To my dearest Hermione,

By the time you read this, I will be gone. No, I am not going to kill myself. Though I have of course thought about it. With the hell that is my life, why wouldn't I consider it? I would then be with my parents and Sirius. And as the great Manipulator keeps saying, "to the well prepared mind, death is just the beginning of the next adventure."

No, I am as they say Going to America. I am getting the hell out of Dodge and I would highly recommend that you do the same. It is not safe for you and your parents in England anymore. I remember that you once told me how much you enjoyed your vacation to Australia, maybe you should move there. At least they speak English there, so you wouldn't have to learn a new language. To ensure that you can do this, I had the Goblins convert some Galleons to Pounds and deposited a million dollars into your parents account. I know that your parents are dentists and are well off, but I wanted to make sure that nothing kept them from going. I also had another million put into your account too. and don't worry, that I can't afford it. The Potters were very rich. Actually, let me rephrase that...Very, very, very rich. Even more than that ponce, Malfoy and I can easily afford it. It won't even put a little dent in my vaults. Your safety means more to me than any amount of money. And if you are thinking of returning it... Don't! The Goblins have strict instructions to refuse to put it back into my vault. I also gave enough money to the Weasleys and Lovegoods to get away too. Neville is almost as rich as me, so doesn't need the money. The Death Eaters will target them too for going with me to the DOM. Boy, I wish I could see Molly's face when she realizes that she can't give it back. Luna and her dad have relatives in Sweden and I recommended to the Weasleys that Romania is nice this time of year. I really hope they take my advice. (I may have used a little guilt blackmail on Molly. I reminded her to remember the fate of her brothers, Gideon and Fabian Prewitt.)

This year I have had a lot of time to think about things and our past adventures and have come to realize that Dumbledore is not looking out for my best interest. He has known the Prophecy my whole life, but the only training I have received is a basic 6th year education. The only extra spells I have learned was during the tournament. You know all those special sessions with Dumbles this year? You would think that I was learning new spells and high level hexes. NOPE. Basically he is just showing me memories of Tommy's life, and taking forever to do. We could have done them all in one afternoon, but he seems on making it want to last throughout the year. Not exactly going to help me in a fire fight against one of the most powerful Dark wizards of all time. What am I going to do? Ask him over for tea and see who had the crappier childhood? I even asked him if Flitwick could train me, since he was a duel master and you know what he told me?

"Don't worry about that right now. We will get to that later." He told me with his damn eye twinkling.

Later? Tommy boy is trying to kill me right now, and we will get to that LATER? How the hell am I supposed to win with 6th year spells?

"Neither can live, while the other survives...", I have come to the conclusion that Dumbles doesn't plan on me surviving my encounter with Voldyshorts. I am not entirely sure, but I think the plan is for Tommy to kill me and then Dumbles can kill him, therefore getting all the glory and making me a martyr. So instead, I am out of here. Somewhere, very far away from all this madness.

Now you are going to ask why would I leave? Why would I abandon magical Britain to Moldyshorts? Answer me this question. Why do I have to be the one to save it? What possible reason would I have to risk my life for a bunch of ungrateful greedy bigots? Their only desire is to subjugate and enslave others so that they can stay in power and don't want to be bothered with actually making life better for everyone. And the Sheeple (People-Sheep) refuse to think for themselves. One moment, I am the saviour of their world and the next, I am an attention seeking brat. All because some Ministry people don't like dealing with the truth. Some have even said that I am the next Dark Lord. As if I would want to rule over the sheeple. Riiiiigggghhhhtt. Do you have any idea how much paperwork that is?

Still, I would have stayed for you. You have been my best friend for 5 and half years. You have stood by me throughout all the crap I had to go through at the supposedly "safest place in the world". From saving the Stone in 1st year, the whole Heir of Slytherin in 2nd , saving Sirius in 3rd, That damn tournament in 4th, and me dealing with Umbitch last year. Not once, did you not support me. Even the Firebolt incident in 3rd year was you trying to keep me safe. I am sorry I reacted badly about that, but I still wish you had come to me first. I would have understood, if you had explained it to me. I didn't want to have another fall either.

I want you to know, I would have asked you to the Yule Ball in 4th year, but Ron had already told me that you were going with him. I think you were his back up plan and that is why he got so mad, when you announced that you were already going with someone. Unlike Ron, I knew that you were always a girl. A very beautiful attractive girl, but I was scared of ruining our friendship if it didn't work out. You are the single most important person in my life and I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't been there. And now, it seems like you don't want to be my friend anymore.

I think I am in love with you, but then I have no idea what love is. Growing up with my relatives, kind of ensured that. Not once in all my 15 years living there did I feel wanted or needed. Reviled, abused, beaten and ignored, but never wanted. You were my first hug that I remember and my first kiss, even if it was only on the cheek. I am sure that my mum and dad loved me. At least that is what I hear, but I don't remember that. And am sure Sirius probably did too, but Azkaban really messed him up big time. It didn't really bother me that much when he confused me with my dad. I know that he wasn't thinking too straight somedays and being stuck in that house only made it worse. That is another thing I will never forgive Dumbledore for. NOBODY likes to be locked away, even if it is for their own safety. I know, because I HATED being locked up at my relatives. Well at least that will never happen again. I made sure to give the Dursleys a nice parting gift. If everything went to plan then the place should be in total flames by now. A nice little FireBall gift from the twins. God, I love those guys .

As for you, I know that I care a great deal about you and I am very attracted to you. Maybe was just lust, maybe more? I will say this, whenever you hugged me, certain parts of my body reacted very positive to your physical contact. There were many times, I had to go to the bathroom and relieve some of the stress you were causing. Is that love? Dumbles says that my ability to love is the "so called power he knows not", but I am thinking that is the power I don't know either. How can I? I hope that doesn't embarrass you to much. But I know you don't think you are very pretty and I am letting you know that you are totally wrong. You are a very beautiful young woman. I hope that someday you realize that and just settle for the Red-headed idiot. Ron may be a good friend, but even I know that you two would be totally wrong for each other.

So anyway, that brings us to the present. You have obviously decided that we shouldn't be friends anymore. I am not stupid, it wasn't hard to figure it out. Even you have become afraid of me now. I led you into a dangerous situation with my stupidity and it almost got you killed and did get Sirius killed. I am really, really sorry and hope that someday that you will be able to forgive me for that. I would take full blame for it, but know that Dumbles is also at least halfway to blame, by ignoring me and not telling me anything. If he had just told me what was going on, I wouldn't have fallen for it and Sirius would still be alive and none of you would have been hurt. Once again, my stupidity got my friends hurt. So I am going away where I can't get anymore people killed following me. Personally I think the Prophecy is rubbish and I fulfilled it when I was a baby, but as long as Voldy and Dumbles still believe it is in force, they will continue to make my life a living hell.

I know I don't have the right to ask you this, because you don't want to be friends and my advice is usually not very good, but I hope you do this anyway. For the safety of your Parents, take them and get the hell out of England. Go somewhere very far away and live a nice long life. Find a nice Bloke that treats you like you deserve and have lots of fat babies. I will miss you and will never forget you.

Love

Harry James Potter

(The last of the The Ancient and Most Noble House of Potter)