A/N: Wow, I'm so surprised at the number of reviews I've got! 6 and it's only been like a couple days! Thank you, thank you! And no, Light will not be Kira, it doesn't tie in with the story, sorry! So I guess it AU? Uh, and OOC... I'm sorry. If I was to make them exactly in character, than there wouldn't be a point to fanfics! Oh and MattxMello, Near/Mello/Matt/Light sibling relationship.
It's my birthday~ Please leave a review, for me?
This is to the people who got injured/killed in the earthquake and tsunami in Japan.
Poll! Should L and Light get back together? And How?
Essence- Reality
Light's eyes turned rock hard, the tears falling, but before Misa or L could see, he sped out the door. L stared at the door that just sounded and sighed, running his pale fingers through his sticky with sweat hair. He felt a strange pulling at his heart, guilt he presumed. It was kind of ironic, he made a living getting other people into justice and making them feeling guilty, but now he was the guilty one.
He stared at Misa for a second, "Misa, I'll call you later, please exit this apartment." L said to her, knowing that he most likely won't be calling Misa.
Misa grinned brightly, "O-kay L-kun! Misa-Misa will wait for you to call, and don't feel guilty for the gay scum! He totally deserved it!"
L nodded his usual nod, but you couldn't really tell, because his chin was tucked all the way into his neck, slouching as usual. He ushered Misa out and closed the door, sliding down the wall as he did so.
He made Light cry. Really cry. And this was Light, Mr. I'm-so-buff-that-no-one-could-get-to-me Light. He never shows weakness, ever. So why did he cry? Was it just an act? No, that can't be possibe, he said he loved him. Unless he was lying...
L thought hard. The heart was a really intriguing thing. It is able to love to such a passion that no one other than the person who owns the heart could comprehend, yet it could hate with such a fiery vigor, that one would think the heart wasn't capable to love.
The heart makes you do things you wouldn't have done, say things you wouldn't have said whether it was for the good or for the worst. What L wouldn't give to read other people's heart.
The ringing of his cellphone shook him from his thoughts, he checked the caller ID, seeing it was from 'Restricted' told him it was from Wammy's.
"Hello?" He asked, pressing the phone to his ear as hard as he could, because he was holding it the way he usually did, at the tip using just his thumb and index finger.
"Hi L-I mean Ryuzaki." A familiar voice corrected.
"Mello?" L asked, surprised.
"The one and only, dearie." Mello drawled, "Anyways, me, Matt and Near are coming over. Crashing at Light's partment'."
L's eyes widened considerably, to the point where most people would consider creepy, "Matt, Near and I, Mello." He corrected, unable to help himself. He practically heard Mello rolling his eyes.
"As if I give. And to answer your question to why because I know you want to know." Mello said, "Matty-a faint 'DON'T CALL ME THAT' echoed from the background, anyways Matt wants to go to Japan, PMSing or something. And me and Near want to visit Light, haven't seen my big bro in a while."
L half smiled. "Okay, so are you helping on the Kira case?" He asked even though he knew the answer.
"No." Came the reply, and L did a double take.
"What. Do. You. Mean. No?" L ground out uncharacteristically. What did he mean no? That should be the only reason they were coming anyways!
"Because, ME, Matt and Near are already helping out Light, he called us a while ago and we've been helping him. So we've got no time between helping him, hanging out and what not." He waved the topic off.
"Still, why aren't you helping? This is probably the only case that I can't do on my own, and yet you say no? Mello-kun."
"Oh, stop getting so adapted to Japan, and don't refer to me as a little kid, please. Light may let you get away with it, but I wont." Mello evaded the question.
"Fine. Mello, the question?" L asked
"Erg, because." Mello paused thinking, "I trust Light." He said bluntly.
L blinked. "What does that have to do with anything?"
"You know for the world's greatest detective, your pretty dumb."
"Three greatest, thank you very much. Now, the question?" L felt like he's been asking that a lot these days.
"Because, Light is your biggest suspect. And your dating him. Need I say more?" Mello's voice rang in L's ear.
"Are you implying that I don't trust Light?"
"It's more than implying."
" So, what are you helping him with?" He asked trying to change the subjesct, not able to say Light just yet.
"Strictly confidential." Mello replied, "Besides, if Light didn't tell you and you two are practically married, what makes you think I would?"
L swallowed hard, he was going to find out either way. "Okay fine, when are you coming?"
"Now. I'm on the plane." He bluntly replied.
"What? Already? Why didn't you call me sooner?" L asked, Mello, Near and Matt told him everything!
"Hm, Oh, gotta go. Landing. See ya tomorrow, Ryuzaki." The blond with the 80's flapper cut responded distractedly. Probably thinking of making out with Matt.
There came the click.
L sighed again. He closed the phone, closed his eyes, wishing he could just sleep. Do something to get himself away from the cruel reality of life. He banged his head against the wall repeatedly.
Light ran as fast as he could out of that apartment, his tears blurring his sight. He ran across multiple streets, ignoring the squeal of tires as they stopped as to not run him over.
He slammed the door to his apartment close as he flopped onto his bed crying, burying his face in his pillow that smelled like L. His life. His love. His heart. His everything.
