Hey everyone, sorry for the long gap between updates looks at reviews …only two? sniff sniff…sigh, come on people I need feedback! Anyway, I'm too happy right now to let anything get me down because I have just found out that I got accepted to my top choice college! All my hard work has paid off! Yay! Celebrates, dances, throws confetti, sweatdrops and composes herself Ahem Anyway, with this story, I'm thinking it's going to be SasuSaku, I'm also trying to make it a little love triangle hmm…that's a little hard thinks…. still thinking Anyway for now I will write chapter 2 and worry about the rest later. Enjoy! And Review! Come on just press the little "submit" button…and thanks to those who did review! Angel Puppeteer and saikoko! Thank you!

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Insight: Reflections of A Teenage Avenger
Note- following is in Sasuke's POV Sasuke's thoughts are in italics….yea…

I walked down the road to my apartment, looking straight ahead, but lost in my thoughts. The Sakura blossoms were swirling in the air as the wind caught them. Surely some people would find this fascinating, they would give up a whole day of work and training just to look at flowers. I of course would take no part of it, I was an avenger and the only reason I had come was to train, not to have a picnic. The wind picked up and blew through the trees, shaking the branches of the resilient Sakura trees. It was blowing pretty hard. There was now a tornado of sakura blossoms in front of me. Swirling, swirling fiercely in the harsh wind. Not that I felt it. No, ever since I can remember I would never feel the sensation of wind, or breeze on my face. All I felt was numbness; I guess I have closed myself off from the world, feeling only numbness, not caring about anything. For some reason, it never bothered me, until now.

I shook my head hard. For some reason deep thinking was giving me a headache. Whatever, I thought and kept on walking.
I continued my walk paying attention to nothing, except the throbbing of my head. I tried to keep my mind thought free, but no matter what, the thoughts kept coming.

Today was a waste of time, very much so, I got no training done, and now I'm in a bad mood Not only that but I ended up yelling at Sakura again. Very mature, Uchiha, taking your bad mood out on your teammates.
I was always yelling or insulting Sakura the only girl who I have become close to. Well that is, as close as my comfort zone allowed. She was always clinging to me, and recently taken to those stupid love poems. Geez she's so annoying, when will she give up? But she never gives up, no matter what I say to her, she always smiles that same smile…

A put a hand to my throbbing head, and tried to shake the thoughts that were overflowing. Nothing doing.
Damn you idiot why do always do this? Being in a bad mood doesn't qualify for hurting your teammates, especially…
Damn, why every time I think of her, the guilt just takes over? I feel so weird around her, she draws me in with her smile, she's interesting to look at, yet I'm so afraid to let myself…Stop it! Stop it! I am an avenger, I have only one goal, I have no time to contemplate stupid feelings…However, I feel bad for yelling at her. Maybe I should apologize? Hah, Uchiha Sasuke, apologize? Not likely.

I felt the guilt and anger rise up and the headache worsened yet again. Damn why was she always clinging to me, smiling, being so nice, writing stupid love poems, and following me around, despite my acting so cold to her?
It was rather pathetic, always smiling when I had clearly made her want to cry. The same pathetic smile, it just made me feel more guilty. I'm not supposed to feel this way! Arg, avengers aren't supposed to worry about such trivial things as the opposite sex.

Not really noticing where I was going, I bumped into someone. I muttered an apology without looking up, and kept going.
"Sasuke-kun?" I froze, and turned around slowly. Of all people…"Sakura?" I responded rather uncertainly, "What are you doing here?"

She looked at me confused "I live here".

That was when I noticed the key in her hand, the key to her apartment. I looked up and down the street and realized that I was practically on the other side of town.

"Oh" I said, feeling like an idiot. Not cool Uchiha.

Sakura looked confused, she stared at me. "Eh, Sasuke-kun I know you don't live anywhere around here so why

"A walk", I cut her off. "I was taking a walk." I said coolly.

Sakura still looked at me, her green eyes seemed sad somehow. She ran a hand through her pink hair."Oh I see."

We just stared at each other. Sakura's usually bright eyes were dull in the fading afternoon light. I didn't know what she was thinking, but I was sure she was still hurt from what I had said earlier. I felt like scum. I had half a mind to apologize. Hah! I was going nuts.

