Starting at a new school is never easy for anyone. It's even harder when you have no parents. I was living in a foster home. It was horrible, but at the start of summer I was contacted by a man who claims to be my uncle. I've never heard of him, but he claims to be my uncle, and I'm not going to argue over it. Anything to get me out of that wretched foster home. Anyways, my name is Lexa Woods if you hadn't figured that out yet. I am from DC, but since I moved in with my Uncle Gustus I now live in Polis. Today is my second day of junior year at this new high school in this new city with all of these new people.
My Uncle Gustus is an interesting man. He's single with no kids. Dude is in his forties, maybe fifties and he takes no interest in anyone. It's weird because he's a really big guy. Like 6'2" maybe 6'3" almost 300lbs, but one of his favorite hobbies is knitting. I'm not judging, it just took me by surprise is all. He seems very caring and loving. He's incredibly protective too. He's pretty good at braiding hair though. He should be with how long his hair and beard are. I'm just glad to be in the care of family instead of that horrible foster home. It wasn't even a home. Just a place they could collect a check.
Back home I didn't really make friends. Living in foster home, you learn to not trust anyone. People betray you, stab you in your back, and lie straight to your face. They act like they care when in all actuality they could care less about you. Life is rough and it's painful, but the experiences are what build us. So I learned at a young age to keep my heart guarded and my walls built high. Unfortunately, I think those walls will come down much sooner than later.
Yesterday morning I was looking for my homeroom when I bumped into the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. Not only did I just bump into her though, oh no, I pretty much shoulder checked her to the ground. On accident of course. You should've seen her eyes. I've never felt a connection like this with anyone, especially not my first time meeting them. Anyways, so I got a little bold and asked her for her number. Would you believe she put her number in my phone under the alias of "Cute Blonde". Can't blame her for that though.
"Hello Lexa." I think her name is Raven? Damn I should've paid more attention.
"Umm hello."
"I'm Raven in case you forgot." Nailed it. "So I want to know what your intentions are with my girl Clarke?"
"Oh I don't really have any. I just met her yesterday, so yeah."
"Look if you like her, it's totally cool. But just so you know, if you hurt her I will end you. Got it?" That is one evil smirk.
"Loud and clear boss." I say as she turns and walks towards Clarke's other best friend, Octavia if I'm not mistaken. I'm pretty sure Octavia and Raven are more than friends. I don't know any friends who are so possessive with their friends. Raven always has her arm around Octavia, and yesterday when Raven was clearly joking with the flirting, Octavia got pissed and left the table. I wonder if they know how terribly obvious they are? I'll have to ask Clarke about this later.
"Hey there, Commander." God that smile.
"Hello cute blonde. How did you sleep last night?" I probably look like the world's biggest dork with how wide my smile is. Oh well.
"Hmm I slept well. How about you?"
"Yeah I huh slept pretty good too."
"That's good. I guess I better go find my seat in the front of the classroom. See you after class, Commander." Ugh that wink. She's killing me, and I'm much too young to die.
Why is physics so boring? It's not hard for me to understand, just hard for me to pay attention when that teacher has such a monotone voice. I probably looked like a creeper staring at the back of Clarke's head all class. Now i get to sit next to her in English. Then dance with her in dance class. I'm so glad we are taking that together. I wouldn't want to dance with anyone else. The Waltz was so much fun yesterday. I've never danced a day in my life, but I thought it would be fun for me and maybe I could make new I have. Well one anyways. Clarke was a great dance partner too. She said I was a good lead for the dance. The teacher said extra credit will be given to the best partnership. Obviously that'll be me and Clarke. I'm more worried for when we get into the hip hop stuff. I wonder if anyone else happened to notice that our teacher looks a lot like Brittany from the show Glee?
"So Lexa, you ready for try-outs tonight? You were amazing last night!"
"O, calm down. I know it's lunch time, but damn. Chill out."
"I'm sorry, I'm just excited for this season. I think we could actually win state."
"Yeah I think I'm ready for try-outs. You guys were incredible by the way. It's like you have been playing together for forever."
"Yeah well that's what happens when you grow up together and end up enjoying the same sport and each other's company." Raven is kind of snarky. I like it, I think we'll be good friends.
"Ray be nice." See there's another terribly obvious sign that they are more than friends. Why is Octavia stroking Raven's arm?
"Fine. But honestly I think you'd make a great addition to our team. Better?"
"Much Better. Hey Clarke!"
"Ugh hey guys. Hi Lexa. so bright and early this morning when my mom got home from the hospital, she asks me if I've started looking into colleges so I can decide where I want to go. Junior year just started!"
"Is she okay? Your mom I mean. You said she was in the hospital."
"Oh yeah, she's a doctor." Way to look stupid Lexa. Real smooth buddy. Saved by the bell. Thank God.
