I was having another nightmare….
I remember… It was all slowly shifting into place, nonsense coming into some shape of reality.
A couple days after Itachi had taken me in and explained things to me about "us" being vampires in all. He though I should at least know the basics to being a vampire. After all, it was the least he could do. He handed me some me food. It was some soup, chicken noodle my favourite. I scooped some into my mouth, bite after bite. But I was soon puzzled. I looked up to Itachi and he seemed to understand completely. A slow, but timid smiled played on his lips. His eyes starring right at me, but I could tell this thing he wanted to tell me, was something he wish he didn't have to. "Sakura," he coughed, breaking the tension, "While having strength and better vision, and all maybe cool, like a superhero, there is one thing." His eyes focused on the soup in my hand, "Human food isn't what we eat, we have to drink…blood."
My eyes began watering the soup in my hand exploded, the bowl shattering. I broke it with my strength. I was a cowered, "B-blood?" I seemed unsure if I could do this. Could I live drinking blood?
I stared screaming, I wasn't really sure when It started or when I had stop. But Itachi remained there, at my side. His hand slowly reached out in comfort, he began stroking my hair and soon, I just laid there, sobbing and hiccupping into the night.
Blood.
.
.
.
Dark red Blood.
.
Blood. It was everywhere in my mind. I couldn't get it out. Was I hungry?
.
It reminded me of the pool of blood my lifeless father was laying in, I remember, my eerie mom, hysterically calling his name into the night. Talking to him as if everything was okay, that he was alive and that I hadn't become a monster and we lived happily ever after. But, it wasn't, she was just there stroking his pale, white, lifeless face and looking into his glassy eyes. She was utterly terrified, probably a little insane too. I couldn't blame her for hating me. What I did, was something you could never fix.
Blood meant death.
Blood always meant death was near.
A death that I had created, so easily.
And like any young child. I asked, if I could see if my mother was alright. I believed in happily every after, I mean I was just five years old. I believed in all those fairy tales where everything worked out in the end. And maybe, just maybe, if I believed hard enough, my mom and my dad would be alright and we'd be okay, we would have our happily ever after. That I could drink some potion, and turn back into a human, that I could recite some spell and my dad would awaken. My dad would not be dead, on the ground, my mom would not be mourning over a great lost, and I would not have become a monster that she feared and despised. But, reality was a cruel thing…or as most would say, a real bitch.
Itachi, at first, he refused the idea. He said seeing your family after you turned, only makes things harder. But, I was young and he gave in to me after I pleaded and pleaded. After all, it was just my mother; I had only asked to make sure she was alright. I was worried.
We left at nightfall, Itachi leading the way, running through the forest with ease, me trying to keep up. It took up only a couple hours, and after a few minutes Itachi had carried me the rest of the way to get there faster. I was a little to knew to the whole running faster thing, and I fell a lot, it was hard to get used too.
I saw it. My house.
Home sweet home…I smiled brightly. As we got closer to the house, it seemed odd. It wasn't the same.
It looked dark and empty.
Itachi let my down from his grasps and I walked over to the window and peered Inside, I saw nothing. And I mean, Nothing – no furniture no carpet, no pictures. Everything was gone.
Where was she? Where was my mom? Was she gone? Did she leave?
this was our home, why would she leave?
I walked over to the door and knocked on it.
Knock,
Knock
Knock.
With every second that past, my heart beat faster. But when I heard no sound of someone coming to greet me, when I heard the absolute sound of complete, I knew no one was going to open the door. So I proceeded forward.
I opened the door; it wasn't locked and I walked inside. "Mom?" I whispered into the night
I froze just in the door way, I had a clear view of the living room, and that room was were it had all happened, and it was right in view. The blood, the body, and my mother, it was all gone. It was to be expected 3 or more days had past, I wasn't even sure anymore. I had not kept count.
I took a left, and walked up the stair case to my mothers room the door slightly ajar. I peered in it, and in a rocking chair, there was a person, rocking back and forth, gazing out the window.
The person was wearing a white night gown, my nose picked up a horrible smell of something decaying.
I walked closer my mouth becoming dryer as I decided to utter,
"Mommy?" as my little hand extended to touch her shoulder.
She didn't move, she didn't answer. She was asleep. I sighed, she was alright.
I was about to walked away, when her hand tightly gripped my wrist. Her eyes snapped opened.
"YOU" she snarled I winced in pain, shutting my eyes for a moment.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" she was up now, standing before me, starring down at me with cold eyes. "GET OUT" at least she could look me in the eyes, even if it was with pure hate.
I'll take your hate and
accept it as love.
"I'm sorry." I sobbed, "I-I'm so sorry." I begged her to forgive me, pleading with all my heart to her.
"You killed the man that I loved." She said angrily, "It was the only thing I loved." She said as she slapped me hard across the face. Her hand print glowing red on my now red cheek, I flew to the ground from the impact, my eyes shaking, and tears flowing down my face rapidly...
What about me? .
Did you not love…me?
.
Of course not…
How silly of me...
No one could love a monster like me…
A monster like me… DO monster ever have a happily ever after?
DO I ?
My eyes turned red, filled with hate. My find was fuzzy, I was blinded by rage. Itachi had always said, young vampires have difficulty controlling there emotions.
I was a kid. I have been a vampire for a total of 72 hours or so, and I had no idea what I was doing, how to control anything. I didn't even understand what a monster really was.
I stood up, my red eyes and I had visible white fangs showing. She looked at me and flinched, cowering to the wall. The mood had dramatically changed.
