Being pregnant at 18 wasn't exactly what I had planned for my life but hey life doesn't always turn out the way you plan it now does it. What would be the fun in that?

It seems my pregnancy had opened my eyes in a way I was no longer in a funk I a gained a new prespective, yes Edward left me but I knew why he did albeit the reasons were stupid and absurd but I understood.

Charlie decided (after recovering from his shock and a long discussion) to pull me out of the school in Forks and through his connections with Billy got me enrolled at the school in La Push and because Forks is slightly ahead as far as carriculum goes I'll be taking some college curses online to help fill the gaps being ahead put into my schedule.

To help qualm any rumers Charlie had put it out there that continuing to stay in Forks high with the constant reminder of the Cullens absence was more harmful then helpful as his reasons for putting me in the Rez school. So far it seemed to be working at least news of me being pregnant hadn't spread like wildfire yet but in truth it was only a matter of time.

Jake was a big help and I was quickly starting to return to normal, well as normal as you can get after being dumped by a vampire.

Jake and I often hung out after school doing homework or me watching while he worked on his car the days turned to weeks and I found my self smiling more and laughing at the antics of Jake and his 2 best friends Embry and Quil, I had overheard the two of them talking about how Jake had a crush on me, this I had known but I was hoping the fact that I was pregnant with another guys kid would have extinguished that flame but I guess not. I needed to find a way to let him down easy something I was having a hard time with never really having had this problem before.

Spending time with Jake was helping, he was my best friend as selfish as I was I needed him

January came all too soon and I found myself in Dr. Green's office with Sue clearwater by my side, it would be my mom but Charlie and I had yet to buck up the courage to tell her and we both knew she would just drag my ass to Florida the moment we did. I needed to stay in Forks for myself and my baby as hard as it was being here I needed to stay.

The nurse called me in and did my vitals then checked the heartbeat she got a funny look on her face when she finally got it but I chaulked it up to me being pregnant in high school.

Dr. green came in then and sent the nurse off for something then he sat down in front of me, "Well Bella It looks like your about 20 weeks along which is when I like to do the first ultrasound, I typicallly just take mesurments of the baby which is what I'm going to do but the Nurse detected sommething with the Dopler which I want to check out." he explained everything clearly and I just nodded along I trusted him to tell me if anything was seriously wrong and he didn't seemed overly concerned just curious and in all honesty it kinda made me curious as well.

Twins, god saying it again in my head or out loud wasnt all that better I was still reeling when I got home and told Charlie. He had been just as shocked as me but when that wore off excitement replaced it followed by a serious talk about it being time to tell Renee. I agreed and after talking for awhile we agreed on an Email, it was the solution with the least amount of concequences.

Mom,

You will most likely hate me for how this news is coming to you but Charlie and I both thought it best that it be this way. before making any rash decisions please read all of this email and understand what I have decided.

I'm pregnant and I now you might think me irrisponsible but hear me out. Edward is the father and the only reason we didn't use pretection was because he was told he wouldn't be able to get someone pregnant. and before you go assuming yes I'm sure it's him he is the only guy I have been with in any way plus I was a virgin before being with him so I'm pretty darn sure.

I'm staying in Forks with Charlie he wants to help don't try and change my mind please for my sake just trust that I know what I'm doing. Staying is what I need to do for me and the Babies, yeah TWINS!

I'm not staying because I think he will come back, admitedly I did at first but now I'm resigned to knowing he isn't. Edward Loved me Mom so please dont think he knew about this and just left I promise you that is 100% not the case He had no Choice but to leave and i didn't find out till months after he left. I'm trying to get ahold of him Via his sister who I'm sure by now has all but kicked him in the ass for leaving me in the first place.

I'm good here with Charlie and I want you involved if you want to be but like i said I need to be here, and I promise I'm okay.

Love Bella