In this farewell,
There's no blood,
There's no alibi.
'Cause I've drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousand lies.

So let mercy come,
And wash away…

What I've Done.
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.

Put to rest,
What you thought of me.
While I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty.

So let mercy come,
And wash away…

What I've Done.
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.

For What I've Done

I start again,
And whatever pain may come.
Today this ends,
I'm forgiving what I've done.

I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.
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What I've done.

Forgiving What I've Done.
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Forgiving What I've Done

Time slowed down. There was nothing I could do to keep my mind off of her. I felt hollow, completely empty, I was only alive in the outside. I tried everything; hunting, running, reading anything I could get my hands on. Only hunting seemed to take my mind away from Bella, but only slightly. I hunted everything, anything I could find. I had decided that I would protect and love Bella from far away. I was going to love her always, no doubt, but protecting her was going to be harder. Victoria was out there. I was going to hunt her down the best I could, even though I wasn't a tracker, I would still do it, for Bella.

Alice was mad at me, that was for sure, in the car ride, she glowered out the window. It was just me and her in my Volvo. We were going to visit Denali, then I was going to part with my family, and track down Victoria. I glanced at Alice right at the moment her thoughts changed.

I really miss her.

That did it. I fought control so I wouldn't rip the steering wheel apart. The car found its way off the road…just a few inches from a tree, and I shoved the brakes down as hard as I would be able to without breaking it. Then I collapsed over the steering wheel. For once I wished I could feel tears fall from my eyes. Smelling them would remind me of Bella, and how whenever she was sad, I would brush her tears away with my lips, wrap my arms around her, and rest my cheek on her hair. Sometimes I would say calming things, tell her I love her, or even kiss her even though I would always hate myself afterward for putting her through that kind of danger. Instead of actually feeling tears, I cried tearless sobs.

Alice sat there next to me. Since vampires couldn't produce tears; from the small whimpers that sounded from her chest were her own tearless cries. I shoved my door open, and made my way through the forest at a human pace. I couldn't take it anymore.

Alice shouted behind me, "EDWARD! WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" She ran and stopped in front of me, her tiny little hands on my shoulders. She looked at me fiercely, shaking my shoulders a little she repeated herself. "Edward," She paused, gauging my probably agonized expression, "Where are you going?"

"I can't do it Alice, everything reminds me of, "I choked through another tearless cry, "h-her, I have to go, keep myself occupied. I am surprised I even made it this far."

Alice looked at me sadly, and then wrapped her little sticks of arms around my waste…That hurt a little, it reminded me of Bella, but I took the comfort willingly, knowing I needed it.

"Can't you just wait until we get to Denali? So you can say goodbye to everyone?" She whispered.

"No, it's hard enough already," I hugged my favorite sister tightly back; she buried her face in my chest and cried a little more. Then she pulled away a little, and looked up at me. She looked like a small child. Of all my siblings, I would miss her the most. We always had a better bond then all the others sibling-wise.

I sat down on a fern, and invited her to sit next to me. She sat down, and crossed her legs. We talked for a while. About our plans, how we were going to pass the time. It seemed like hours, and everyone was probably already to Denali, but we just sat, and talked, until there was only one thing we could talk about, and neither of us wanted to go there.

I sprang lightly from the fern and turned to look at Alice. My sister looked at me with pleading eyes, and then nodded. "It's getting late," I said, "The others are probably worried. I better get going. The keys are in the ignition."

Alice stood, and hugged me tight. I hugged her back. Any shred of affection reminded me of her… But I didn't want to hurt Alice. "Miss you," She said. Her voice broke.

"I'll check back in once in a while. I'll only be gone for a couple months… A year at the most," I tried to muster up a smile. I settled for lifting one corner of my mouth, and laboring for it to make it to my eyes.

"Love you, brother," She said.

"Love you, sister," I replied.

She looked at me for half a second, then ran back to the car, I heard the engine gun to life, and then it faded with an alarming speed.

Don't forget about us, Edward. Don't forget about her.

She knew I could hear her thoughts… I ran through the forest. Away from everything, and pondered where I would go, when I was going to see them again, and how long I could take it before I would go back to Bella and plead her forgiveness. I could only think of where I was going, The other two never showed up in my thoughts again. I had to find Victoria and kill her, and love Bella from far away. Only then could I ever even let Bella into my agonized thoughts once in a while.