"G-get away! Get AWAY FROM ME!" She hysterically yelled repeatedly at me. When her back reached the wall, she screamed and slid down the wall, slowing, screaming in fear, crying desperately for freedom.
"Monster, Monster, You ugly monster", she said while sobbing, her arms covering her head for defence.
Why would you think….I'd hurt you...
To be honest, I don't know what happened next; I was too out of control to remember, but, all I do know is, when I awoke. Itachi was holding me, cradling me back and forth.
I didn't know if he was comforting me, distracting me, or holding me back from causing any harm.
Later I had found out it, was for all three. I secretly knew that too a long time ago.
When opened my eyes, tears were still coming out of my eyes, I looked down, and my hands were stained red with blood, lots and lots of blood. I tried to scream but nothing came out.
"What happened?" I asked. Did I really want to know?
Itachi just looked at me, emotionless as always, "Your mother is gone…"
"What?" I cried. Everything is gone…why? I did not understand.
What have I done…? What have you done?
"Sakura...You didn't kill her."
I looked up,
"I did."
I never really asked Itachi if he was lying to protect me. But, either way I didn't care…It was all over.
My mother and Father were gone.
I was alone.
And deep down, I knew the monster inside me had taken their lives to feed on their precious blood. I hated the monster, it disgusted me. It always wanted to be fed. It always wanted red, red blood.
Blood Lust
"Why do I crave for something that's just so, forbidden?"
Well I can't
I wont.
Give in…
No matter how tempting...
[Chapter. No.2]
8:00 am, Chemistry first period.
I walked emotionally passed all the students to my class, my ears on high alert for any information pertaining to vampire attacks, blood, and killing- pretty much anything. The faster I could get out of this school the better. I knew; now that this class wouldn't be enjoyable, not anymore because of him.
When I sat down, I tried to solely focusing on the teacher's words and the subject at hand. Not looking at all to my right. It seemed to be working, I hadn't even smelt him but then again he could be late, and I wasn't taking my chance's with even looking to see if it was true. I would be in big trouble If I did.
When the class had 25 minutes left, the teacher let us work on our questions, I was almost done when I sniffed the air, and I smelt that intoxicating smell. I gulped focusing. How did it become so strong all of a sudden? I was too scared to know why. Did he inch his desk forward?
I can do this.
Try.
To.
Focus.
I didn't understand why one human was so overpowering, even if Itachi had said it was because we were attracted to them if this happened. I didn't believe so, it was probably for hunting purposes, and we hunted the human with the strongest scent. I had no idea what I was babbling about. I honestly didn't ever care to learn about our species. All I cared about was killing them. But why was I making up facts to reassure myself? Was I scared? Love is so normal. To like someone, that's normal too. But, can humans and vampires really be together?
No.
NO.
I just didn't understand why it had to be him. He wasn't ugly – that's for sure. But, it was something about him that made me uneasy. And one thing I wanted to know was why he was constantly late every morning. When I heard him sit down I knew his eyes were staring at me. I had that feeling his eyes were looking at me. It was aggravating as hell. But it would be even more unbearable. His hand touched my shoulder as he walked to his desk. Everything changed in that 2 second contact. A powerful wave of emotions came at me. I don't know if he felt anything too, but I just hoped he didn't. My hands gripped my desks, and I held in my breath.
"hnnn sorry." He apologized,
My body was tensing up; he was to close for comfort.
Get back
get
away
far away
Something came over me and all my hard work of not to look to my left, shattered. My eyes darted at him, giving him a rather annoyed look, he just gave me a charming look, his voice flowing perfectly, "May I borrow your notes?" he whispered.
In a fluid motion, I picked up my pink notebook handed it in his general direction. My hand was extended for 5 seconds before he grab the notebook, and muttered "thanks'"
I turned back trying to calm myself down. I was blushing, it was what I feared. What I didn't want to believe.
But when his hand touched my shoulder, I wanted nothing more than to pounce on his, and have his hands travel all around my naked body. How I wanted to feel his lips on mine. I wasn't sickened with myself in wanting that, but how I had literally forced myself to sit down and not do it in front of all these people.
I had to learn to deal with this; otherwise this could get bad, very fast. I had to learn to control my own urges. I looked, I tilted my head towards him, it's like he felt me starting at him, he turned his eyes staring at me, I gulped, and turned away. My mind was racing with images.
/ he looked over at me and smiled. I got up sat down on his lap; he smiled as his hands went to my back, and down my ass then both hands resting on my thighs, since my skirt was ridding up as I sat down, my lips pressing against his skin, kissing his cool neck. My fangs coming out, I looked up to him, and his smiled, pushing my head to his neck, he let out a grunt and then a peculiar sounds, a moan?/
My hand was pressed against the side of my skirt, I grabbed some on the material of the shirt in my hand balling it into a fist trying to resist the fantasy, but not noticing, that it was making my underwear slightly visible, and Sasuke who looked over to me, only smiled as he saw my red underwear.
/ he was urging me to continue and I couldn't stop, I bit him, licking and lapping up the blood with my tongue, and he just groaned in pleasure. I felt that he was hardening beneath me, after all I was sitting on him… my hands slowly crept down to his crotch and I started to unzip his zipper, and then/
"NO" I screamed at myself
I shook my head, trying to make the fantasy disappear; I had to get out of here, before I made this fantasy a reality.
The bell rang.
I bolted.
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And all I left behind was Sasuke and holding onto my notebook and that detailed picture in his mind of my blood red panties. I was not making this any easier for myself. That's for sure.
A/N:
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