It was suffocating him, the reality that L did cheat on him. He did want Misa, not even that she forced herself on him. He started sobbing again, it felt as though the seams of his entire existence was slowly being ripped apart molecule by molecule. All the happiness, all the emotion he felt with L the last few months, was like a good dream. Once you wake up, reality washes over you, and you're once back into your depressed, empty and boring life.
He hiccuped quietly, sitting up. He felt a spark of emotion. It felt like he wanted to give up. The pain was too much. In other words... Die. L was his one true happiness, the person who taught him to love, proved to really dislike him, going behind his back. He didn't really, really need to die, he just felt like he was already dead. He still had a reason to live. The fact that he had family and a couple of friends to live for, was more than a little heart warming.
Light opened his laptop, feeling hollow. He's been taking on cases under an alias as to if L was ever to find out. The only reason he even started doing this was because he felt that if L gets a secret life, stuff he could hide from him, then so should he.
He did this happily, taking on cases that L turns down, because it wasn't 'interesting' enough. It felt good to take on cases, bringing justice to criminals, helping the greater good and all that.
That let Light to think about Kira. He knew it was wrong, a sin. It was the lowest of the low, thinking you're god, passing judgement on people who might be doing things for reasons you didn't know. Only god can read people's hearts, and it was ridiculous how a puny human mortal would ever be capable of that. It was blaspheme, what it was.
That's why it hurt so much when L considers him Kira. He would never consider himself anything near god-like. He thought he deserved to burn in hell for all the wrongs he committed in his life.
He scanned the files of requests he received, noticing none very urgent. He sighed and closed the laptop, ready to go take a five hour long nap.
But, Sayu barged in, scaring Light so much that he actually jumped.
"Okay, dear ray of Light. Spit it out," Sayu demanded, "I know there's something wrong."
"What are you talking about Sayu?" Light asked passively, praying to Kami his tears dried up.
"Don't give me that!" She growled, raising a manicured hand.
"Argghhh..." The older sibling groaned, burying his head in his pillow.
"Shut up and tell me what's wrong. I know there is. Sister-brother connection and all that."
"I can't shut up and tell you something. One or the other, dear little sister." Light's muffled voice came.
"Aye! You know what I mean, smart aleck." Sayu tugged the pillow off her ni-san's face.
"Fine what do you want?" Light asked mildly.
The shorter of the two squinted at him. "Oh my Kami. You've been crying."
"N-No. I've not." Light said as silky and innocent as he could.
"Yes! It's all stained around the edges and everything!" Sayu accused.
"Are, okay I've been crying." Light admitted quietly.
"Why?" The high school girl asked, "My ni-san never cries."
"Okay, okay. I'll tell you." Light paused, "L was cheating on me."
Sayu's eyes widened comically, and a vein in her head popped. "He. What?" She growled.
"Cheated on me..." Light sniffed a little, and grabbed the pillow Sayu was almost tearing apart and used it to hide his almost-leaking-out tears.
"Oh, Light." Sayu said sympathetically, hugging him to her chest.
And that's how they stayed for the remainder of the day. Together, as Sayu tried to comfort her big brother to the best of her ability, secretly forming plans to get the insomniac detective back.
Until the phone rang. Light pulled it out of his jean pocket, "Hello?"
"Hey, Light-o."
"Mello?" the Japanese boy asked, already knowing the answer.
"Of course it's me! Jesus!" Mello said, feeling the strange sensation of Déjà vu as he remembered his recent conversation with L.
"Sorry, sorry. Kind of surprising though." Light apologized.
"Yeah, yeah. Oh by the way, we're coming up to your apartment right now." Mello said passively.
"What!"
"Yeah. We're crashing at your place. Helping with the case and all. You said so remember..." Mello said.
"Oh yeah, right. Life's been hectic so I've forgotten." Light laughs a little.
"Kay 'Kay Light, we have to go to the HQ soon though. See you in a bit. Peace out for now." Mello said, then hung up.
What? I have to go to the HQ? To see L? ARGGHHH! Why does Kami hate me? Light asked himself as he looked up at the ceiling.
"What's up?" Sayu asked.
"Mello and the boys are crashing at my apartment. They'll be up-" Light was cut off by the doorbell. "Now." He finished as he got up to open the door. He rubbed his eyes to hide the tear induced blotchiness.
He opened the wooden door, and laughed at the pose the genius children were making. Matt was playing his PSP quietly, Near was in his L-like pose and Mello. Er, Mello was striking a supermodel pose, leaning against the frame of the door.
He ushered them in. "Hello, guys." He grinned.
"Hey-o Light-o." was Mello's reply.
"Yo." Came from Matt.
"Hi." Left Near's childlike lips.
A/n 2: Okay, so I'd put this in AN 1 but then you'd know what was coming. Lol. I hope this lives up to your expectations, and yes I have a reason for making the boys come. Mwahahaa. You'll see. You'll all see~
Anyways, see you next update!
-Friendship is like peeing yourself. Everyone can see it, but you're the only person who feels the warm fuzzy feeling.-