Natsu was depressed about Lucy death then he was thinking about cutting so he got a knife the knife wasso sharp. Then he got down on the floor then started to cut his skin the crimson blood drip down his arm out of pain Natsu bite his bottom lip. His arm had exactly 40 cuts on his arm just from today when he stopped he got up and then took off his clothes because of the blood the water was red Natsu had also put the shower on full blast. Natsu then got up and got in the shower from the blood he needed to wash off his body. Time skip the next day Natsu woke up and looked at his arm he saw the the cuts then he wanted to cut some more so he went to get the knife he used last night it still had blood on it.
Then he went to the bathroom sat down on the bathroom floor. Then he started new cuts and reopening the old cuts. Time skip it was two months since Lucy's death. By this point Natsu had 100 cuts on his body the cuts were on his arms,legs,sides,and shoulder. Back at the guildhall Gray was worried about Natsu. Then he went to go check on him to if he was ok.
Meanwhile Natsu was in the tub ready to kill himself because he wanted to end it all he had the knife ready to kill himself, so he started to cut his arms going down.
Both of his arms he hated the fact that he was going to die after this. He left a note for Gray it told him about Natsu's love for him and how he wished he could be with him before he died. Natsu was slowly going unconscious from lost he wished he could have kissed Gray before he died.