, and he also asked if I could tutor him. I really wonder if we will do much work.
2nd November 1978
Today was the first tutoring session, and much to my delight, Lucius had asked Sev to keep an eye on his younger sister. It seems that the blond boy wants to set up his best friend with his sister. Little does he know that that isn't going to happen.
To be continued.
A/N: Thanks for all reviews and thanks to my beta reader, Vinnie.