That night I dream about going in to the capitol, I dream about killing Snow. I see the deathly look he always has, I see but i don't see it. I see it for too long I try to get the ugly wrinkled face out of my head. Then the face gives me a terrifying grin, he puts a finger to his lips. Then the image changes, I see a long bony finger pressing down on the trigger of a gun, then I remember, it's the gun that killed Katniss. I hear a loud, ear-splitting bang, the gun. I then see her body fall into my arms. With not enough energy to hold her up I fall to my feet with her in my arms, I feel around for a pulse, nothing. Then I see it. the blood on her mockingjay costume. The blood on her heart. The blood seeps through the clothing. I know she's gone but I try to fix her anyway, I try my utter best to get her heart pumping blood through her body, to get her heart pumping life. I finally wake with a start and I am once again in my room, I put a hand to my head I'm boiling. I try to go back to sleep, and I do. This time I dream about Katniss and her rosy red cheeks always full of glow and life, I dream about her singing in the woods her voice reminding me how to live a life full of happiness no matter what obstacles get thrown at you, I dream about her and Peeta holding out the poisonous berries ready to take them, in real life she doesn't and Ceacer Flickerman stops them, he saves them, but in my head she slips them into her mouth and so does Peeta and they both fall to the ground in the arena. In my head there is no 75th hunger games, in my head there is no victor for the 74th hunger game as all of them are dead!
When I wake up, I push the bad dreams to the back of my head ready to start a new fresh day. I get dressed and I head toward the meeting room we were all in yesterday. I bump in to the woman with glasses and thick brown hair. Now when I see her standing up she is beautifully tall.
"Hello" she says with a grin
"hi" i say
"I don't believe we have met" she says again
"no, i am Primrose" i mutter with my limp hand sticking out to her when i see my hand i see it's small and bony. I must have lost a lot of weight.
" my name is Wight, Nessie Wight, but you can call me Nessie if you like" I smile at her. why is everyone being nice to me?
" I know you" she says " you're Primrose Everdeen the Primrose Everdeen sister of the Katniss Everdeen" she continues . I just nod
In the afternoon I venture out in to the woods. Nobody knows I'm there but it doesn't matter because everyone thinks I retire to my room and lock my door from the inside. I do. Then I climb out the back window which I always leave open then when I come back, I climb through the same window and unlock my door and head downstairs for lunch.
I finally shifted the lock in place so I nobody comes in. I climbed out the tiny opened window and venture out into the open. I sneak past the soldiers and people taking their exercise and run for all I'm worth to the woods that surround district 13. I've started to come here a lot since we came back from the capitol. I can see what Katniss saw in it! How peaceful it is, how the thick blanket of green feels soft and luxurious under my bare feet. How nothing can disturb you in a place so quite and tranquil. I love how the trees tower above the place and how they look down on us-me, as if nothing in the world will ever steal their glory and proud ness from such a height. Everything here is so different from 13 yet so close. I sit on a hollow log and wait for... what? A miracle? I don't know but I sit and wait for something to happen, and it does slowly I see small animals retire from their nests and dens. Bunnies, squirrels, foxes, voles, deer all sorts come out to admire the newcomer and yet i still ate them. back in 12 I ate them every single solitary day. I guess I hadn't seen them. Alive that is. I hadn't seen them how they are, all mysterious and wild. I ate them, I feel sick at the thought I put a hand to my belly and it makes a horrid growling noise. I missed dinner. Then it happened, it happened so fast that if you blinked you'd miss it, the animals ran, actually it was more like they flew back to where they came from. It made me jump a little. I surely wasn't expecting that but i made sure that I tresured the moments that they were here. Those special moments when she was here. Katniss. A skyblue butterfly lands on my shoulder so similar in colour to the sky that I thought part of the sky had landed on me but then it took of before I relised it was there. With no warning. When the gun went off before i knew it was there. With no warning!