Disclaimer: I do not own Ed Edd n' Eddy, but I'm sure that someday I shall conquer the world and have its rights turned
over to me... well okay, Pipe Dream, but Damn if its not a cool idea...
Author's Note's: I alway's loved the Resident Evil games, the early one's anyways, where you had a main story, then you had multiple sub-plots told through work memo's and journal entries and research papers. So in this I was inspired by the idea that either she's reading them aloud to someone or herself as she's writing these. This one is usually coined as the weak link of the series, I blame that partially on Nazz's one dimensional character in the show, she's not exactly a popular character, or at least wasn't until the specials and the movie. Let's see if I can change your minds readers.
Ed Edd n' Eddy:
A Different Kind of Pain: Director's Cut
Her parents' called me first thing. I had always been a good friend of her. They knew I would want to know what was happening. The ambulance rushed her away leaving me and my girlfriend to pick up the mess. "Vicoden? Hydrocodone? Xanax? Hell the only thing the girl didn't take was Ibuprofen with a stiff glass of Bleach." Marie said, kneeling beside a pile of pills and the three bottles they came out of. "Where'd she get these?" Marie asked herself, asking me in the process. "From me." I said grudgidly. She had raided my stash. What could have happened to her. What drove her over the edge like this. I looked down around her bed, and spied a pink book lined in brass. On the cover was a single word. 'Diary', below a sticky note with the name, 'Double-D'... she left this for me? I thought. It was unlocked. I opened to find a note that had been ripped from the back. It read:
Dear Double-D,
Hey, this is awkward I know, but if you're reading this, I'm dead. It was 6 years ago, when it happened. I never forgot. In that moment all of us changed. Some better, some worse. If you're reading this. You see where I've ended up. In here I've marked select pages of importance. Double-D, you were always a good friend. Don't give up... like I have...
Love Always,
Nazz...
Dear Diary,
Hi! This is Nazz again! I know its been like a week since I last wrote in here, but with School and Cheerleading and getting Kevin to finally notice me and get a date. I've been busy! Well, school has really been difficult for me! My teacher actually assigned us all Homework over the WEEKENDS! What an a- oops... almost forgot my manners. Well, Rolf took off for his home country a week ago, and recently returned, only real grumpy like. Eddy tried to con me into a kiss, AGAIN, so I laid him out, with a PUNCH! Eddy's cute and all, but just not too popular... unlike Kevin, who's a big hunk! I think Jimmy and Sarah need to work on a better routine for the next game... Double-D is working on something big, I haven't seen or heard from him in like 2 weeks... Oh on a side note... Ed, the big lug has been acting different lately, weird... well, weirder, for him. Like, I don't know how, but it just seems like he different in some way... Oh well... whatever makes him happy...
Well Good night Diary, I'll be writing in you soon enough again...
With Love,
Nazzy
Dear Diary,
I'm writing this... for my own sake... something terrible happened this afternoon... coming home from School. I ran into the Ed's... They were setting up another one of their money making plots... con... SCAM! whatever their frickin' called! And... Ed was shoved... by Eddy into an oncoming SUV... I think... The SUV crashed into Ed and sandwiched him into a lightpole... and... and... crushed Ed... All I remember was that Double-D, oh god, he was so scared he was shaking. Sarah was begging, actually begging and crying for her brother! Yeah imagine that! Even Kevin, who hates the Ed's, showed he cared enough for Ed, by getting Rolf to help him try and get the SUV off of Ed... I looked around but Eddy had already ran away!...that son of a Bitch! I don't CARE ABOUT MY MANNERS! Kevin screamed at me to call an Ambulance... I look at my hands and I think if I had been a bit faster on the dial, maybe... he'd still be alive...
WHY HIM! WHY! He was so kindhearted and loving! You took him! I-
Dear Diary,
Hi, its been a in school are starting to bug me... its been a couple of years since the 'incident'... and all I can think of, is why Ed...
Why did you have to go?
I have resigned as the Cheerleaders', well 'Leader'... it just doesn't thrill me like it did before, nothing does actually... Kevin keeps getting mad, says I'm losing touch with reality... what does that Prick know? All he does nowadays is play football and fondle me. He doesn't care about me. Who I am, or what's under the skin. All I care about is getting through High School so I can get out of this damn Town... Rolf returned from his trip again from his relatives, so far as I can tell, he is not really affected by Ed's absense. Johnny no longer plays with Plank. I guess it would be sorta depressing to see him by himself... but then again, why should I really care? So, I'm off tonight to the Dance, hopefully I'll see Double-D, or even Sarah... they've not talked to me for awhile...
