"Go sit down Bella." My dad told me when I was standing. I waited for him to begin. Waited for the pain to worsen. Waited for him... "Bella, this isn't working out. You can't just sit here and wait while you are in this much pain. It isn't healthy. There is a very good chance they won't be coming back, it has already been two months." He sighed.

"They will be coming back!" I mumbled, to low for him to comprehend.

"They are probably living a happy life in L.A. right now. I heard that Carlisle got a job in a big hospital down there and that he is getting paid a lot." This one hurt more than all of the other things he said to try and calm me down. The thought that they lied to me and everyone here so that I can't go after them.

"I know they are not in L.A.!" I screamed. "Money isn't an problem. They have an endless amount!"

"Is that why you liked him?" Charlie asked me.

"No. I loved him because he was the only person who really understands me. When he left he took more than you originally thought." I mumbled more towards the end.

"How do you know that the Cullens are not in L.A.?" I held my sides even harder. I have tried not to think of any of them, since they left. Esme, who accepted me from the very start. Carlisle, who was always there to help me. Emmett, who could cheer anybody up. My heart is digging into my sides like a razor blade.

I looked down at my hand before I answered. The scar on my hand that sparkles in the sun and is a few degrees cooler than the rest of my skin. James. "They are in Alaska. They all are. Since the day he left that's where they all were." I realized. I swallowed and tried to get rid of the sudden lump in my throat. The blood in my veins started pulsing faster. "Could I be alone for a few minutes?" I asked as I got up from the chair and walked up stairs.

There was a book open on my desk and as I walked by, four words caught my attention. 'Give in to temptation....' They didn't want me around as a human annoyance or immortal for that matter. I sat down on a chair near the window. I opened the window and took a deep breath. The phone rang down stairs but I didn't budge.

I know that the Cullens are not in L.A., but would they stay in Denali? How hard is it to find a coven of his kind in Alaska? I know, some where, some how, he exists. And there are others...

And there are others...

there are others... there are others...

There are others!

I looked down at my hands and that confirmed it. " Dinner is here." Charlie yelled up the stairs. The sound of his voice made me jump, which caused me to fall on my face.

"Ow," I said while rubbing my nose.

I went down stairs and sat across from Charlie. For the first week after he left I didn't eat anything, and Charlie got worried. So now I have to eat seconds, every day. I started picking at the warm piece of pizza on my plate.

"Bella, you are not the first person to go through this." My dad started. "You know that, right?"

"Yes, I am Charlie, yes I am." I mumbled. "We had something special and I can't forget that." He was my other half. I had chosen my life, but he had a different plan. "He is the reason I am alive today."

"He is also the reason you are lifeless Bella. The reason you wake up screaming at night. The list goes on..."

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget. "It's not his fault. I was running with the wrong crowd and it was just a matter of time."