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Chapter 2
What felt like the longest 15 minutes of her life, Jen sat nervously with her eyes fixed on Tilly. Sensing the glare, the redhead began to feel guilty. For the whole time she was on the coach she hadn't even glanced at her once, not made any form of eye contact, not spoken a single word. She was acting like she didn't exist, like the woman who occupied her thoughts and whom she based her every action around day in day out wasn't even sat within inches of her. Tilly wanted to show Jen how it felt, how she felt when she ignored her in classes, how she acted like she was no one when they passed in the halls at college, how she just dropped her whenever she felt like it saying she was a mistake. This time Tilly was in control although it was killing her to refrain from telling her how she truly felt and her state of despair because of how much she had really missed her. Jen was in utter shock; usually she had to keep telling Tilly to keep her distance, how can someone be so close but yet so far away? Her heart felt like it had exploded and shattered into a thousand pieces in her chest. She couldn't stand not getting the attention she secretly craved from the person she adored. Jen felt like she had lost her and that this was the end, she had messed it up letting her conscience get the better of her rather than using her head to try and get around the situation. Her heart was eventually winning the battle over her head allowing a stream of regret to flow through her mind. "The placement is only for a few weeks, I'm not going to be her teacher forever" "I should have trusted her; she has only a year left in college until people would understand our situation". Over thinking things as usual, Jen now found herself drowning in sea of reasons why it would be okay to secretly see Tilly rather than why it would be so morally wrong...but was she too late?
"Why she still staring at me?" the read head thought now feeling even more uncomfortable not realising Jen had completely blanked out and was so caught up into her thoughts ,she didn't even realise she had been staring almost since she sat down . Tilly could see Jens hands moving towards her waist almost like she was holding herself back. Seeing her as insecure as this made Tilly's stomach drop. Jen was always so proud and confident and to show so obviously how she was feeling surprised her. Jen brought her hand to her mouth and bowed her head finally breaking the glare almost as if she was giving up. Tilly was now scared, had she frightened Jen too much? Suddenly she noticed Jen turn to her and part her lips slightly, Tilly panicked and turned to Maddie asking for her iPod. Grabbing the MP3 player she quickly put the earphones in her ears and turned the music up loudly to block out Jens voice. Jens eyes widened, her heart was thumping so hard against her chest she could almost hear it, closing her mouth feeling shocked and embarrassed she flung her head in the opposite direction and stared vacantly out of the window.
Jen was hurting more than anything she had experience ever before, she felt like someone was slowly tearing her heart out from her body. She couldn't take it anymore, wishing she could just stand up in front of this whole coach and declare her undying love towards the most amazing girl she has ever met that was sat before her. Wishing she could just reach out and put her arms around her, stare in adoration at her stunning face, and then lean into her and place a passionate kiss on her beautiful pastel pink lips. She dreamt of lying next to the teen sharing conversations about how rubbish their day had been and discussing their mutually shared passion of art. But no, even if she wanted to, it was too late Tilly didn't care anymore she thought. Beginning to completely break down thinking she'd lost the person who means more than anything, her eyes began to glaze over. All control over her emotions had evaded her and a tear fell down her face. Tilly noticed Jen quickly wipe it away with her hand realising she was crying. More tears ferociously began to fall from Jens eyes sliding down her soft cheeks. Tilly felt awful, a lump began to form in her throat, she couldn't hold herself back from Jen anymore.
Deciding that it was more painful causing the hurt rather than receiving it, she took the earphones out of her ears, sharply glancing round to see if anyone was looking before grabbing hold of Jens hand intertwining her fingers with hers using her thumb to softly stroke her palm a feeling that Jen once comforted her with on the day of the fire. Using her free hand to wipe the tears from Jens face, she guiltily gave into her. In almost a whisper, shakily Tilly began to apologise "I'm sorry Jen, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you like that I just wanted to see how it would feel not to have you in my life, to just walk away from you, to see if you actually cared and I've realised I can't..." Feeling instantly comforted by the feeling of the soft touch of Tilly's fingers on her face gave Jen butterflies, the pain rapidly draining from her, she found herself lost once again in a state of bliss feeling a massive sense of relief. Jen placed her finger on Tilly's lips in a shushing action cutting of her apology. She traced the outline of lips slowly then impatiently pulled the teen towards her. Breaking all her rules in one, Jen passionately placed a hard kiss on the redhead's lips. The way their tongues connected was unreal as Tilly felt Jens sweet breath come and go in her mouth becoming more erratic. Caressing her supple cheek, she lifted Tilly's chin slowly pulling away with their noses still touching when a shout from the back of the bus tore them away from the moment. "Were almost here guys, get all your things together were getting off soon, Miss Gilmore will you take your group off first please...Miss... Miss Gilmore!" Jen was still breathless from the dreamlike embrace she just shared with her student, tears still apparent on her face and having no time to allow her heart rate to slow she carelessly panted "Yes...yes of course Mr Keeler" desperately hoping that he or nobody else seen them or noticed their sheer state of lust...