With Love,
Nazz
Dear Diary,
I'm crying right now... I have this sick feeling in my stomach and my thighs are buckling... I think I'm gonna throw up... I was at the dance. We were having a good time, Jonny spiked the Punch bowl with Maker's, Kevin and Jimmy found the liqour cabinet in the teachers lounge, so I had some Jager too. And... god I still can't believe it... Kevin... he raped me... oh god... he brought me to the back of the dance stage, behind the curtains of the stage. He began sucking on my neck, getting me hot... he pressed his lips against mine... moved his legs up my dress... I tried to stop him... I wanted to wait... I wanted to only have it on my terms... thats the way it should be right!? He said fine, we left shortly after that, went to his place. But then he... he tortured me... nearly broke my arm... made me call myself his 'whore'. I can barely move my arm. He violated me... tore me up, destroyed my dress, bloodied me. When he finished, he passed out. I felt so violated I, I threw up. Something in his eye's. They changed. I left... in my bra and panties, at 2 a.m., I wanted to go home. I wanted to just get home. But of course everyone was hanging in the middle of the street. Except for Rolf, who showed up beside me with a blanket, a cup of coffee and looked me dead in the eyes. "Let go." he proceeded to walk me home. Oh thank god for him. I wanted to tell him what happened, I wanted to tell my mom... but I couldn't do that! And I still... love him... I can't do that to him! What do I Do Lord... TELL ME!
Dear Diary,
Kevin has avoided me for the past few weeks... he won't speak to me... won't wait for me, won't even apologize for what he did... my thighs are still bruised. But it's my dignity that's shattered.
I have gotten word that Double-D and Marie Kanker are actually dating now, good for them... They were always good for each other.
I ran into Sarah who actually has changed quite a bit, she still hangs with Jimmy, but he's actually gotten a gruff thing goin' on. The Braces are gone, but now it seems that him and Sarah have turned Emo or Goth or whatever it is... Could they be dating? We caught up, seems she's developed a bit of a mean, well, meaner streak. I went to visit Ed's grave this morning. Someone keeps putting flowers on his grave... I think its sweet... I brought a single Rose to lay on top of the Headstone, I took a moment to read the Inscription. "The Heart that Reached out to Warm All", makes me smile reading that everytime. May was there, she's grown up, she was pretty now, and her two front teeth helped accentuate a pretty smile. a single tear streaking down her cheek. She still has long blonde hair, a wierd paradox in a family that compulsively dye's their hair, she keeps her natural hair color. She turned to me and hugged me, no words, no need... Finally someone who shared my sentiment for Ed... Her and I have been keeping close contact with each other. She is such an interesting person, very artistic, very eccentric, totally awesome... She slips away from her sisters to visit me sometimes... I'll keep you posted... But now I know I can count on her...
With Love,
Nazz
Dear Diary,
It's been a couple of months and I did something tonight I'm having wierd thoughts about. I just kissed May Kanker... and not in the friend way, or the drunken party slut way... We were hanging out with Jimmy and Sarah, playing Truth or Dare, and Jimmy got me and... I said Dare... he dared me to kiss May, I was hesitant, wasn't sure about kissing May, but May... wow... she dove at the chance. And planted one on my lips, and... I kissed back. It, was amazing, like the weight of the world was gone from my shoulders. I've never felt this way before about anyone. We finally stopped after Jimmy coughed up a hairball to keep the game going... I don't get what these feelings are... and Jesus I'm still with Kevin... I think...
Dear Diary,
I have officially broken things off with Kevin, I left a note in Kevins locker he won't miss. It's been six weeks since I last wrote in this Diary, and I think I'm in love... with May Kanker... Alot has happened. I haven't felt this great in a long time... May's gonna come with me to Sarah's Birthday Party... I'm gonna let her know the way I feel for her. I'm so nervous... Wish me Luck!
Love,
Nazzy
Dear Diary,
Kevin threatened me and May tonight, threatened to expose us to our families, threatened to kill May if I ever saw her again. We were at Sarah's birthday party in Rolf's basement, or the Hangout. He heard Sarah's drunken ramblings about me and May and that sent him over the edge. I'm so scared right now I don't know what to do. Oh God, he left so angry, I was so afraid to walk home. If not for Rolf wanting to see me home safe I don't think I could've made it. I had to say goodbye to May, I couldn't stop crying... Everything is gone now... I have nothing left. My heart is Broken...
To Whom it May Concern...
This is Nazz... the girl from next door, the one you all recently dismissed as being a freak, an emo... a goth of sorts... This is my pledge to all who have wronged me. I hate you all! You have ruined my life! This is what I am brought to... and though some may cover up their skeletons in their closets... This serves as a notice to them, that your life catches up to you... To those who have loved me and have helped me and held me when it matters... Thank You... and to that one I have taken my heart out for... I Love You... and this is not your fault. Please understand, that the circumstances of my life has forced this upon me... I have nothing left... I write this letter in my Diary... knowing that Double-D will find it, you have always been a true friend, and I want to apologize for the mean things I said to you on that Day, when the Soul of the Cul-De-Sac was stolen from us... I will have a special place for you set aside waiting for you when you join me and Ed with the Angels. To Jimmy and Sarah, you two are my best friends, please take care of yourselves, I love you both. To Rolf, you were there for me on a special occasion and I know I stole from you a friendship you worked so hard for, but thank you for being a true friend to me... To Johnny... well I know that Plank meant something special to you. And I know that in your heart a place still resides in there for him, I just hope it won't replace my spot there in your heart... To May... Thank You...
