Hey guys! So this ones a little longer then my first chapter but I went with it. I hope you're enjoying the story so far! :) Also I just wanted to let people know that i'm home schooled so if school is nothing like I described soooorrryyyy! The song I picked for this chapter i'm not totally happy with but I couldn't find another one so I use this one, I hope it fits well enough.
Warning! Self harm, Bullying, homophobic people.
Song: You fond me by THE FRAY
p.s. Feel free to point out any grammar/spelling mistakes :)
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I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".
POV: Dean
I watched as Castiel tripped on some guys leg. For a second I thought he had regained his balance but then he was skidding across the floor. "Castiel!" I exclaimed, I don't know If he didn't hear me or if he just didn't respond because he got up and grabbed his books and ran out the door. I gathered my stuff quickly, grabbed the book he had forgot on the floor and ran out after him. When I got into the hallway he was no where to be seen. I tucked the book into my bag thinking that I would give it back to him latter.
I tried to focus in my math class but couldn't. The problems made no sense because my mind kept wondering away. I'll I wanted to do was go find Castiel and see if he was okay. It looked like he hit the ground hard. I don't know what's up with him but there was just something off. I snapped back to reality when the teacher called my name. "What?" I said and the students around me chuckled. "Can you give me the answer Mr. Winchester?"
"Um... 7?" I said pulling a random number out of my ass. This time the students broke out into laughter.
"Nice try," Ms. Naomi smiled to sweetly, "Mr. Winchester please do us all a favor and pay attention in class."
"Maybe I would if you class was more interesting." I couldn't help my self from saying.
"Mr. Winchester!" She exclaimed, A blond girl a few rows over looked back at me and gave me an approving look. "That comment has just landed you in detention on your first day!"
"Fuck." I muttered under my breath.
"What was that?" Ms. Naomi asked.
"Nothing,"
"Well let's hope your learn some manners or you'll be spending an awful lot of time in detention." rolling my eyes I looked down at my notebook and copied some of the problems down from the board. Sitting through the rest of the class was painful. I had to stay focused because that bitch of a teacher kept asking me random ass questions.
As soon as the bell rang I was out the door. Ms. Naomi yelling at me to go to the gym after school. Sighing in frustration I sent a text to Sam saying that I was going to be late home and that Bobby would pick him up. Letting Bobby know that he need to pick Sam up I walked to my locker. Shoving my bag in I grabbed my book for history and walked to history class.
After history I went to my locker and put my book away, took my bag out and shoved everything I may need to do my homework in it, then I went to the gym for detention. When I got there Mr. Roman was waiting, "Ah, Mr. Winchester I was told you would be joining us."
"What are we doing?"
"You and Castiel are going to be cleaning the boys locker room."
"Castiel?" I questioned, for some reason the idea of being stuck here seemed to get a lot better.
"Yes. You herd me right Winchester." Right then Castiel walked in.
Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of First and Amistad
POV: Castiel
I walked into the gym and Dean was standing there next to Mr. Roman. They both stopped talking and stared at me. I walked over and Mr. Roman told me what we were going to be doing.
"Here you go," he said handing us cleaning supplies, "And don't be slaking I'll be right over there and I'm going to come in randomly to check on you." Walking over to the locker room I started to wonder how this day could get worse and that's when Dean interrupted my thoughts. "So... how about we work together?" He said putting the cleaning supplies down, "That way things go twice as fast." he rushed as an after thought. I shrugged my shoulders, "We could start on the showers at either end and meet in the middle." He said
"Whatever works." I said grabbing a rag and spray bottle. I walked down to the end and started to scrub the shower, telling myself that the faster I worked the faster I would be done even though I know that wasn't true.
When Dean and I meet in the middle he started talking, "So are you okay? It looked like you took a pretty hard fall in chem."
"I'm fine Dean," Liar,
"Are you sure?"
"Dean I'm sure." He quieted down for a bit and we scrubbed the showers. They were actually cleaner then I was expecting. "Why don't you roll up your sleeves? You're getting them all wet." My heart stopped in my chest and I felt the panic rise up my throat. He knows, he knows, he knows! "Um... there already wet. What's the point?" I tried to seem nonchalant. "Well you could always prevent them from getting more wet." shrugging I tried to change the subject. "So... how did you get detonation?"
"Oh, I back talked a teacher. How about you? I took you as the type to never get detonation."
"I walked out of gym class this morning."
"Oh, yeah, sorry by the way," When I looked up at him confused he continued "For running into you,"
"Oh! That was totally my fault! I should be the one apologizing!"
"Don't be silly I was the one that need to watch where I was going."
Dean and I continued to talk, He made me forget. Forget that I can't get close, forget that everyone leaves, forget home, forget school, forget my bruises, forget my cuts, forget everything. That was until Mr. Roman came in.