The streets were dark now, the only light was from the houses nearby, and we just stared at each other in silence. It felt like an eternity. I couldn't take it.

"Sakura I…" Her stare made me lose my words. I'm sorry, my mind finished.

"What is it Sasuke-kun?" she asked, attentively. I couldn't say it.

"I think you should get home, it's pretty dark", I said looking for a way out.

"Sasuke…" she started. She looked at a loss of words "I am home." She said confirming my hypothesis that I had indeed gone crazy. Baka! My mind screamed at me.

Damn, I didn't give in. I put on the cool act again, even though I felt like crawling into a hole, and never coming out. "Oh yea well, I guess you better get upstairs then."

I turned to leave. "I'll be going now .See you around."

I didn't even turn my head but I could tell she was staring at me from her front step. Well that went well, I told myself sarcastically. Whatever, I thought and kept on walking, relieved to realize that my headache had subsided, without my noticing. Did she do that? I thought. Feh, I was getting softer and softer around her, it was only a matter of time before—

I stopped short in my tracks when I noticed the thick fog settle in, the sky too was hazy and the wind was violently shaking the trees around me. Hmm must be a storm coming, I thought.

My thoughts were confirmed when a chaotic gale of wind and rain came crashing down on the empty streets of Konoha, crackling on the pavement. I sounded like glass beads falling and shattering on the ground. Needless to say I was the only idiot outside at the mercy of the chaotic downpour. In seconds I was soaked to the skin, feeling the sensation of the painfully icy water in my bones. I sneezed. Great now I had caught a cold, just what I needed.

I ran down the streets looking for shelter. I suddenly remembered, that this was a part of town I would usually hang out in. Being alone with nobody at home waiting for me I would spend my nights wandering around and staying out late. If I recalled correctly that Ramen shop, my usual hangout, was around here. I finally found the place about 5 streets from Sakura's house. As I walked soaking wet the waitress Mitchiko greeted me.

"Hey Sasuke-chan! Long time no see!"

I hated when she called me that, she was 22 and she always referred to me as her "little bro".

"Hey" I muttered.

"Nn..Sasuke-chan, you're soaked" ,she said handing me a towel. I took it and dried off my dripping wet hair. Then I took a seat in front of the counter.

"What are you doing out in this weather?" she asked. "It's a bit late, you know" Then she muttered something about young boys wandering the streets.

"Not much" I said, ignoring her last comment. I wasn't in a talking mood. Correction, I was never in a talking mood.

Mitchiko looked disappointed at my lack of enthusiasm. "Eh, Sasuke-chan is always as cold as ice" she said dramatically, eyes closed, putting a hand to her head, like a damsel in distress.

I rolled my eyes.

"Anyway Sasuke-chan whatever it is that is bothering you can tell me", she said enthusiastically, ignoring the death glare I was giving her. "You really do seem depressed, what is it? Rough day? Feeling sick? Girl trouble? (how did she figure it out?) Tell Ne-chan all about it", she said leaning over the counter and smiling into my face.

Geez. She was seriously always like this. Asking a million questions trying to get me to open up.

I glared at her. "What are you my therapist? Just give me the menu."

She handed it to me and said, "You really are cold Sasuke-chan. But aside from that, if you wont tell me about your troubles, I will tell you about mine. I scoffed, that would be amusing.

"Oh by the way, your order?"

I ordered what I usually ordered which was the house special ramen and she disappeared into the kitchen. (A/N- Sasuke has known Mitchiko for a long time as this is his favorite restaurant. At least that is how it is in my version)

I ran my hand through my hair. It was still soaking wet. Geez, I thought. I wasn't having the best day.

A few minutes later Mitchiko reappeared with my order, which I took with gratitude, since I hadn't eaten all day.

Then she decided to just stand there and watch me eat, which I found rather annoying. Not to mention, creepy.

I looked up from ramen, and glared at her. "What is your problem? Why are you staring at me while I'm eating?"

She smiled. "Because you're so cute!" I resisted the urge to face fall. Typical Mitchiko.

She was still smiling not to mention staring, at me. "Besides, I'm waiting for you to compliment my perfect cooking skills.

I didn't even look up. "You're weird".

She sweatdropped. And her face grew dark as she looked down in defeat.