Goodbye,
Nazz...
...am I-...am I still a-alive?...
...Nazz?...Your not supposed to be here...Silly Goose!...uhhuhuhuhhh...
...Ed?...
My eyes opened and the pain began hitting me... I looked around with heavy eyes and a heavy skull... I... I was in a hospital... I could see it was raining outside... I was hooked up to one of those machines... I couldn't think what they were used for... I closed my eyes trying to recall some strength maybe sit up... finish the job I started... Until a familiar hand grabbed my own... it was Double-D's... "Oh no you don't missy." he said, warmly but sternly.
I decided not to fight... he was stronger at this point. Thats when I noticed Marie on the other side looking at Double-D impressed. She looked at me then and smoothed out the bed sheets... "You were pretty lucky hun...", Lucky? I'm still alive! I screamed at her, in my head. She must've noticed something in my face saying what I thought. "And what about my sister? Did you consider her?!" I crumpled. "Marie, please." Double-D changed his warm expression to anger and dissapointment. "I need to speak with Nazz alone, give me and her a minute alone please." Marie nodded... how much everyone had changed... It was refreshing to see Double-D with a backbone for once..."Suicide, huh?", he said, waiting a moment. I sighed. He didn't move from his spot in the room. "So... you steal my pills from my room, you ingest a pretty damn good amount. And yet you're here to tell the story. I know what you were trying to do." He proclaimed, as though he understood everything...
"No you don't..." I whispered, but just as I thought, he caught it. "I do actually, cause I was there too... I did exactly as you did, I sliced open the flesh on my arms... I watched them bleed as you did. I popped the pills with the same intention. But still, nothing. I thought as you did... That it was the 'only way out', I shot up, and Overdosed on purpose... but then... she saved me" pointing to the door indicating Marie. "Did you see him?" My eyes widened, I did... I did see 'him'... "...Ed..." he and I whispered at the same time. He came over to my bedside and sat down. "Look I know this is a lot to take in, but alot happened last night. What with you're attempted suicide and Kevin ending up finding you, plus that whole thing with Jonny and Sara- I gasped... Kevin had found me? "Kevin saved me?"... "No" I stammered... "He told the police... everything... I heard it myself." I started crying. "He... he... he..." Double-D finished my sentence. "He turned himself over... seeing what he had done to you, had brought you to this..." Double-D stood. "I also know of someone who wants to see you... She's been sitting outside waiting for you to come around for some time..." With that the door opened and May walked in... She looked at me with her beautiful grin... She turned and hugged her sister and Double-D before they left. "May... tell her." Marie smiled, pecking her on the cheek. She turned to me, her eyes puffy and watery... "I've been wanting to tell you something for awhile now. I... Nazz... I Love You..." At that moment, the world stopped... Then she ran to me and glomped me! She started kissing all over my head like an obsessed mother with her baby. She relented to look me dead in the eyes... those pretty eyes, and those teeth, I kissed her lips, This moment could have lasted forever, then Kevin walked in... I looked at him with the tears in my eyes... "uh... Hey, I just wanted to come in here, and give you something..." he walked over to May who stood up in defense of me... slapping him a good shot to his jaw.
He shook it off. "I'm just gonna say first... I never wanted this to happen to you... There is no excuse for what I did. And all I know is that if I could have, I would have made it so you had never had to of gone through that... But I can't so I leave this with you." With that Kevin dropped in front of me... My Diary... and a second Book... "What? What is this?" Kevin chuckled a second... "My uh... my own Journal... Give it a read sometime." with that a police officer came in. "Alright boy, your five minutes are over, we're goin'..." Kevin nodded and looked at me one more time.
"Goodbye Nazz..."
Dear Diary,
I just remembered something from my daze. I remember talking with Jonny, but he was acting strange. Then I saw someone else. It wasnt't anyone familiar. But the person stood in front of me for a few minutes, then started arguing with someone outside my room. It sounded like Double-D...
But I'm ending this Diary on it's last few pages with this.
I've had my up's and down's. We all have, but I know one thing... I was dead. And I was pulled back. For Love, for Life, to be reminded that Happiness does exist. And I can't help but think one guy is responsible. Thank You, Ed.
Author's Other Note's: I re-read the original version and aside from having some horrible grammar issue's. I really get now why this one is considered my weak link. It's definately difficult to convey overall plot from the perspective of a teenage girl, or any teenager for that fact. I hope this recapturing of this story better suits you guys. I've added and deleted crap from it I really had no care for, like the Ending. And also the beginning. Each character is now gonna get their own special Intro, instead of a lazy rehash of Double-D's intro. I was lazy on that much, and I'm sorry.