Santana nodded to the music as she danced around her new apartment, she shared a room with Kurt which was not working out for obvious reasons, he had a lot of problems on her walking in on him naked. Or if she ran around nude. She figured it was okay since she was gay and so was he, not like they would jump each other. Santana was pretty happy in her new place. She liked working where she was working, she was a student at the local community college and was thinking of going to NYADA in the fall, but maybe not. Not to mention she had tapped Quinn Fabray, something her boyfriend's had been dying to do for all those years, Santana enjoyed the glory.

But whenever her life is going great, something needs to fuck it up. This time it was the one person she loved more than life itself, Brittany Susan Pierce. That hot blond dancer had danced her heart into pieces by flitting away before Santana even had the chance to realize that trouty mouth was all over that piece of ass. Brittany was smart, but Brittany was stupid. Brittany let Santana go, again, and Santana couldn't even comprehend the amount of hurt. The way Brittany had waved at Santana as she slow danced with Sam at the wedding that never happened, or the way when she was screwing Quinn, the blond hair reminded her of her ex.

Santana was aware that she had hurt Brittany plenty of times in the past by refusing to admit that what was happening between them was something more than just friendship, and now that was all she had. Santana loved having Brittany as her best friend but was pissed that it had to be because she lost her to Sam Evans.

"Santana, we need to talk." Kurt's voice rang out over the thoughts that pile drived her hot head.

"What K?" Santana turned around with a smile and turned the music down with the remote.

Kurt then proceeded to tell her new rules he had established for their room, Santana blocked him out and continued to think about her blond beauty that would never be hers again.

After she had lost her virginity to Noah Puckerman, Santana had cried. She had left his room while he was snoring, and ran out of the now empty house. She ran the only path she knew how to run, she ran to Brittany's house. She dug her cell phone out of her pocket, it took a few minutes because her jeans were to tight, and her hands were to clammy. Soon she had it out and was dialing the familiar number.

"Hello?" Said the sweetly innocent voice, Santana let out a loud cry and that was when the phone went dead and a few seconds later she felt someone crashing into her and long arms wrapping around her.

"I slept with him." Santana whispered, her eyes closed as tears poured out and Brittany lead her inside to the familiar bedroom.

"Who?" Brittany whispered as they sat down on the bed, Santana leaned heavily into Brittany.

"Noah." Santana said. Brittany stiffened slightly.

"Why? I thought we promised we would lose our virginities on the same night? I really don't want to go have sex with Puck too…" Brittany said in a distraught voice. Santana let out a laugh as she nuzzled Brittany's long neck.

"You don't have too…" Santana mumbled as she leaned into her best friend in a more then friendly way. The thought of how long she had admired Brittany was in her head as she leaned forward and took in the scent of the blond.

Years of being friends had lead to some tension, at least for Santana. She knew it wasn't normal to watch your best friend prance around in a small skirt or to watch your best friend get in the shower after cheerio's practice, and insist that she needed help washing her back…

Santana knew it was wrong, she felt wrong when she admired Brittany or when she felt like her world was on fire whenever Brittany smiled at her. She knew it was wrong and she slept with Puck to erase the thoughts of her best friend. But when he grunted and groaned on top of her, she just felt disgusted. She cringed away from his clammy lips and found out that it did indeed hurt to have someone take your virginity.

But it still lead her here, to her best friend's house, to this forbidden love that she knew was wrong. She also had this feeling that she would always have more feelings for the blond. It made her shudder.

But still, maybe because they were girls, they could just practice? She formed a pucker with her lips and pressed them softly to her friend's neck. Brittany stiffened again, but then turned her head down to Santana, "San what are you doing?"

"You said you wanted to lose it the same night as me." Santana whispered as she kissed along Brittany's neck, each kiss erasing Puck's grunts, her hands on the soft skin of Brittany's leg, roaming up until she reached the hem of the shorts Brittany had been wearing.

"Santana…" Brittany whispered in awe as she felt Santana's roaming tongue and hands.

"Please don't reject me," Santana whispered, her voice breaking on the please part. Brittany started to return the kisses.

"I have wanted this for so long…" they both whispered at the same time, after that they started to partake in the taking of Brittany's virginity.

It hurt her a lot. Like usual. It hurt to walk away after and say, "No B we aren't together, not here, because like we're friends." It hurt to see Brittany's eyes.

But she knew what her mother would say, she knew her abuela would get mad, and she knew that the loser Rachel Berry would be all over helping her. Even though nothing was wrong with the loser, she just dressed funny, she still couldn't stand being pitied by the glee club she had just joined. So she walked away from her best friend, leaving her alone, to cry on her own about how she had just lost her virginity to her best friend who did not care.

Santana shook herself from the memory and looked up to see she was alone on the couch in her new place, with her phone on Brittany's number, she hit the off button on her phone and got up to get dressed to look hot and go find a hot girl to distract her from the woman she loved.

A/N thanks for the reviews, I got reviews stating that this story seemed pro-bram, and as a writer I have to say that I have no idea where it will end up. Most likely brittana. Definitely not bram if that helps any, seriously even if you don't ship brittana, can you honestly picture bram together forever? So review if you want more, or pm me. I will reply to your reviews on this chapter if you do review : )