Today is my birthday and as an auto gif i'm uploading this :P so here it's the second chapter, hope you like it :)

Normal POV

Kendall was sitting on the grass, thinking about his feelings and wondering why was that happening to him, he was so confused and so stressed that he was even crying, and that was something really unusual in him.

No one else was there or at least that was what he thought but suddenly someone spoke

"There you are"

Kendall was paralyzed, he knew who the owner of that voice was, it was from one of his friends, and it was James's voice. He didn't want anyone to see him in that state and he didn't want to give explanations about why he was like that. It was something too personal for him.

James sat down next to Kendall and the first thing Kendall did was look to one side because he didn't want James to see that there were tear in his eyes. However when James looked at him he could notice that Kendall had been crying.

"Kendall, what happened?" James asked him really worried about his friend.

At that moment Kendall got up without saying anything with the intention of leaving but James also got up quickly and grabbed his arm to stop Kendall from leaving.

"You're not going to get away from me Kendall, what happened?"

Kendall moved his arm to free himself of his friend's grasp and without looking at him or speaking, he started to walk but at that moment James grabbed his arm again.

"Leave me alone James" Kendall told him, moving his arm to free himself again from his friend's grasp, and then he wiped his tears and kept walking.

James would never shut up when he wants to say something and that was why without even thinking he asked Kendall:

"Does it have something to do with Logan?"

Kendall was paralyzed for a while but then he kept walking pretending that James's questions didn't affect him one bit but the truth was that inside he was panicking and thinking 'It can't be true, how can he know it? I can't believe it, what's going on?'

James was walking behind him.

"Don't ignore me Kendall, we have been friends for a long time, six year to be exact, don't do that to me"

Kendall was still walking without saying anything.

"I have been observing you lately and I could see that you always act differently when you are with him"

Both of them were silent for a while till James spoke again:

"I also saw that you were a little red when he hugged you today"

James had started to walk faster and by the time he told him that he was in front of Kendall and he could see that Kendall was red again.

"You were exactly like you are right now or maybe a little redder"

"It's none of your business James" Kendall told him and started to walk faster to be in front of James again.

"Kendall, tell my true, are you gay?"

Kendall stood still and then with a serious voice he said:

"Don't bother me James"

"I thought that you were a little less cowardly but I see that I was wrong because you don't even have the courage to confesses that to a friend"

Kendall kept walking without saying a word.

"I can see now that you're as cowardly as any other person even though you try to hide it sometime" James added a while later.

"Leave me alone" Kendall told him angrily.

"Okay, I will leave you alone, but remember that now I know your not so little secret"

Kendall turned around and looked at him with fear in his face, and then he looked ahead and kept walking. Upon seeing Kendall's face of panic James just laughed and said:

"Don't worry Kendall, I won't say anything"

"I never admitted anything James"

"If it wasn't true you would have already denied it and besides your face says more than one thousand words"

"You don't understand anything James, leave me alone"

"At least you are not denying it" James said

Kendall stood still, shut his eyes tightly, clenched his fists and said:

"Stop it James, leave me alone, I'm being serious"

"If you like to suffer alone and in silence, good for you, I just wanted to help you; I came here to talk with you about this, however I never thought that you were this bad about all this. but now I see that you prefer to be like this alone and without talking with anyone"

James went back to Logan's house and Kendall kept walking alone.

Kendall's POV

Am I that obvious? I can't believe that James have realized that, I want to kill myself, not literally but I just want the earth to swallow me for a whole year, how could I let anyone see that weakness on me? I can't believe it. I feel so stupid right now, this entire situation is confusing me a lot, I'm scared, I didn't want anyone to know that I like him.

Normal POV

At the same time in their apartment.

Logan saw how Kendall left without saying a word after he hugged him.

"Ey, is something wrong?" Carlos asked him when he notice that his friend had gotten a little sad

"No, why?" Logan told him a little surprised.

"I don't know your face changed after Kendall left"

"I it's just that I wish he would show a little more affection toward me"

"But Kendall is like that, you know him" Carlos told him.

"Yes but..." 'I don't know why his behavior upset me like that, it's just that sometime I think he doesn't consider me his friend' Logan thought and then ended what he was saying with an:

"But, never mind"

Carlos looked at him a little confused.

Upon noticing his friend's confused face Logan said:

"Sometime I feel that he hates me and doesn't even consider me a friend"

"Ey, don't say that, Kendall does consider you a friend, you know that"

"I don't really know"

"You're overreacting, don't worry so much"

"Yes maybe you are right," Logan told hi m a little sad.

At that moment they saw that James was leaving.

"Where are you going?" Carlos asked him

"I just want to walk a little, don't worry, I will be back in a while" James said.

Logan's POV

I don't even know why Kendall's behavior upset me the way it did, after all Carlos was right, Kendall has been acting like that for a while, this was nothing new. I'm just exaggerating by thinking that he hates me, but I just don't know. I wish he was a little different but I don't even know why.