"Alright boys, your done, you can go home." Dean stood up and brushed off his jeans. That was when I realized that non of this was real. I have to go home, to my dad, to my brothers, That I have a shit ton of home work, that I have to pretend to be fine. It hit me like a million bricks.
"What's wrong? Don't you want to get out of here? I know I do! " Dean asked, and here it is the start of more lies. "Nothing." I stood and grabbed my cleaning supplies. I put them away and then went to grab my bag from where I put it by the door to the locker room. Dean was getting his bag, "Can I walk you out?" I gave a small smile and nodded once, "Sure." I whispered.
"Hey, so I was thinking that sense I don't really know any one around here that maybe we could eat lunch together tomorrow? That is if you don't eat with anyone else."
"That sounds nice Dean, There's just one thing, We can't eat in the cafeteria."
"Yeah sure, wherever you eat is fine" He said with a smile.
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
POV: Dean
I walked out to my baby smiling that I was going to eat lunch with Castiel. I don't know what It was but there was something about him that just, he just seemed right to be around. I stroked baby's hood as I walked to the drivers side. My smile brightened as I turned her on and she growled and then came to a purr. Blasting music poured out of the speaker. I turned it up rolling and my window down. Then I speed down road towards Bobby's.
This could be good! As long as I don't screw up to bad. I'm staying here until I graduate in two years. I'm making friends, I could get good grades and maybe get into a collage. Maybe I could even get a girlfriend that could last more then three weeks.
I pulled into the drive way and parked. I walked to the front door with a skip in my step. Throwing open the door I dropped my keys on the table. "I'm home!" I called, god I don't know how long I have wanted to do that in an actually house and not some cheesy motel. Sam looked up from his homework that was spread all over the dining table.
"Where have you been?" Bobby asked coming in from the study.
"Detention." I stated. "So Sam, how was your first day?"
"No, Dean your not getting off that easy." Bobby said.
"Oh come on! I took care of Sam and I for years and we're doing fine!"
"You live under my roof that means you live under my rules!"
"But-"
"Don't argue with me boy!" Bobby raised his voice over mine.
"Fine."
"Now, why did you get detention?"
"I talked back to a teacher."
"Idjit." he said shaking his head and walking back into the study.
"Any way, Sam, how was your first day?"
"It was great! I meet this really cool group. They were all really nice and totally welcomed me in! A lot of them are all really in to there classes like me! They even have there own study group! They invited me to come and join them! Can I go Dean? Can I go?"
"Of course Sammy!" I said with a laugh. "What do you want for dinner?"
"Bobby said he would get us Chinese takeout. He said that was what he always got on the first day of school."
"Cool! Well then I'm going to go do some homework and work on unpaking my room some more." Sam nodded once and then went back to studying.
I got up to my room and flopped down on my bed! Smiling as excited energy flooded my body. I had a freaking good day for no reason at all other then meeting this one kid who didn't even seam that interested in talking to me. Getting up to start my homework I reached in to my bag and pulled out Castiel's book. Swearing at myself for forgetting to give it back to him. There's always tomorrow. I thought to myself. Looking down at the book I discovered that it was actually a sketch book. Putting it back in to my bag I lied back down on my bed. I found my eyes drifting closed. I Gave in with the thought of I'll just close my eyes for a few minutes.
In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
POV: Castiel
Dean walked me out of the school and then walked off to his car. I looked around and found exactly what I thought I would. My brothers left without even telling me. Pulling out my phone I dialed in Luke's number. On the third ring he picked up.
"Hey Cassie, wassup?"
"Hi, are you around? Raph, Anna and Gab left me here again."
"I'm sorry Cassie I can't pick you up right now, I'm at work. I can come after if you want. It'll be about two hours."
"It's okay Luke I can walk."
"Cassie, it's like a forty five minute walk!"
"It's all good, I've walked before."
"I'm sorry. See you at home tonight?"
"Yeah sure,"
"We still hanging out tonight?"
"Yeah, sounds good."
"Talk to you latter Cassie."
"Good bye Luke." I hung up the phone and started my long walk home.
When I finely got home I stood out side of the door for a minute. I took a deep breath and then turned the door nob and walked in. The second I walked through the door my dad called for me, "Castiel get in here!" regretting my choice not to wait for Luke I walked into the the living room. "Castiel, where have you been?'
"Sorry father, I walked home today."
"Why?"
"I wanted to do a little extra studying"
"Castiel. Do not lie to me!"
"I'm sorry father."
"I don't think you are. Go to your room now!"
"Yes father." I said already turning to go to my room. I ran up the stairs two at a time and when I got to the top Raph was standing there.
"Hey loser, How was your nice long walk home?"
"Fuck off Raphael."
