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The engine sound was decreasing. And as Olivia looked outside the window, she could see the turbofan engine running slower and slower. Meanwhile it was almost like the plane was making a right turn, with a bit of banking.

The flight attendants, who were still handing out meal at the end of the aisle, had to lean on the back of the seats to keep themselves from losing balance.

As a detective, Olivia sure had quick thinking. She tightened the seatbelt on her waist before glancing to the boy. Only to realize Thomas must have unfastened them sometime during her sleep. She reached down and get Thomas' seatbelt done.

"Hey the seatbelt sign is off! I don't have to be tied to the seat!"

"But…

Before Olivia even got a word out, the plane began its free fall.

All those who weren't strapped down by their seat belts bounced up to the roof. And if you ask Olivia to describe that moment, she would tell you that people were like popcorn, they just popped up.

Food was flying around, not that anyone cared. So did trays and the heavy food cart. A woman screamed as the cart hit her.

The overhead lockers couldn't take the pressure and they opened one by one. Suitcases, duffel bags, shopping bags fall out and hit everywhere, making loud sounds, like a thousand small bombs blowing up at the same time.

The flight attendants, who were had nothing to hold on to, were simply flying around.

It's like the first downhill of a huge roller coaster, just rushing down and down.

Some were screaming at the top of their lungs, some were simply quiet. And Olivia could hear, which she later would find funny actually, was the group of Italian tourists a few rows behind, shouting "Mama Mia!"

Olivia had no idea how long had it been since their falling down, and how much height they still have before hitting the ground, hard. Her ears were hurting like hell because of the sudden air pressure change as if they were about to explode. Thomas was screaming with tears, but Olivia was not in the shape to comfort him. A, she's terrified. B, a million things were going through her mind.

Her life, was it going to be over so soon? There were so many things she hadn't yet accomplished. She hadn't tried skydiving. She hadn't been to Paris. And she hadn't had a family, which she wanted so badly.

There were so many people she would want to say goodbye to. Her best friend Casey, Cragen who was like father to her, Fin who was a big brother to her, Munch who had always made her smile, and Alex, her 'dead" friend. And of course, Elliot.

No doubt he would be sad if she died. But would it be like losing a partner and friend or would it be more than that? She realized she would probably never find out.

Maybe after all those weird thoughts she had earlier, the plane was to crash and she was to die. And there wouldn't be any kind of goodbye. Probably no remains of her would even be found as they are falling from 38000 feet high.

The huge G force was pushing everything upwards. People and stuff were still flying around. The plane was spinning and falling, fast.

She couldn't get a pen out and write a note. Not that a piece of paper can possibly survive the crash anyway.

Goodbye, Elliot. She said that in her mind.

Meanwhile in the cockpit, the pilots sure had their hands full.

"My ADI is malfunctioning!" said the captain. The equipment is showing that the plane is upside down and plunging towards the ground with a bank angle that kept changing. That couldn't be right.

"Same with mine and the backup one." That was the first officer.

They both know they are in big trouble. Without ADIs they wouldn't know the position of the plane. And as they were in thick cloud, they would have no chance of knowing where the horizon was.

They pulled hard on the control columns but the plane was not responding at all. It's a competition between two human beings and a 60 ton machine and it seemed the giant plane was winning.

They could hear the air traffic controller asking through the radio, "United 1149, you are now at flight level 31 and descending, please confirm your altitude and flight plan." But the pilots had no time to answer; they were more focused on controlling the plane.

"Restart the engines!" shouted the captain.

"Yes sir."

The whole disaster started when engine No.1 lost thrust. And then it lost more. And then it fully stopped. That's why the plane was banking at first, one engine was working and one wasn't.

What surprised the pilots was that when they disengaged the autopilot, the plane went into a downward spiral.

And to make matters worse, the left engine flamed out soon after.

Until, "Engine No.2 reignited." Said the first officer. There was a bit of joy in his voice. Power, that's what you need to fly.