The rest of the day went really well. Clarke and I talked a bit more. I'm just really excited for this try-out. I played volleyball at my old high school, but they weren't very good. This team looks like they're amazing. I even looked up their record from last year. They went to state, but were bumped out of the tournament during the semi-finals. My school lost all but three games I think. It'll be nice to be on a winning team for once. All I've got to do is show them why I deserve to be on this team, Easier said than done right?
"Hey Commander. You did great tonight! Only two more nights of try-outs."
"Thanks Clarke. I'm excited. I'd be fine with JV or Varsity honestly."
"Oh, you'll be varsity." Now Raven is being nice?
"Ray butt out. Lexa and I are having an A, B conversation, so C your way out of it." Awe she's so cute. Raven doesn't look very pleased with that comment though. Oh well.
"Ugh rude Clarke. Hey O, you ready to go?"
"Yeah ba..Ray I am. See you guys later!" I'm pretty sure she was about to call Raven babe. Why don't they just come out? This school seems pretty gay friendly. I mean I haven't seen anyone pick on the two gay guys I saw holding hands in the hallway earlier.
"Bye guys. Drive safe. I'll text you guys later. Ray, I definitely need tutoring in physics."
"I got you boo. We'll study this weekend yeah?"
"Alright see ya tomorrow! Bye O!"
"Bye Clarky!"
"Can I ask something without being too nosey?" I hope she doesn't think I'm some weirdo.
"Shoot Commander!" Just don't shoot me.
"Are Octavia and Raven dating?" Why is she giggling?
"Mmmm, you know I've been wondering that myself lately. I knew they got closer over summer, especially since Lincoln dumped Octavia and joined the army. And Raven was interested in this guy Finn, until she found out he was dating two girls at once. I haven't asked them though. I just figure they'll tell me when they're ready." And there's that smile again.
"You're a pretty great friend. So, are you single? Not that I'm asking. Well I am asking, but I'm not asking. But I am asking…." Way to look stupid again.
"Woah Commander, calm down. It's a simple question that has a simple answer. Yes I am very much single. Are you?" She's single! Yes!
"Yeah I am. I've only dated one person, and that lasted like a week. I wouldn't even call it a relationship."
"Oooooh what was his name?" That's cute, she thinks I'm straight. Oh crap. I thought she was flirting with me, she's straight.
"Oh, um her name was Costia. It was last year. A short fling, she decided girls weren't her thing. She was my first kiss"
"I haven't dated anyone. I've kissed a few people though. Nothing good though. Well, time to head home. Text me later?"
"Oh yeah I will."
Well today went really well until I asked Clarke if she was single. I'm so stupid to think that she'd ever be interested in me. Maybe she's just a really flirty person. Not like a slut or anything. Not that being a slut is a bad thing. Do your thang, no judgement from me. I should probably apologize for being nosey. Ugh.
To Cute Blonde: Hey I just wanted apologize for getting into your business earlier. 9:00pm
From Cute Blonde: You weren't being nosey. So stop apologizing, you goof! 9:05pm
To Cute Blonde: Okay. Well I guess I'll let you go. 9:07pm
From Cute Blonde: Do you not enjoy talking to me Commander? :( 9:10pm
Is she serious? Of course I enjoy talking to her! She's probably the first person to get any information out of me, ever.
To Cute Blonde: No, I definitely do. I just don't want to make you uncomfortable. I thought you were flirting with me these past couple days. It didn't even occur to me that you were straight. 9:11pm
To Cute Blonde: I'm sorry, I shouldn't have assumed anything. 9:11pm
From Cute Blonde: Why would I be uncomfortable talking to you? I was most def flirting with you. I'm not straight, I'm bisexual. You can stop freaking out now Lex. It's no big deal. 9:12pm
Because I'm gay af. Wait, did she say bisexual. So I might have a chance.
To Cute Blonde: So you were flirting with me? Why? 9:13pm
From Cute Blonde: Why not flirt? You're really cute. 9:14pm
She thinks I'm cute! Yes! Time to downplay the excitedness. I'm a total badass. I'm the commander, in my head anyways.
To Cute Blonde: I'm not cute. I'm badass. We established that last night. You're really cute too by the way. 9:16pm
From Cute Blonde: Well Commander it seems we have an understanding. We both find each other to be attractive. I'm glad that's all cleared up. 9:19pm
Hell yeah I'm glad we cleared that up. "I have a chance, I have a chance." Okay, stop singing to yourself Lexa.
To Cute Blonde: Well, I am beyond exhausted. I'm going to get some sleep. Have a great night and sweet dreams Clarke. 9:21pm
From Cute Blonde: Sweet dreams, Commander. See ya tomorrow.
So maybe things aren't so bad after all. Maybe I do have a chance with Clarke. Maybe my life is getting better.