"Castiel! Don't use that language in my house!" my dad yelled from downstairs. Raphael smirked at my and then slammed one of his hands into my ribs. I gasped and Raph laughed at me. I pushed him off of me and walked to my room still struggling to breath from the pain shooting through my body. When I finely made it to my room and gently lied down on my bed. I ran a hand through my hair and the tears started to come. My dad know I had skipped classes, I let Dean get way to close. why did I always fail? It's not that hard to push someone away. Yet I always seem to fail! For fucks sakes Castiel all you have to do is push people away! Just don't talk to him and he'll get bored. They always do. My cat Nestle jumped up on my bed and mewed at me. I took my hand off my face and started to scratch his head. He started to purr and push into my hand. He always seemed to calm me down some.
As soon as Luke got home he came up and poked his head into my room.
"Hey Cassie, how's it goin'?"
"I don't really wanna talk right now Luke."
"Cassie..." Luke said coming in and shutting my door. He sat down on my bed and looked down at me. "What's wrong Cassie?"
"I said I don't wanna talk!"
"You know talking will help."
"I know-" I started to cry again and then I started to sob and then there was no getting myself back under control. Luke pulled his shoes off and laid down next to me. I turned onto my side and buried my face into his shoulder.
"Hey, hey Cassie, it can't be that bad."
"I-i-i-it's n-n-ot..." I stumbled through speaking.
"What happened?" Luke was very patient and waited well I calmed down. He rubbed my back and Nestle came and lied down beside me.
"Nothing really, just dad knows I've been skipping classes and I just had a hard day."
"I know more happened."
"Well it's just Alistair Gave me some trouble and then when I got home Raph was being a jerk"
"What did he do."
"Nothing really."
"Don't lie to me Cassie."
"He just slammed a hand in to the bruise on my side."
"I. Am. Going. To. Kill. Him!" Luke nearly shouted. He stood abruptly and walked out of my room slamming the door.
"Wait! Luke!" I yelled after him but it was to late.
"What the hell were you thinking!" I herd him yell from down the hall. I got up and peaked out of my door. Luke was yelling at Raph.
"What do you want Lucifer!" Raph yelled at Luke.
"If you fucking touch Castiel again I will kill you!"
"I didn't touch him! He went after me!"
"Does Castiel seem like the kind of person to go after you? No I didn't think so!" at that Michel came out of his room.
"What the hell is going on out here!"
"Luke is yelling at me for no reason!" Raph said playing the victim.
"Lucifer, I will not put up with this crap from you any longer!" Michel screamed at Luke. Then my dad came up. And that was how our night went. I hid in my room well Luke, Michel and Father fought. Of course Michel was on Raph's side and my dad instantly took Michel's side which left Luke fighting against the both of them.
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
POV: Dean
"Dean, Dean, Wake up!" I sat up in a rush and then rolled of my bed. With a thud I hit the floor and Sam started laughing at me.
"What? What do you want from me?" I snapped at him.
"it's dinner time!" Sam said and ran out of my room. I rolled my eyes and got up off the floor. I walked downstairs and sure enough dinner was here. Bobby, Sam and I all sat down in front of the T.V. After filling our plates with food. Then Bobby put on some documentary about something supernatural. Sam and I happily sat through the entire thing feasting ourselves of Chinese food. When I was done eating I ran up to my room to grab my homework and then came back down and spread out on the floor and did my homework well Sam read and bobby did paper works.
The next morning I awoke with plenty of time. I took a quick shower and got dressed. Going through my bag I made sure all of my stuff was ready. I saw Castiel's sketch book again. I pulled it out and looked at the smooth black cover. It was tempting to look through it but I slipped it back into my bag and went downstairs. Popping some toast in the toaster I made myself some coffee. I ate my toast and then it was time for Sam and I to leave.
"Sam stop fixing your hair and get your ass down here! Were going to be late!" I yelled up the stairs. Sam came thudding down the stairs and ran out the door to the impala.
Pulling into the high school parking lot, I parked my baby. I was walking into the school when I saw a car pulling in, I didn't think to much of it, until I saw Castiel step out. He was followed by a red head girl and then a goofy brown haired boy who was sucking on a lollipop. I smiled as I saw a tall male step out of the car and sling an arm around Castiel. And then the next thing I knew Castiel's brother pushed him hard enough to make him fall from the ground. The one that had pushed him started to laugh, The red haired girl looked down at him but kept walking. The brown haired boy looked back at him with a concerned look on his face but kept walking with his siblings. I walked over to Castiel.
"Hey, you okay?"
"Ah, yeah." He said standing and brushing himself off.
"What happened."
"I'm just a freaking klutz." Castiel said to quickly to be ture.
"That's not really what it looked like."
"Don't worry about it Dean."
"So, can I walk you to class?"
"I would love that." he said with a smile. I smiled back at him. When he bent down to get his bag he flinched and put a hand on his side. I bent down, grabbed his bag and handed it to him. He gave me a thankful smile and then we walked off to his first class.
Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all I want
POV: Castiel
Stupid, stupid, stupid! Why did you let him walk you to class? Are you that dumb? Wow Castiel just wow. I berated myself all through my first class. I was walking to my third period when I ran into Alistair in the hallway.
"Hey! It's Cassie!"
"Fuck off Alistair!"
"Shut up! I didn't tell you that you could talk!"
"You don't tell me when I can talk."
"Yes I do!" he said getting in my face.
"Back off!" he laughed in my face and slammed me backwards. I stumbled to catch my balance.
"You need to shut up! Or you might turn someone else gay!"
"I didn't turn him gay!" I yelled in his face. He slammed both hands in to my shoulder and I stumbled backwards again. I almost had my balance when I took that one more step backwards- that I need to regain it- and I found there was nothing there. My breath caught in my throat in fear and then I started to fall down the stairs.
I sat at the bottom of the stairs in a LOT of pain. Everything was throbbing and my head felt a little weird. Taking a breath I heaved myself off the ground on to shaky legs. Steadying myself on the wall I walked off to my next class.
I was walking to meet Dean for lunch at the entrance to the library where we had agreed to meet the day before. When Alistair interrupted me. He, Raphael, and Azazel cornered me. Each one took a turn punching me in the ribs before they walked off .Breathing heavily I stumbled into the boys bathroom that I was near. God I don't know what I would do with out theses. I looked at my reflection in the mirror to see that I had gained a black eye from my lovely trip down the stairs, my face was stand from tears. I sat down on the floor and leaned against a wall. Pulling my sweatshirts sleeves down over my finger tips I pressed the palm of my hands in to my eyes. My whole freaking body hurt, and all I felt like doing was going to sleep and never waking up.
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me
POV: Dean
I was at my locker taking out the books I need for my next class when a blond haired girl skipped up to me.
"Hello, I'm Jo, I'm in your math class."
"Hey, I'm Dean," I said offering her a hand. She shook it with a surprisingly strong grip.
"I have been waiting for someone to tell Ms. Naomi off for god knows how long!"
"Well I'm glad I could do that for you." I said with a wink.
"Hey, you should come sit with me and my friends at lunch!"
"I would love to but I already have plans."
"Okay, well if they don't work out then just come find us!" she said with a pleasant little smile and then skipped away again.
I waited for Castiel for fifteen minutes before I gave up and started to walk towards the cafeteria. I don't know what this guys problem was but I was kinda tired of his constant mood swings. Like one minute he was happy and talking and the next he was no where to be found. When I walked into the cafeteria Jo spotted me and waved me over.
"Hey." I said with a smile.
"Hi, did your plans not work out." I shrugged, "Guess so."
"Hey guys, this is Dean, he's in my math class. He's the one I was telling you about. The one that stood up to Ms. Naomi. Dean this is Ash, Charlie, Chuck, Keven, Adam, and Pam." They all briefly acknowledge my presents before they went back to their heated discussion about harry potter.
After lunch I had a little time so I decided to walk around. I past one of the boys bathrooms and decided to make a quick pit stop before I head to my next class. When I walked into the bathroom I was greeted with a surprising sight. Castiel was about as small as a person could get tucked into a corner of the bathroom crying. I didn't know what to do, I mean I barely know this guy, I met him yesterday! I could just shut the door and pretend that I didn't see him but something about that just felt wrong. So instead I walked over to him, knelt down in front of him and but a comforting hand on his shoulder. He jumped and looked up surprised.
I was shocked when he looked up and his eye's were even bluer- I mean how I was that even possible- and then my eyes landed on the black bruise that I could tell was still developing.
"What the hell happened to you?"
"Please don't yell, headache."
"Yeah, alright., Come on Cas lets get you out of here."
"Cas?" he questioned my use of a nick name.
"Come on man don't make me say you whole name all the time. It's freaking long and hard to say!" I said with a smile.
"No, I like it!" He smiled up at me. I took his hand and pulled him to his feet. He lost his balance and fell forwards into my chest. "I think I'm just going to stay here for a sec." he mumbled pressing his face into my neck. I gave a nervous chuckle but put a hand on his back and rub my hand in soothing patterns. When he stood up on his own I immediately found myself missing his body being so close to mine. "Come on." I said taking his hand.
"Where are we going?"
"To my house. You need to rest."
"But class." He argued pathetically,
"We can go another day. Right now I don't think you would make it through class. And our next one is chem and it could be pretty dangerous to fall asleep in chem."
"True."
"To my house it is?'
"Yeah, sounds good." He said with a smile. I pulled him forward by the hand, when he stumbled I put an arm around his shoulders and pulled him tight to me. We walked out to the impala and I drove us back to my house with Cas mostly asleep on my shoulder yet tears were still falling.