The captain pushed hard on the rudder panel with his foot and pulled back on yoke harder. With some engine power, the plane is responding.

"Maximum power!"

All of a sudden the plane leveled up, accelerating.

Everyone could feel the attitude of the plane change as the G force changes its direction and pushed people onto their seats. Later reports would show that everyone withstood more than 5G that moment, more than fresh astronaut trainees can take.

Being able to tell up and down was not a good thing at this moment. Olivia was too nervous to throw up. She could hear one engine running, only one of them.

Her mind was running so fast. It was playing a movie to her, a movie of her life. From her childhood, drank mother and no father; to her SVU career, with Elliot. She could see all those small yet important moments in her life, almost killing her mother, graduation from the police academy, first time meeting Elliot Stabler, and Gitano.

How did she manage to deny the fact that she loved him for so long? She remember asking "what about me?" And he said, which broke her heart, "We both chose each other over the job. I'll never let that happen again. Otherwise, we can't be partners."

She didn't pull the trigger. She would never have done that. She would choose Elliot Stabler over the job anytime, in a heartbeat.

He chose her over the boy that day. In his mind he chose Olivia over the job himself. But does that count as love? Well she would never know, would she?

Olivia almost laughed at herself. Why did that even matter anymore? She might die any second and she was still thinking about him loving her or not? How ridiculous! And yet it's sad.

Let's pretend he loves me. She thought.

Maybe, thinking of a good thing when heading towards death was not as scary.

Just as sudden as last time, another free fall began.

Everything and everybody that had been pinned on the floor by the G force bounced up again, hitting the roof and stayed there.

This time the plane was spinning clockwise less, but still rotating and heading towards the ground.

You could feel the speed increasing, but the view outside the window was still pure white cloud.

Olivia was amazed when she realized that people was much quieter this time, before she came to notice that she couldn't hear a thing because of the pain in her ear and the enormous sound the plane was making. The sound she had never heard from a plane before, as if car accident after car accident right in front of her face. It sounded like metal ripping apart and hitting each other.

Inside the cockpit, once again the captain was pulling back the stick. Only this time, the first officer was shouting inside the microphone, "Mayday! Mayday! Mayday! This is United 1149, we are going down."

As if to make things worse, a warning light came to life. The captain's voice was desperate when he said "we lost hydraulic system No.3."

They both glanced down at the panel, just to see what they know for sure. The plane was going down so fast that it exceeded what the plane was built to stand. The plane was being ripped apart by the huge force created by its own speed.

As if from afar, Olivia could hear a young boy's voice, asking with pure fear, "Are we going to die?"

She swallowed hard. And without thinking she chose to lie, "No."

A few seconds later, she whispered, "Yes, we are going to die, soon."

IMPORTANT NOTE:

The accident is based on the crash landing actress Diane Neal (who played ADA Casey Novak in SVU) experienced herself as she mentioned in a radio interview in 2011. No specific information had I found about this accident as she probably remember at least one of the followings wrong: A) the year it happened; B) the airline; C) if it's an American-built aircraft; D)the fatality number; E) the location. As a result of not being able to find information (on the NTSB site or other popular civil aviation online databases), I had to borrow some of the story from China Airlines Flight 006, based on the Air Crash Investigation episode about it.

If you are feeling uncomfortable and not trusting air travel after reading this, I recommend you stop reading and remember that aviation is only becoming safer and safer and that airplane is almost 1000 times less likely to take your life than cars. Statically speaking, you need to be flying 5 times a day for 2000 years to get killed in a crash. And even though there are times pilot error cause accidents, this industry learns from each single incident. What caused a crash long time ago had been made sure that it wouldn't happen again.

Send me a private message or review if you still feel scared about planes and as a fan of civil aviation, I'd be happy to answer any questions.

Please note I have nothing against United Airlines or this flight route or this aircraft. It's just a fic.

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