"But if it makes a difference…" I continued. "It takes pretty good.

She beamed. She seriously smiles too much I thought just like…that girl. I mentally shook the thought out. Why did I have to think of her now? (cough Sakura cough )

I guess something in my face expression changed, because Mitchiko was staring at me a worried look on her face.

" Sasuke-chan? I know you don't like to show you're feelings but…is something wrong?"

I looked her straight in the eyes. "I'm fine".

She looked at me suspiciously. "Uh huh," she said unconvinced. "I've seen that look before. Her eyes lit up strangely. "It's a girl isn't it? Oh Sasuke-chan! Could it be that have you finally experienced the woes of love!"

"No!" I felt my face heat up. Her eyes grew wide and sparkly. I knew what she was thinking.

She giggled. Why do girls do such things? "Hee hee Sasuke chan is blushing!"

"Am not! (flat out lie) What the hell is your problem?" I felt my face grow hotter. Damn you red blood cells! Coming to the surface of my skin, and turning it the color of a tomato…

Mitchiko was beside herself, I bet she thought it was cute. Everything I did seemed cute to her.

"Embarrased huh? Oh well then I'll have to remember to pry this information from you later."

I finished my dinner and she picked up the plate. And I paid my bill.

The silence was eminent, but of course it didn't stay that way for long.

"Sasuke-chan is so cute!"

"Shut it"

Anxious to change the subject I quickly added, "Hey weren't you going on about telling me your problems?"

She sighed. "Yea, but I don't think you really care."

"Whatever"

"So this is what's going on…" she started. Mitchiko wasn't the type to stay quiet. She always had some story or other to tell.

To make a long story short it was about her boyfriend and how he and she wanted to get married, but he wanted to take dangerous job as a jounin in some other country. She wanted to go with him but he told her to stay in Konoha. Two years have passed and she has only heard from him in once in the whole year. She doesn't know when he'll be back, and she's afraid he'll stop loving her. Or something like that…(A/N as a guy, and a very angsty guy at thatSasuke doesn't really understand…Mitchiko's heartbreak)

When she finished her story she was all teary eyed, she looked at me and waited for me to say something.I didn't know what to say.

"uh…"

"Boys don't usually care about this stuff." She said.

"No, it's just…" What could I say?

Mitchiko beamed. "Sasuke-chan, promise me that whoever she is you won't break her heart."

"HUH?" she had caught me off guard.

" When you love someone you shouldn't hold back, tell her before it's too late, and don't let her heart shatter." Mitchiko then busied herself with cleaning the counter.

I still had no clue what she was talking about. "What in the world are telling me?"

Mitchiko looked up and smiled. "You know as well as I do, there's nothing you can hide from me, I can read you like a book. Of course, when you came in here I knew exactly what was occupying you. Sasuke finally likes someone. Ah teen love is so cute!"

I fell face down on the floor. "Arg what is it with you? I assure you that I'm not in love!"

Mitchicko just smiled form behind the counter. Goodnight, Sasuke-chan, it's late, young boys like you shouldn't be out at this hour.

I got up from the floor and brushed myself off. "I'm 14" I said simply and opened the door. "See you."

Mitchiko beamed. "Bye Sasuke-chan thanks for visiting me!"

Out in the street there was darkness everywhere; the only light was coming from the moon in the now clear sky. As I walked home I revised the days events. Mitchiko Is so weird. I smiled to myself, I knew she was looking out for me, in big sister way. I appreciated it very much, but of course I would never say it out loud. As for my so called "girl problem" I decided I would be nicer to Sakura from now on, and I guess try to understand her more. Not that I would ever understand the opposite sex.

With my mind clear I walked the way back to my apartment. The Sakura blossoms were still swirling in the air in the gentle breeze. I smiled a little as I walked. The wind felt good as it I felt it whip my face, for the first time.

A/N- How was it? Good? Bad? Sad? This chapter was extremely difficult for me because I had to keep making sure that the dialogue fit with Sasuke's personality. I tried to keep it IC, and he happens to be a hard character to express. Come on people I need to have feed back, anything, criticism or not please review! Flames are only accepted if they are relevant. If you think it sucks I want to know why. If you have suggestions please email me I will be glad to hear (eh read) them. To everyone that actually reads my work I love you all! Peace!

KageSakura